은호(Eunho) the moment after stepping out of the examination room

[llid5113]

Good evening Eunho! I hope you have had a great day!

I have watched your Monday stream, such a pity that I was busy after that so I didn't have time to write for you immediately (╥_╥). You looked so cute as always!!! Today I still took great time replaying the moment you drank water because??????? YOU LOOKED SO BEYOND CUTE??????? 😭😭😭❤❤❤

Aisss really you gave me such great cute aggression Eunhooo 😭😭❤❤ how can you be soooo cute even in such small manner??? 😭😭❤❤❤❤

And I also recently realized that today was the CSAT day. Although the graduation day at each place is different, still whenever there is one occurs, it always makes me feel so nostalgic and think of mine years ago.

You know Eunho, back then my graduation test days weren't a nice time for me. I mean, I did have great scores and was able to enter a really well-known university at my place.

But, I had nothing.

Holding the pen with such an empty heart, I didn't know what I wanted to fight on those tests for. My dream died, I had nothing to aim for. The only thing my brain acknowledged was I need nice scores. But for what.

You must have heard about the very last moment before we die, our brain will play a fast rewind footage of our life right? I think I was dying during do the examination. My brain fast showed me a whole movie of my life, of how I would die rottenly the moment I stepped out of that examination room door, because I was nothing else but a vain body waiting for the day it collapsed and disappeared forever.

That's why it still feels so unbelievable how I am so full of motivation now. The day I found out about PLAVE was like a hidden door inside me got unlocked. I realized how much I still wanted to live and followed something in my life. I gave myself another chance to start all over again and now I'm here, feeling happy and grateful to wake up everyday and have a chance to keep studying.

It is really beautiful Eunho, especially when you are the one who has been through it. I acknowledge the feelings so clearly that I also have a dream, a dream where everyone can also find their happiness and inner peace. I wish that every student the moment they take the CSAT, is the moment they fight for something, for a dream of their life and every single of them can keep following the meaning of their life. I wish that none of them have to feel so lonely having nothing, instead they can have PLAVE's images as fire burning up their heart just how you guys did to me (´ ω ;`♡). We deserve happiness, so I just hope for the best results to come to all the people who fought hard ✧٩(ˊωˋ*)و✧.

Today must have been a long and stressful day to so many people, so I will end my letter with a peaceful song recommendation: j's lullaby (darlin' I'd wait for you) - Delaney Bailey. Have a good night Eunho, I love you so much!! ❤❤