Hello Steven!
Yesterday was your birthday, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
It was a bit of a chaos in the fandom, but I think that everyone could be happy at the end of the day. You always come to us and I'm so glad you do so. You brought the light once again...
What could we do without you...?
Actually, we're so worried about your (luminous) situation. We don't know what's going on. I just hope that you four are okay. I truly mean it when I say you're everything to me. I was studying for THE exam (which I'll fail but I'm okay with it) and suddenly I read some tweets, some negative tweets related to Luminous future and I collapsed (not fainted or anything like that) for a few minutes. My mom was next to me and she got super confused. I literally stopped, maybe I even stopped breathing for a few seconds. It really felt like my world stopped with the simple thought of not having Luminous in my life.
I refuse to believe in those thoughts. I pushed them to the back of my mind, I kept them in a very very very far away box. Then my mind was full of my memories with luminous, I had bad moments related to you but I had even more good moments with you. I don't know what's going on but I've faith in you and Luminous. I don't know if it's god or the universe who's pushing me to think like this, but I've faith in having luminous with me for the rest of my life, I don't know in which form it'll be, but for now it's like this, luminous as it is.
I won't worry too much about the situation because actually we don't know anything at all. What I know is that I love you and you love us (lumini). I've "lost" you a few times but you always came back, and I know you'll always do it in a way or another.
When I think of you I feel warmth inside of me, happiness, love, safety, happiness, comfort, colors, light... My world seems brighter, safer, warmer, more colorful with you in it. Maybe this isn't forever, but I'll keep cherishing all these moments to keep them while waiting and hoping to have a forever with you (steven, luminous and lumini).
I'm so happy for having you in my life Steven, and I hope I can bring happiness, safety, comfort and light into your life. I've had my heart broken a few times and by having moments with you I could turn those wounds into stitches. I started to love again, to enjoy life again even when bad things happen.
I genuinely love you, my biggest idol, my platonic best friend(?). Thanks for being born, living and choosing all those paths you had to choose. Because all of that led to me meeting you and that's what I cherish the most right now.
My steven, thanks.
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PS: In march this year it's going to be 7 years of knowing you. (〒﹏〒)