ahhh...
this is gonna be hard. 😂
lemme sip my tea first ...
jinyoung군ah... I'm trying hard not to cry rn. i feel so guilty. all these times , everytime i wrote you a lette i always said that i won't ever leave you. but i did. even it was only for few months. you have no idea how it was really painful for me... if i got another choice i would never did that..
even right now, writing to you i feel so ashamed.. i dont want to be that person who make promises easily and ended up breaking them i really didn't want to be that person especially about my promise to you. I'll take any punishment i deserve, if that means i can be forgiven by you. even tho you probably won't believe on me again. I'll just going to prove you with my act instead.
jinyoung군ah... those few months i lost... you must know that it was my biggest regret. it was a weird and horrible experience for me. it was expected, but still going through it was another level of pain.. a pain that i will remember for the rest of my life. a pain that i hope i wont ever feel again.
please forgive me, jinyoung군ah. please don't resent me too much... hiks.
trust me once more and if i broke those promise again, I will accept if you decide to hate me...
actually , I've been wanting to come back for awhile but i was scared. and ashamed. but i then i realized that my love for you is stronger than those feeling...
how can i stay away from my family ? that's a foolish idea since beginning..
now i am back, full or regret and feeling ashamed but also full of passion to prove myself and my worth. until the day i can repay you back for the happiness i received, I won't dare again to leave you.
this time, I'll stay no matter what. i want to grow old with you and enjoy my life as a proud fix and doing my best to give you support you deserve..
ahh i am becoming too emotional ain't i ? i should stop for now.
ah right... please focus on your recovery okay. take your time as much as you need. never blamed yourself , and come back to me as healthy as ever !
I'm looking forward to your performance on stage. i know you're going to do amazing its just that i need to say it out loud. lol i love you bae jinyoung군
i love you since i met you on 2017 and I'll love you until forever.
good night, our baebae . have a nice dream sweetheart~♥