Hello Kevin Moon! It's the last day of August, I hope you had a good one! This is my first attempt into writing an actual fancafe letter to you, I was hesitating at first because I have absolutely no idea what to write to you & till now actually. I have tons of things that I want to say to you but I truly cannot fit them into the words that you might want to hear, this might be a long letter since I want to be as sincere as possible and to express myself!
Believe it or not, it actually took me almost a year to completely be a deobi. I was a silent listener back then & I had your albums on repeat, I was such in a dark place way before I literally found no purpose of living life back then. I was stuck in a slump, my passion for singing was gone, my book worm self decided to stop reading. All I did was study, study, study and that was it. I felt like I've lost so much in me. Why am I telling you this? maybe because you're somehow like my therapist while I'm hoping to get an unsolicited advice from you? lol jk!! ever since I met tbz, and I've had you as my ult bias life just became a lot more easier.
I decided to watch some vids of you boyz on yt, back then I knew what I was getting into. As cliché as it sounds but it seems like I've already found my sunshines in a personified way. But, what makes it different is that I have stumbled upon a video of you saying "There's always someone behind everyone, I'm behind you in whatever endeavours you choose in life." That certain sentiment is still stuck within me to this very day, because believe it or not I have never felt this validated even though I know that you don't know me personally. Because I've been so hard on myself, and upon looking back is there really someone behind me in helping me achieve my aspirations in life? But knowing that, a wild kevin moon appeared and decided to bring me words of comfort. I am at ease.
Speaking of comfort, you're honestly my comfort person. Whenever I feel down and the world is against me a simple look at my lockscreen, a simple song or even a video could instantly boost my serotonin to it's max level. Seeing you happy also makes me happy, the secondhand feeling that I got when you guys had a consecutive win for thrill-ride made me the happiest that I have ever been, because trust me, our sacrifices and our efforts never go into waste when it comes to you boys. I am so proud of you, I just wanted to let you know that if you feel lost in life, if you feel like you're not in your best state believe me that you're always showing your best into putting smiles onto people's faces and that smile could go a long way.
I hope that you're genuinely happy and healthy right now, I hope you're also eating well and prioritizing your mental health aswell as your physical. Because if you made me prioritize myself and my overall wellbeing, your existence radiates so much love and happiness that it has affected me in a way that it benefits me already (: Because of you I decided to read books again! When you did that book review I immediately found a reason to read books since you were so passionate in sharing those lines from the shack. (will read that soon too!!)
You're have a genuine soul and a joyful spirit, I hope you know that. Fate somehow connected me to you, and you are that soul that somehow managed to set alight to mine. I'll watch your growth, I'll continue to support you and to be forever proud of your persistence. I'll be here as a fan who'll grow with you, to be the best versions of ourselves. Because as I'm watching you grow, I'm also making my own progress and that progress wouldn't be possible without you. so, thank you so much kevin moon.
I hope that one day I'd be under that sea of crowd while were singing daydream together ♡ When the time is right I'll meet you okay? Continue to work hard, and I'd be able to deliver my appreciation to you in real life this time. (:
https://open.spotify.com/track/0dCDBADaqgcQ62LdyRsejn?si=iTOMjdw5S9ayqHddQUQ0zg&utm_source=copy-link&dl_branch=1
I also have a song recommendation! The title itself makes it obvious that you're home, and if you're reading this I hope you know that my heart can rest knowing it belongs to you. ♡ (hoping that you would like this song because it's sung by a filipino singer!!) My love for you goes beyond Kevin! Thank you for everything that you do. I'll always be here.
Love, 케이트 ♡