She had told herself that it was Romance with a capital R, not just love but the Big Love, even Love At First Sight.
그녀는 그것이 엄청 대단한 로맨스였다고 되새겼었다
▷ with a capital A/B/C etc. : 극도의
ex) He's trouble with a capital T!
Actually she had just been weak, vulnerable, and eager to make a fool of herself.
실은 그녀는 의지가 나약했으며 유혹에 무방비상태였고, 몹시도 바보짓이 하고 싶었었다
▷ make a fool of oneself : 자기 자신을 웃음・놀림거리로 만들다, 바보 같은 짓을 하다
Later, when she realized that Mr. Wonderful had lied to her and used her with cold, cynical disregard for her feelings, when she discovered that she had given herself to a man who was utterly without respect for her and who lacked even a minimal sense of responsibility, she had been deeply ashamed.
▷ use : 취급하다, 대우하다
Eventually she realized there was a point at which shame and remorse became self-indulgent and nearly as lamentable as the sin that had occasioned those emotions, so she put the shabby episode behind her and vowed to forget it.
결국 그녀는 깨닫게 되었다 / 수치심과 회한이 과도해져서 그 자체가 탐닉의 주체가 된 듯하고, 그러한 감정을 생기게 한 죄업만큼이나 유감스럽고 실망스럽게 느껴지게 되는 시점이 있음을 / 그래서 그녀는 그 추레한 사건을 과거지사로 치부하였고 잊겠노라고 맹세하였다
Except that Joey kept asking who his father was, where his father was, why his father had gone away.
조이가 계속 물어보지만 않았다면 그녀는 그렇게 할 수 있었을 것이다
▷ except that : except the fact that, but for the fact that, if it were not true that ; 어떤 사실이 가능하지 않거나 적용될 수 없는 이유를 설명할 때 쓰임.
And how did you tell a six-year-old about your libidinous urges, the treachery of your own heart, and your regrettable capacity for occasionally making a complete fool of yourself?
무릇 일곱 살짜리에게 말해줄 수는 없는 일이다 / 자신의 음란한 욕구, 자기 스스로 저지른 배반행위, 때때로 완벽한 바보짓거리를 하는 애석해할 만한 재주에 대해
If it could be done, she hadn’t seen the way.
그것이 가능했을 수도 있지만 그녀는 그 방법을 알지 못했다
She was just going to have to wait until he was grown up enough to understand that adults could sometimes be just as dumb and confused as little kids.
그녀는 그저 기다릴 수밖에 없었다 / 그가 …라는 것을 이해하기에 충분할 만큼 자랄 때까지
Until then, she stalled him with vague answers and evasions that satisfied neither of them.
▷ stall : 어떤 일을 할 시간을 벌기 위해 사람을 잡고 시간을 끌다
She only wished he wouldn’t look quite so lost, quite so small and vulnerable when he asked about his father.
▷ lost : 너무 복잡해서 뭐가 뭔지 이해할 수 없어서 당황스러운
It made her want to cry.
조이의 그런 모습에 울고 싶어졌었다
She was haunted by the vulnerability she perceived in him.
그에게서 느껴지는 연약함이 그녀의 뇌리에서 떠나지 않았다
He was never ill, an extremely healthy child, and she was grateful for that. Nevertheless, she was always reading magazine and newspaper articles about childhood diseases, not merely polio and measles and whooping cough─he had been immunized for those and more─but horrible, crippling, incurable illnesses, often rare although no less frightening for their rarity.
그녀는 소아마비, 홍역, 백일해(조이는 이미 그런 종류의 질병과 그 비슷한 것들에 대해서 면역력을 가지고 있었다)뿐만 아니라 희귀성 때문에 덜 무서운 것은 전혀 아니긴 하지만 그래도 대개는 희귀한, 장애를 초래하는 무시무시한 불치병에 이르기까지 아동기의 질병에 관한 잡지와 신문의 기사를 늘 읽으려 들었다.
▷ not merely … but (also): not only … but (also)
▷ often rare although no less frightening for their rarity : 접속사 although 뒤에 ‘주어 + be동사’(they are/were) 생략됨
She memorized the early-warning signs of a hundred exotic maladies and was always on the watch for those symptoms in Joey.
▷ early-warning signs : 조기 징후
Of course, like any active boy, he suffered his share of cuts and bruises, and the sight of his blood always scared the hell out of her, even if it was only one drop from a shallow scratch.
가벼운 찰과상으로 인한 단 한 방울의 피가 났더라도
Her concern about Joey’s health was almost an obsession, but she never quite allowed it to actually become an obsession, for she was aware of the psychological problems that could develop in a child with an overly protective mother.
과잉보호성향의 엄마를 가진 아이에게서 발현될 수 있는 심리적 문제들에 대해 알고 있었기 때문에
That Sunday afternoon in February, when death suddenly stepped up and grinned at Joey, it wasn’t in the form of the viruses and bacteria about which Christine worried.
다가온 죽음의 상황은 크리스틴이 걱정하던 바이러스나 박테리아의 모습으로가 아니었다
It was just an old woman with stringy gray hair, a pallid face, and gray eyes the shade of dirty ice.
▷ stringy : 머리카락이 길고 가늘며 감지 않은 것처럼 지저분한
When Christine and Joey left the mall by way of Bullock’s Department Store, it was five minutes past three.
▷ by way of : 경유하여
Sun glinted off automobile chrome and windshield glass from one end of the broad parking lot to the other.
햇빛이 넓은 주차장의 끝에서 끝까지 주차되어 있는 자동차들의 크롬도금부위와 전면유리창에 반사되어 번뜻거렸다
Their silver-gray Pontiac Firebird was in the row directly in front of Bullock’s doors, the twelfth car in the line, and they were almost to it when the old woman appeared.
그들이 차에 거의 도달했을 때 그 노파가 출현하였다
참고)
1980년대 Pontiac Firebird
(The Servants of Twilight는 1984년 출간됨
http://www.deankoontz.com/all-books)
She stepped out from between the Firebird and a white Ford van, directly into their path.
She didn’t seem threatening at first. She was a bit odd, sure, but nothing worse than that. Her shoulder-length mane of thick gray hair looked windblown, although only a mild breeze washed across the lot.
주차장에는 단지 미풍이 부는 정도였는데도 노파의, 어깨까지 오는 길이의 숱 많은 뻣뻣한 회색 머리카락은 강풍에 휘날리는 듯이 보였다
She was in her sixties, perhaps even early seventies, forty years older than Christine, but her face wasn’t deeply lined, and her skin was baby-smooth; she had the unnatural puffiness that was often associated with cortisone injections.
▷ cortisone : 류머티즘, 관절염 등의 부종을 줄이기 위해 쓰이는 부신피질 호르몬의 일종
Pointed nose. Small mouth, thick lips. A round, dimpled chin. She was wearing a simple turquoise necklace, a long-sleeved green blouse, green skirt, green shoes. On her plump hands were eight rings, all green: turquoise, malachite, emeralds. The unrelieved green suggested a uniform of some kind.
▷ unrelieved : 변화 없는, 단조로운
She blinked at Joey, grinned, and said, “My heavens, aren’t you a handsome young man?”
세상에나, 너야말로 미모(美貌)의 청년이 아니더냐
Christine smiled. Unsolicited compliments from strangers were nothing new to Joey. With his dark hair, intense blue eyes, and well-related features, he was a strikingly good-looking child.
▷ well-related features : 조화로운 번듯한 이목구비
“Yes, sir, a regular little movie star,” the old woman said.
▷ yes, sir : 그렇고말고
“Thank you,” Joey said, blushing.
Christine got a closer look at the stranger and had to revise her initial impression of grandmotherliness.
자상한 할머니 같다는 첫인상의 느낌을 수정할 수밖에 없었다
There were specks of lint on the old woman’s badly wrinkled skirt, two small food stains on her blouse, and a sprinkling of dandruff on her shoulders. Her stockings bagged at the knees, and the left one had a run in it. She was holding a smouldering cigarette, and the fingers of her right hand were yellow with nicotine. She was one of those people from whom kids should never accept candy or cookies or any other treat─not because she seemed the type to poison or molest children (which she did not), but because she seemed the type to keep a dirty kitchen. Even on close inspection, she didn’t appear dangerous, just unkempt.
▷ molest : 짓궂게 괴롭히다
▷ unkempt : 깔끔하지 못한
Leaning toward Joey, grinning down at him, paying no attention whatever to Christine, she said, “What’s your name, young man? Can you tell me your name?”
▷ whatever : 어떤 종류의 것도(부정의 의미를 강조함)
“Joey,” he said shyly.
“How old are you, Joey?”
“Six.”
“Only six and already pretty enough to make the ladies swoon!”
▷ swoon : 성적 매력에 반해 거의 기절할 정도로 황홀해 하다
Joey fidgeted with embarrassment and clearly wished he could bolt for the car. But he stayed where he was and behaved courteously, the way his mother had taught him.
▷ fidget : 안절부절 못하여 꼼지락거리다
The old woman said, “I’ll bet a dollar to a doughnut that I know your birthday.”
나는 확실히 너의 생일을 알고 있단다
▷ bet (someone) dollars to doughnuts that … : 상대방이 가치가 매우 낮은 것을 거는 반면 가치 있는 것을 내기로 걸다 ; 도넛의 가격이 무지막지 저렴했던 시대에 19세기 사용되던 ‘bet dollars-to-buttons’, ‘bet dollars-to-dumplings’ 등의 표현이 변한 것이다(‘0’ 모양인 버튼, 덤플링, 도넛은 가치가 없는 물건을 상징한다). 지면 소중한 n달러를 잃게 되고 이겨봐야 훨씬 가치가 낮은 도넛 n개를 얻게 될 뿐인 내기를 한다는 것은 결국 that절의 사실이 진실임을 확신하고 있다는 의미가 된다.
“I don’t have a doughnut,” Joey said, taking the bet literally, solemnly warning her that he wouldn’t be able to pay off if he lost.
→ 이디엄인 것을 모르고 문자 그대로의 의미로 이해한 조이
“Isn’t that cute?” the old woman said to him. “So perfectly, wonderfully cute. But I know. You were born on Christmas Eve.”
“Nope,” Joey said. “Febroonary second.”
“February second? Oh, now, don’t joke around with me,” she said, still ignoring Christine, still grinning broadly at Joey, wagging one nicotine-yellowed finger at him.
▷ joke around : 시간이나 죽이는 농담을 하다 ; ‘joke’와 ‘joke around’는 그 의미의 차이가 뚜렷이 드러나지는 않으나, 보통 ‘joke’는 verbal적 행위의 의미를 나타내며 ‘joke around’는 그러한 행위를 하는 태도를 나타내는 의미라고 할 수 있다. ‘fuck around’의 순화된 표현으로도 쓰인다.
참고) http://forum.wordreference.com/showthread.php?t=2027203
“Sure as shootin’, you were born December twenty-fourth.”
▷ sure as shooting : 절대적으로 확실한 ; 총으로 쏴서 죽이는 것이 가장 간명하고 확실한 살인 방법이라는 통념에서 유래된 표현
Christine wondered what the old woman was leading up to.
크리스틴은 이 노파가 뭔 개수작을 부리고 있는 것인지 의아스러웠다
Joey said, “Mom, you tell her. Febroonary second. Does she owe me a dollar?”
“No, she doesn’t owe you anything, honey,” Christine said. “It wasn’t a real bet.”
“Well,” he said, “if I’d lost, I couldn’t’ve given her any doughnut anyway, so I guess it’s okay if she don’t give me a dollar.”
음, 내가 이기긴 했지만, 만약 내가 졌더라도 어차피 할머니한테 도넛을 줄 순 없었으니까 할머니도 나한테 1달러를 안 줘도 되는 거지 뭐