Dear Wonho,
when I saw your final speech for the LA concert on Vlive+, i felt the urgent desire to write you a letter.
Just like you I suffered from low self esteem for a long time, even though everyone told me daily how beautiful and lovely I am. I just couldn’t see it as I wasn’t ready to love myself. Back then I was often depressed and sad. And just like you I smiled all the time and was thankful for getting compliments, but deep inside I felt really lonely. Because none of them saw how much I suffered behind all this smiling and how much I despised getting all these compliments while my soul begged them to love me for myself and not because of my appearance.
My mom then sat down with me and told me to write down all the things I do like about myself while she would do the same for me. I didn’t really understand it at first, but after she read her list to me, she told me something that I will never forget. „You might not like yourself now, but if you see yourself trough the eyes of other people, if you just get a glimpse how much you are loved, you will eventually understand how special you are.“ And it worked. It took some time, but today i can proudly say that i accept and love myself.
And just like my mother helped me back then, I would like to do the same for you. So you see yourself trough the eyes of someone else and realize how special you are! Here is my list of all the things that I love and cherish you for:
1. The way you are deeply caring for others. Might it be your members, for kids on variety shows or pets. It’s a beautiful trait, one I deeply adore.
2. That you always take the time to be here for us and speak to us on Vlive, even though you are busy or tired. It is the most precious time for me as I feel like i kinda get to see the real Lee Hoseok. Thank you!
3. Your emotional and sensitive personality. It might seem to you as a weakness, but for me it’s your biggest strength. Because it shows that you have a big and pure heart. I always try to stay strong in front of others too, but sometimes it’s more honest just to show your feelings.
4. Your desire to stand up for others and protect others. Like back then when someone said something mean to Kihyun. If more people would be like this, the world would be a better place.
5. Your endless love for Monbebes. You might not believe it, but we love you the same, if not even more.
6. Your stunning beauty. And I am not talking about that body of yours. Yes, it is indeed breathtaking and I always get a heart attack when you show your body, but you were already beautiful before. Especially in the „Fighter“ era. But true beauty doesn’t come from putting on makeup or working out. True beauty comes from the inside, and your inner beauty shines like the sun.
7. The lyrics you wrote and the songs you composed. There isn’t a single day I don’t listen to „From Zero“, „If only“, „Oi“ and „I’ll be there“. I hope to hear a lot more songs from you. Thank you for creating such good songs.
8. How you hold something gently in your big arms, wether it be one of the puppies or Bebegom. You will be a wonderful dad one day.
9. The glance from your eyes. It has been said that our eyes are the doors to our soul. And the way you are glancing, it feels like you look right into my soul aswell. For me you have the most beautiful eyes I have ever seen and they have the perfect shape. Your eyes can be sexy on stage and five minutes later they are full of love and warmth. I love this duality of yours.
10. How you are working hard each day to show us a better version of yourself. You impress me all the time when I see your performances. But trust me when I say – you are already perfect the way you are. You don’t need to work harder!!
11. The ability to keep your inner boy while being a full grown man. I always love seeing you being playful and enjoying yourself. It makes me so happy to see you happy.
12. Battling and conquering your fears. I have to admit I am afraid of heights too. So when I saw you performing the Rooftop Version of „Hero“ and doing that bungee jump, I was deeply impressed. I would never be able to do that!!!
13. Your beautiful voice, both masculine and soft and full of warmth. I wish you would do a cover eventually as I love hearing you sing. Perhaps „Liberated“ by NIve? I always think of you when I hear it.
14. Being able to dance as elegant as a cat while being as bulky as a mountain. I have been a dancer half my life, so I know how important it is to stay in shape. But seeing you dance as smooth as you do with all these muscles impresses me.
15. The interactions you have with Siri. I can’t get enough of this. The way you are talking to your phone in different pitches is just so adorable. I could listen to it every day.
16. That you love cats and animals as much as I do. And how your eyes are full of love when you look at your cat videos. It fills my heart with love too.
17. And last but not least the most important point on my list – your smile. No matter how sad or tired I am, the moment I see a picture or a video of you smiling and my day got brighter. You have the most honest and cute smile I have ever seen. And I love how you also smile with your eyes. I could probably look at you smiling for hours. Please never lose you smile, it is the most beautiful and precious thing to me.
I could probably write down a couple more reasons, but I highly doubt you have the time to read through that much text. I hope you are smiling now, even if it’s only a little bit.
I will always cheer for you and support you. I will always love you.
Have a safe flight home, my precious bunny.
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