I'm late but welcome home, Binnie ♡ (p.s sorry it's me again hehe)
Back-to-work day (💔), brain was def not braining. It's crazy to think that just a couple days ago, I saw you and the boyz standing, dancing, performing, right in front of me. Now every time I listen to Maverick I feel like crying because I miss youuuuu so so much.
This letter is gonna be loooooong. I warn you in advance alright, bear with me.
I already wrote a letter right away after the show, but I don't think it's enough to express my gratitude towards you and the boyz (and the world tour team as well). I remember the fear of the show getting cancelled due to conflicting date, I remember we didn't re-plan our trip carefully (because the sudden rescheduling) that caused inconveniences here and there. I remember my friend struggled a lot to get a couple days off. After everything we went through, it was all worth it. The fact that the show went well, there's no word that can fully deliver my feelings. I'm soooo so grateful to have you boyz here in Jakarta. Thank you so much for...everything. We, 더빛나, will make you shine even brighter. Let's meet again next year in a bigger venue or 2 days-show, maybe? 😉 Let's grow together, boyz. Let's make each other shine ✨
I thought I was gonna cry once I stepped in the venue, but I didn't! As I was at the tribune, it gave me the opportunity to notice everything that happened at the standing section. Before the show started, I saw deobis met their friends, hugging and jumping in joy, singing to the songs playing in the background, there was this warm feeling crept into my heart (that honestly made me want to cry lol). It was such a beautiful sight. After 2 years with no concerts, we finally were there to experience it again. When D.D.D came up, I saw them jumping and dancing. It's true that happiness is contagious. Seeing them happy makes me happy. And who made them happy? It's you!! You guys make me us happy ♡
Now it's more personal and sentimental (prepare to cringe lol). July 11th was 601 days since I stanned The Boyz and having you as my ult bias. It was indeed very special to me. I feel my admiration towards TBZ, especially you, grows much bigger. I can't promise you forever (it's such a strong word, I'm not fond of using it), but I'll stay with you for a very long time.
Keviiiin, ah it's you. You are real?? I just saw Kevin Moon for real last Monday?! I keep talking about this, but you are every form of light to me; the embodiment of all positive things in this world. Have I told you that I feel myself becoming a better person ever since I knew (and love) you? Be it in a case of the way I think, the way I see the world, the way I take care of myself, the way I treat people. My friend once said, "Kevin is really the personification of "loving someone should make us a better person" to you, isn't he?"
You shined so bright last Monday, Kevin. Quoting Miss Beyoncé, "Think I'm addicted to your light." So many deobis swerved to your lane now aha good for them 😉 You really did your best to interact to every single deobi there and it was so admirable, you should know that. Sometimes I wonder do we even deserve you ;__; you give us so much joy being your fan, I hope you feel 10000 times happy. But as you are also human, I hope you know that it's okay to feel not okay. Like, you don't have to see good things in everything??!! Be angry at the universe if you want to be angry 😠 lol ok just kidding (or not). My point is, sometimes you feel blue; or you're not in the right headspace. It's not easy to be vulnerable in front of others, but I just want you to know that we are here (or at least I am, lol I can't speak for everyone). Just like how I come to you (in a way, I rewatch your vlive, write letters, listen to tbz songs) when I feel blue, it's okay for you to seek positive distractions from us too (you can go to PM or reread fancafe letters or go vlive). You are sooo loved by sooo many people. And personally, the amount of love I have for you is 🤯 so overwhelming, you have no idea. Now that I saw you in flesh last Monday, there's no kevOUT for me. Nope, there's no way out. Poor you sir, you have to be stuck with me for a long time; you'll see me even more often here lol 🤧 If tbz fancafe is gone, I'd be insane I think like who am I kidding, fancafe is the only platform I can express my feelings. PM is not...enough. I like writing long letters 😂
Oh!! My friends who went to the concert with me, are not Kevin Moon biased. They were at the festival, so way much closer to the stage than me. They sent me their fancams of you 😭 It's pretty cute and sweet of them I actually wanna cry lol There is this one short clip of you passing by and my friend muttering "Keviiin, thank you" It was so 🥺. They're so thankful for you; thank you for making the show felt more alive because you always talked and interacted with deobis. The way you always did a lil research in every country, including Indonesia, the way you didn't forget to credit deobi who suggested 더빛나, from seyeng to ayang (I knew you learned it from fancafe letter because I read the letter as well lol). You always reassure us that you read every letter sent in fancafe and you really did because there are so many receipts hehe. That's why I'm also glad, relieved, and confident that at least you know my feelings.
Anyways!! I already asked permission to post this. She said yes! So, can you hear her voice saying "Kevin, thank you🥺"?
Okay wow look at that, such a long letter 🤧 Oh but wait, one more thing! Sorry sir lol I read your PMs today and a deobi said, more or less, "After started liking you, I think I also started to like Beyoncé." that reminds me of this post from tumblr!
I agree with it, like totally. Maybe that's why I became a better and brighter person ever since I met you. Probably, I absorb your light too?
"I'm a mosaic of everyone I've ever loved, even for a heartbeat." So poetic. So beautiful. I love this sm.
Okay now byeeeee
Aku selalu kangen dan sayang kamu, Kevin ♡
xx
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