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I'm come back again! This is there speakinggggg
I'm going to write about today's encore! Even tho I'm just at home, I have fun a lot and crying too aahhahaa.. That's the best 4 hours in my life.. Well I still wish I'm in korea right now but seeing your face make me happy yey! Funny things is I just smiling all the way and forgot fanchant that I learned earlier😂 BUT I'm trying to following when No air(?) Ah it's so hard to do fanchant because I'm used to sing all lyrics out loud.. That's not important because I have lifetime to learn all the boyz even when I'm have grandchild I will tell themㅋㅋㅋㅋ
Anyway, congratulations your world tour (I don't know about Japan tour is one of them or not?) have finished yey!!! It's been amazing all the time~ and I'm crying like a baby when I heard timeless.. Timeless is full of love.. Feels like summer easy-listening song but it is a gratefull song right? Ah I love "our love is timeless".. There's mean so much to me because I'm being deobi through RTK but I always feels like I should be with you earlier. That song remind me that doesn't matter time when I love you, but matter that I always love you now, tomorrow, or in the future..
And I made it to take a shot on dancing till we drop! But it's embarrassing because when I listen to this song, I remember all moves, even I'm teaching my sister. But when I dance with you, I forgot one move🥲 But here it's on the video that I promise! And actually I'm crying again when I see reveal x checkmate (I forget if I already told you when I saw it on twitter that I'm crying).. give me some flashback of RTK and kingdom a lot. I don't know why, I'm crying too much since watching quasi una? almost all kingdom stage too.. Maybe because no matter the result is, I know that you guys work hard so I'm proud deobi. Even it's not rank 1, not winner, but it's always beautiful..
Ah before this letter too long, I will ment too ahahahaha. Tbz member have been honest so either I am. So this is, There's ment:
Before I met you, I fell in love with a guy. I have a relationship with him, ofc as a couple I need to trust and have a commitment with him. Our relationship doesn't good at start. You know every one month at least one time we had a fight. Many people say that this relationship not going strong.. But I choose to trust him, to wait him, and to keep this relationship as we sailing in the strom. Just like the other bad ending, he failed to fulfill his promises and choose go, leave me with those efforts that we did. It's hard for me, because I'm learning 100% to trust, and the one we loves the most is the one who break us the most. And I hate the fact that he did it on my birthday..
After that, trust someone is not an easy job for me.. Then I met you.. Before I realize it, I put all my trust even when I don't know who you are at that moment in RTK. I waited all the time to watch you again and again because I know you'll never disappointed me. Even if the ending is bad, I will choose to marry bad ending because all those sweat, tears, and blood.
Thankyou the boyz, for making me to learn how to trust someone again. Deep inside my heart, slowly not at once, I build my trust and wait for you. I know, this is something that we can called a love. When we wanted to do all the best so it can work out. I never go to any fandom, but I just can feel this is my home. It's not just like an idol with their fans, it's feel like a family. A place when I can find love and joy. A place when I can feel safe. A place when I need someone to lean on. A place when I can be myself. A place when I need to take a rest. The beautiful thing is, we both, the boyz and the B, together build this relationship. It's so amazing to meet and know you all❤ I might be not gonna find this in another place, so I'm gratefull to be one of them that is lucky🍀
Thankyou for making we laughing, when we sad or badmood.. Thankyou for protecting us, taking care of us. Thankyou for being a shoulder to lean on. Thankyou for always being yourself, teaching us that an idol is human too, that's something that I can't see in others.. My happiness pills, is right here. Thankyou for being out B-itamin. No matter what you do, when you smile, I smile. ehehehe
Thankyou sangyeon oppa for being a Greatest leader all the time. You're so awesome.. Handle 11 boys is not an easy task.. And the fact that you're still young makes me wondering how can you do this? You're our backbones.. Thankyou for always being a strongest pillar. Oh and I love your voice too.. You need to know, how many deobis fall for you because of concert🤣 (including me..) Thanks for rising and giving love to 11 boys.. You'll be a great father, I guess lol.
Thankyou jacob oppa, our sweetest angel, for being the boyz' vice-president. I think that suits you so well, seing how calm and mindfull you're to other members. Your dance getting awesome day by day.. It's so crazy, your expression when dance getting stronger. First time I watched you dance on big screen like "no way, this is not jacob angel that I know!😯" (in a good way.. you know what I mean right? And that crazy surprise adlib? Always touched me.. I want to hear more adlib from you,🥰
Thankyou younghoon oppa, our baby hehehe.. You work so hard these past year, When I look at you now, wow younghoon is different. I always like when you sing powerfull, but get silly when crying. I found it cute hehe.. Younghoonie always being the one who crying when talk about deobis. I know that tears are good one right? I love how happy you are when being with us! And most importantly, always being honest and be yourself. Smiling hoonie is the best!
Thankyou hyunjae oppa the smiley guy.🙂. Ah there's no suits emo.. So I used that haha. Thankyou for cheering other members when they are crying.. That's the sweet gesture of you. We deobis always gratefull that the boyz have you. Things always not good sometimes, but hyunjae always manage it well. This is something that I learn a lot when I look at you.. You always know it well, when things go wrong between the boyz. I hope you find someone to lean on to when things go bad.. You can lean to deobi right? 🥰
Thankyou juyeon my first man. You know, your charms invite me to this fandom ahahha. I find it cute when I know your characterㅋㅋㅋ Since that, I know juyeon is main character! It's not true when you said you're support character because I'm gonna be the one who support you from here. Juyeon always doing his best and I'm proud of that.. I hope you know that when things not perfectly as your expectation, we deobis always love you. Saranghae juyeonie oppaa...
Thankyou kevin moon oppa🌙. You shine brightly like moon in night skies. So beautiful.. Times getting hard with your life but you pass it so well!! I'm proud, moon hyung seoooo.. When I looked at you in reallife, you know I adore you so much. You never forget deobi one by one.. I'm touched noo;( I might crying again😭 It's a little thing but it's so sweet.. You know when people doesn't treat you right again, I will protect you my moon.. Oh, keep inspiring us.. I'm happy that I can enjoy how your ideas come true. I love quasi una fantasia so much. I almost fainted because that's the best thing, the best performance that I see as a performer too.. Thankyou for showing us that magic can happen anywhere..
Thankyou ji chang min oppa, our duality guy. Your dance is so awesome omggg.. I always scream ahahaha. But you're cute at the same time.. Thankyou for having eagle eyes so the boyz always have perfect synchronized dance🕺🕺 That's really awesome. I mean, really reaaaaally. You know I'm a performer too so I can see you have talent and mental. Not just great dancer but you never stop learning and practicing. Changmin oppa is very tough and strong! Thankyou for having a faith and not give up as the first trainee of creker🥰
Thankyou chanhee oppa, main vocalist the boyz, I would say heaven vocal? Ahahahaha When you tell me that you will always singing for us, ah that's perfect idea. I wanna spend my wholelife hearing your voice forever.. I'm glad that you found home in the boyz and the b. I hope in the future many will realize chanhee's magic ahaaha. You're pretty omg I just like ️👄️ when I see you, and I love how you keep confident with your style! I loveee it so much! Many of us don't embrace ourself but you show us that we're unique and no matter what happens there's somebody who hates us. But the most important is many people loves us.. Thankyou for reminding me, I hope you will always loves yourself the way we do❤
Juhaknyeon! This is more personal than others member but thankyou for giving a strenght for my thesis. Do you remember when you upload a quote from book that you read? About how we need to enjoy the moment when we planting until it's bloom. Thesis is one of my weakness. Everyone expect me to finished half year with good score, so it's weighted on my shoulder. Everyday feels like in the hell. I wanted to give up at that time honestly. I almost don't care if I can't finished what I started because it's not life that I want. But reading at your quote make me realize that my life may be like heel but it won't last forever. Instead of felt that way, I need to enjoy the process. It will bloom someday.. and in the end I finished it.. Thankyou for sharing that quote, maybe it reflect when you're having a hell days in RTK😂 but thankyou so much. I hope you know that you're tbz treasure, juhaknyeon is strong and captivating in your ownway..
Sunwoo-ya, gomawo.. I know this is sound wrong but, you show us deobi, how well others man need to treat us. If they can't beat you, then they not good enough🤣 But seriously, thankyou for always loving deobi. This grup won't be complete without a man who always teasing a girl but still lovey dovey wahahaha. And you know, I'm waiting you to be a producer🤣 still war away to go but, I know sunwoo have capabilities doing that.. Thankyou for producing good music for us❤ I love you berry much🍒
Eric! The little one~ Eric not join tour but I want to say something to Eric too💕 I MISS YOU SO MUCH😭 The boyz withour eric doesn't feel complete.. I always imagine what if eric here what will he do, what if Eric day if he meet us, what if blablabla so many what ifs. Deobi miss you so badly, our deobi president. But I want Eric to come back 100% ready hehe I'm gonna waiting until the end.♀️ Thankyou eric for being the energetic ones.. I used to see the boyz' stage really full of energy because of you. Imagine you run all way when giddy up play got me crazy.. Your energy always give me recharge me even I just watched it from screen..
In all, the boyz is 11 all-round man, full of talent, full of charms, even the individual have uniqueness but it makes you love individual in their own way. I always love the fact that the boyz members cannot be compared each other because everyone is different. That kind of different complete each others in unique way. I can deny everyday I look the boyz, my love is getting deeper day by day. I cannot only look 1 person, I don't know it's funny how I love the other 10 as well as that 1 person..
I always wanted to do this, when I have a chance.. I think this is the right moment. we might not know each other eye to eye. And I have something else so I can't subscribe universe, or buying many albums so I can get fansign, and the fact that I lived so far with you stressing me out. Fancafe is the only way I can do,😂 I'm sorry... If you read this, just know that I loveeee you so much.
So sorry about late letter. It took a long time more than I imagine😂 so I need work first then continue writting.. The letter feels so sad😂 I don't know why.. And this not even tbz birthday! oh my there... but I'm happy I belong with you guyss.. I'm happy I feel in love with the one who will protect me and love me always.. I hope we can be together for a very long time🥰❤ Whatever in the future holds, may be hard for me, but I know tbz is on my side, giving strength that I need. I love you so much♀️
🎼 Song of the day: 4ever - The Boyz
Love,
There
22.08.07
P. s HAPPY BIRTHDAY YOUNGHOONIEEEEEE!!!!! SARANGHAEEEYOOOOO MANY MANY😘
P. s.s I know you guys love being busy but please don't forget to eat, take a rest, and take your time for yourself, okay? 🤗
Some explanation
pict 1: broke deobi peparation in 10 minutes. Tissue and toabong is a must! Oh I decor them too since the b zone in Jakarta (made it by myself😉) And juyeon pc from my beloved friend.. I promise to take it to tbz concert and I did! (no, actually I forgot to bring juyeon pc to Jakarta🙃)
pict 2: I made my promise I came online concert and take a photo with tbz! ~ (please don't look at my nails.. I haven't clean them after go to Jakarta)
video 1: video of me dancing "dancing till we drop" wohooo.. I made it
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