helloo !!
it's been a while since I wrote a letter to you:< school has been so hectic and stressful tbh
how have you beenn? i hope you're doing well, getting enough sleep and all:)
i hope you're happy rn:)
i havent been catching up on tbz neww lately cuz of school and stuff but i really hope u guys are doing great !!
u know i watched an old live of yours just now.. i think this was around early 2021(?) and the thing about this live is that, i always come back to this whenever i feel extremely down.. and it just happened that things haven't been working out for me lately:)
you are my source of strength:) one of my biggest emotional supports and all and i hope you won't think if it as sone kind of obligation and/or burden but just a two-way thing where i could be part of ur emotional support systems as well:)
i watched it so i can cry
im not the type to cry a lot (i actually am) but these days, especially this past week, i haven't been able to cry for some reason but.. i just really wanted to cry the other day
i have been so overwhelmed with acads and school related things, all the pressure my family's putting me in for college admissions next year, it felt as though i lost time for anything outside of those two aspects that it reached a point where i have no idea how to express or let out these frustrations anymore
as you know, i transferred school
it's nice here tbh:)
just that, it feels as though i don't have anyone to talk to anymore especially since i have an already really small circle of people i trust and they're all 4 cities away from where i'm in, we barely even talk on line anymore:< (it sucks to be so reliant on other people)
idk it's all just so frustrating
i kept on telling myself that it's too early to have a breakdown at my new school but really, who am i kidding? im very tired:)
crying is fine !! right? idk:)
what i do know is that i felt a little better after crying it out so thanks to you!:)
u have no idea how small things you and the other guys do make me feel so comforted and loved and i hope u guys would feel the same way !!
so uhhh idk im sorry for randomly dumping all this on u T^T I don't even know if i managed to word it out properly:")
but all i really wanted to say was
thank you:)
because u always make me feel as though someone's here for me:)
i swear i'll have way better things to write about soon enough:))
goodnight kebbie<3
love u so much!!
-dorothy