hiii
it’s the middle of the night rn where i live and i can’t sleep so i figured: why not write a letter, more specifically, my first fancafe letter 🤗 (i’m so sorry it has taken me nearly 4 years omg). anyways, tomorrow is my first day at uni (kind of, not exactly uni but similar enough ig?), and i’m *very* nervous. as far as i’m aware, no one i know is enrolled there which means i’ll have to make new friends (or at the very least find people i can spend breaks / lunch with) and waaaaaah omg THE STRESS. i haven’t been in this kind of situation since like elementary school, my social skills are wayyyy too rusty for this rn 😭
btw somewhat off-topic, but while being a full time deobi is lovely, it has totally WRECKED my ability to make normal small talk. like don’t get me wrong, i can do it, but if there’s ever a pause or gap where a new topic needs to be introduced, i will panic and default to “actually, there’s this kpop group i really like and-“ 99.7% of the time (exhibit a: met some guy while i was at a bar with a friend, the three of us start talking, and SOMEHOW it ends with me explaining the concept of pm + how much better life can become with just one “kevIN” to this poor stranger. we helped him assemble his ikea desk after though so ig it turned out fine 😂).
anyways, off-topic pt2 but it’s actually off-topic this time:
the cover of “Mars” u posted on tiktok today is SO GOOD. but like so so SO good. your voice is so emotive + i love that the piano doesn’t come in until the end so we really get a chance to focus on the harmonies (which btw are STUNNING??? i literally get chills every time i hear them). i really hope Scott sees it, too, i bet he’d love it. one thing i will say though is seeing u perform like that in the video made me MISS the b-zone. ofc i always miss it, but it really brings back the memories of just how crazy it was to see u irl (rtd concert). i’ll write more about that some other day when it’s not the middle of the night (or if it is, at least sometime when i don’t have to get up at 6am ㅜㅜ). tldr though: your energy on stage + the entire concert experience itself was so insane, my friend and i 1) sobbed in ahoy’s parking lot for an hour and 2) almost flew to berlin on a whim for the last concert.
okay, it’s actually getting really late now so i’m gonna try to round this mess off. if u happen to be reading this: hi again and thank u, i’m so sorry for this incoherent mess of a letter, my brain tends to jump topics a lot 😅 i hope you’re having a lovely day / night, eating well, drinking your water, warming up and cooling down properly (personally did not do that today and my muscles are rightfully punishing me bc of it rn), and yeah <3 i feel more at ease now than when i started writing so the mission that brought me here has been a success!! for better or for worse i will be back eventually so c u next time! good night ~~ 💗
- anna m :3