[WARNING: for anyone else reading this if you are sensitive to any topic regardless ghosts please don’t read]
Hey child! 🤍🤍🤍
First of all,
Congratulationsssss!!
I'm the proudest child, ya know?
Year after year all the effort and passion that you put into everything you do is reflected. All the success you have is a combination of your hard work and the love you give us.
It has not been an easy path for sure and there's still a long way to go but I hope it can feel a way smoother knowing you have our full support and that you are not walking alone. Remember we are on this path together, so everytime you feel like falling you can lay on us. Okay? ❤️
•••
You know, it's almost Día de Muertos (day of the dead) in Mexico, so I've been looking everywhere for these Día de Muertos' special edition mugs at Starbucks.
I even posted a story asking my friends to send me a message me in case they find it at any Starbucks in the city… and after a few days, finally someone found them, so I went to that Starbucks. 🤌🏻
Actually I'm writing this letter from there.
They only had yellow cups and only one white. They're supposed to be couple/friendship cups, so I'm having a hard time deciding which cup to keep for myself 🤧
No, no, I'm single ofc, but I wanted to buy you a cup because, I don't know, I just wanted to buy it for you as soon as I saw the notification from Starbucks lmao.
I don't even know if it's your style but I wanted to buy you that cup because it's a special edition and because Día de Muertos it's a Mexican festivity with such a deep meaning (I will talk about it later in this letter).
[You know, when you buy an item at Starbucks they give you a free drink, right? Well… I’m sorry for taking the drink that came for free with your cup… I would have given it to you if you were here ofc 🤧]
Whenever I come to Starbucks I remember that my frustrated dream is to work here… I see many part-timers coming in and out and I’m so envious…
Uhh, maybe I was in my past life or maybe I will in my next life...
I guess they might not feel the same as me, right?
Btw, you know those hypnotism videos that make you see your past lives… my coworkfriend told me that she tried it once and she says that she was able to see it and she saw that she was a doctor in her past life and we came to the conclusions that probably that's why she has a lot of interest in medicine.
She even shared with me the video she used for that but she told me I shouldn’t do this alone, because you shouldn’t fall asleep while doing it…
Tbh it causes me a lot of intrigue to do it but at the same time it scares me a lot, but if somehow I try to do it I'll probably do it with her. But we'll see, I'll tell you later if I convince myself to try it out.
These days I've been having some paranormal experiences at the office. Since they changed my working schedule and I have to be earlier at the office, I spend the first hour alone in the building with another coworker, so it's only the two of us from 8:00am to 9:00am.
In context, we have an office doorbell, there is a gate at the entrance and you can clearly see outside when someone presses the doorbell.
So yesterday, someone rang the bell insistently at 8:00 am (the main gate of the building was completely closed so there's no way someone could enter and press the doorbell of our office which is on the 3rd floor).
My coworker got close to the door and there was no one but the bell kept ringing… She went to my desk to tell me what was happening and after a few minutes the phone next to the entrance started ringing...
My desk is a few meters away from the entrance so I saw when she picked up the phone. We were looking at each other at that moment.
"Hello? Hello?"
No one answered so she hung up and as soon as she hubg up the phone rang again. She picked up and no one answered.
We looked at each other worried.
But that wasn't what scared us the most...
Next to my desk there is a rack with the stock of the products we sell on Amazon and just after my partner hung up the phone I had a very weird and heavy feeling like if someone was standing right behind me and suddenly two products from the rack fell as if someone had thrown them... they fell right next to me, so I just jumped off my seat scared and went with my coworker.
We tried to tell each other it was nothing and that it was only a very weird coincidence but it was sooo scary that it gave me goosebumps.
It is not the first time that it happened to me, when I worked as a waitress there a long time ago I saw the silhouette of a man standing next to me when I came to the warehouse of the restaurant at 11:00 pm... That was the first time for me to see a real ghost with my own eyes and that was the most scary experience I ever had and my first reaction was to run, not because of the ghost but because I thought it was a real person, and you know real people might be scarier here, lmao
I knew it was a ghost because just after my boss went there with a coworker to look for that person (in case it was real) and they didn’t find it.
Or another recent one as an office worker there... I went to the bathroom on the fourth floor (there was no one there because it was 5:30 pm) and someone slammed the main door of the bathroom and right after, the main door of the floor...
In those situations the best thing you can do is try not to panic and think it was only a coincidence and nothing else because otherwise you will make it worse.
We have a video we captured this year with the CCTV of the 2nd floor of something opening the door of the fridge at 3 am.
These restaurant fridges are very hard to open even for humans, so the ghost must be very strong because not even me in my best condition can open those freaking things that easily...
Anyways, of course it scares me a lot but I try not to think about it so much whenever I go to work.
And tbh, I think I'm more scared of my boss when he gets angry than a ghost throwing things next to my desk. Unfortunately (or fortunately) we don't have CCTV at our office so there's no way to watch that moment again…
And it makes a lot of sense that these things happen in my office because next to the restaurant building there is a hospital that has been closed for maybe 10 years now. Tbh I didn’t want to know why it closed for my mental health but I’m honestly too curious, should I?
I'll try to look it up on the internet and keep you updated in the next letter if I get something…
It may be a good topic for Halloween, right?
Anyways
TOTALLY CHANGING AND FORGETTING THAT SCARY TOPIC
I wanted to thank you for the speech you gave at the awards, you know I've been thinking about it a lot these days, especially when it comes to plans.
I think that at this age these kinds of things are what concern us the most because we are at a stage of our lifes where we receive the most social pressure about what we are going to do with our lives and we start to feel that if we do nothing about it now then we won't succeed.
They make us believe that we must have a concrete plan to be able to achieve what we want, but that is not the case.
Honestly, how many times do our plans work 100%?
And when something doesn't go as planned, then what do we do?
We get discouraged, we get frustrated and in the worst case we give up because we believe that we are no longer going to achieve what we want at the first obstacle we face.
I had already mentioned it in one of my past letters, I think it was in my letter about changes, if I'm not mistaken...
So it's true that whenever we want to achieve something we have to focus on the purpose of it because it is the only thing that will allow us to move forward despite the circumstances.
I hope that despite all the difficulties you may be facing, we can be that source of strength for you to keep going. But whenever you want to make decisions I hope you can think of yourself first instead of us, we will totally support any decision you make.
I know it's hard and you might inevitably think about how we could take those decisions, but please don't, that should be the last thing that crosses your mind, okay?
Whatever you do, as long as it is for your well being, I will support it and I will never ever judge you.
I also know it must be hard, mainly because many of your decisions can always be influenced by the company but I hope that they can look for your wellbeing first.
I think it's very important that the artists can feel comfortable and trust the company they work for since all of that will always be shown outside of it.
I don't know what happens behind the scenes, but whatever it is, I hope that whenever you feel unhappy or uncomfortable with something you can feel free to talk about it with them, it's not good to work under a company when you can't even feel comfortable to speak up about anything that's bothering you.
I hope the company can be able to truly understand that your well-being is paramount to success and not only take it for granted.
And not only the company, we as fans also tend to forget all the work behind that it entails.
I haven't worked in the entertainment industry, but I do have a vague idea of what working in any medium entails.
For example, in my job it is not only about taking care of customer and food service, but the entire reputation of the restaurant in general and we have to take care of marketing, campaigns, even preventing crises, etc.
It's a whole world behind.
Every time I watch your performances I can't even imagine how hard it must have been to prepare all of it, even if it's just a 3 minute performance. I can't even imagine all the effort behind it entails, from weeks of hard work and rehearsals, to the efforts of the stylists, the designers, the marketing team, the creative team, etc, etc.
Tbh it annoys me a lot when I see posts from fans complaining, whether it's about the last comeback being too rushed or anything else, you know what I'm talking about... At the end it's not your fault or the team's fault.
At the end of the day everyone is just doing their job and is following orders from those above. We always forget that, so I always think that's why we shall treat everyone out there with kindness…
And in that case I hope IST can remember that nothing will go well when they rush it...
It won't go well and will not be good for their artists and staff's health... If they want to succeed they have to look up for their employees' well-being first.
Anyways, I hope they don't block my fc account lmao
Pray for Karen…
Also I’m aware that you will never show us whenever something is going on behind the scenes, so I want you to know that even if you can't show it, I'm always here for you, please keep in mind that you're not alone…
I know that it might not be the same as being physically there for someone, but I hope that somehow my words can go further and can give you the same comfort as a warm hug in difficult times, same as the comfort your music gives me in those hard days. 🤍🤍🤍
Okayyy
(Suddenly there's a long line at Starbucks, cheer up the baristas! I wish I could be able to help them out... I almost have to go home because my brother went home to visit us with my nephew so I want to buy Starbucks for everyone, but I'm waiting for the line to be emptier).
I wonder sometimes, do you have a part-time job that you always wanted to try out, like me with Starbucks?)
I feel that you and my brother are kinda similar, so I am going to ask him which of the two cups I got he would choose (if he even likes any of them, lmao), lowkey I feel that it is not his style but I will ask him anyway…
Whatever he chooses I will send it to you.
Honestly I don't know when will I send it because I want to send you a few more things (especially something I'm working on rn) but when I do, I'll let you know.
Hold on… They're playing Rosalia! This song...
I'm going to add it to my “Moonday letters to Kevin” playlist because I like it lmao
[Btw, you say you don't understand Rosalia's songs because you don't speak Spanish but tbh not even we, native Spanish speakers, understand the lyrics lmao. But we sing to it anyway, something like whenever I try to sing your songs in Korean].
•••Back home•••
I asked my family and some friends which cup they liked the most, even I asked my three-year-old nephew lol
My mom and my brother (yes, the Pisces) said the white cup but my nephew said the yellow one, (I guess he is more attracted to it because of the bright color). So I came to the conclusion that I will give you the white one because I thought it makes the skull's makeup colors stand out more.
BTW, have you ever wondered why we wear catrina makeup on the day of the dead?
If you've seen Coco, I think you'll more or less have an idea of it.
The reason why this celebration is so colorful is because we try to see death in a positive way, giving it life with all these bright colors and also to face our fear of death by seeing ourselves in a way that we are not used to.
You know the catrina is shown as a very elegant woman, right? So the origin of the image of the catrina comes from the artist José Posada who looked to reflect in the catrina that death will be the same for all of us regardless of our economic status.
I love this holiday, first of all because of all the meanings behind this national celebration has.
I like Coco a lot because I think this movie reminds us and reflects the important aspects about the day of the dead.
Recently I read something very beautiful in an article about the movie:
“Coco teaches us that human life is built from the bonds that we honor; it teaches us that what makes us truly humans and eternal is the weave of relationships that build us through our life and those relationships we will leave behind in our departure and that will witness what we also helped to build”.
It is when we realize that true death is not the death itself, but oblivion.
That is also why we celebrate the day of the dead, not to celebrate the departure of our loved ones but to remember them and everything they left and to thank them for everything they built in us. Because we have to remember that we are part of the inheritance of our ancestors that is manifested in us.
And it is true that no matter what we do or what we are in life, we all have the same destiny, so we have to be the most authentic version of ourselves, because that is the essence that we will leave in this world...
More than seeing death as something negative, we celebrate life and we remind ourselves that we must take advantage of our life and live it in the most authentic way possible. Also, more than celebrating death, we want to revive our ancestors by remembering them and thanking them for the essence that they left in our lives through the moments they planted in our memories.
Aaah, this letter got very sentimental, right?
We went from talking about the awards, to scary TMIs, to appreciating your hard work and IST team, to the Día de Muertos and Coco… Lmao
Sorry not sorry...
Anyways here’s a compilation of this week’s meals…
It was a kinda vegetarian hamburger, idk what was it made of but it was sooo tasty
I decided I will stop making my stomach suffer from eating lactose, I couldn’t really stand it, it was sooo good but it was enough for my body lol
As I told you before we have tacos for breakfast in Mexico lmao these tacos are tacos of Barbacoa 🤌🏻
Did my nails this week 🤍🤍🤍
Finally…
Tried to inspire me a lil bit from Morty lmao but I didn’t have yellow, so it ended up being green but it still looks so good~~
✨This is how it looks with the flash on✨
Whatcha think??
For this week conversation Minji and I talked about relationships and what we look on a man but ended up talking about how most of our exs just hurted our feelings lmao
I also learned 뇌섹남 and I think you are a good example of 뇌섹남 ✨
(Thanks mama Moon again for raising our Kevin this well ❤️❤️❤️)
Now the songs of the week…
I honestly picked up very well these songs so listen to them carefuly lol
This album from Heffron Drive is soo good, I used to listen to it a lot when I was in High School and this song in specific has a very deep meaning to me and I think this is the best song to express my feelings for you 🤧❤️
This song by Demi is one of my favorites from her and I wanted to recommend it to you. The lyrics say it all 🤍🤍🤍
Oldie but goldie ✨
I discovered this song this week and it is so beautiful and it goes very well with these weeks topics 🤧
“Como anillo al dedo” as we would say in Spanish lmao (“like ring to the finger”(?)
This cover of Remember Me by Tiffany Young is so beautiful ❤️
Anyways…
Again, I’m sorry for all the chaotic letter lmao
I hope you are taking care of yourself and our babie plans and Morty✨
I won’t say everything I normally say at the end of ny letters because these songs speak for me~
[Btw #1: I’m sorry for all the typos I might had, it's too late here lmao]
[Btw #2: Thanks for everyday's “오늘도 수고해따“ it means a lot ❤️ you too 오늘도 수고했엄~]
Cringes*
Pls remember if you need anything you got me, child, okay?
I got your back, always
Te amo muchisimo
❤️❤️❤️
—Karen.
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