Hi Kevin, it's been so long since the last time I sent you a letter and I'm here because I miss you and The Boyz a little bit more today and I want to tell you the happeni9in my life since the last time I sent you a letter.
1. Today marks my 2nd month as an employee, a Baker at Magnolia Bakery, my dream job and one of the bakeshops that contributed on me to decide on the career path that I'm pursuing when I was a kid. The first 2 months was tough, especially the 1st month that I was already on the verge of quitting and telling myself if is this really what I was dreaming for. I already told my brother on the 2nd week that I think I won't last that long in that job because of the heavy workload, my body might gave in. I'm starting to see lots of bruises around my body because on how physical my work is, my back is starting to hurt, my feet are always sore, and so does the joints on my fingers. It was hard that I cant count the nights that I cried to sleep because I dreamed of being in this position for I dont know how long it is and I never imagined how hard it is. The thoughts that kept me going is the idea of me living my dream job that I only used to imagine when I was a kid. I'm already here so why give up now. I'm just on the starting point and I have so many things to learn so I can't give up. Now I'm on my 2nd month, I'm starting to get a hold of it. I can finish baking everything 3 to 4 hours before I clock out, I can now talk comfortably with my workmates and not being afraid of forgetting what I have already added on the bowl of ingredients, I can now ask our head chef not work related questions, and our head chef trusts me already with handling the kitchen alone when he has some other things to do. Next week, I'll start moving onto a level higher position, I'll be adjusting again to new recipes but I think I can handle it already with proper guidance. I'm happy with this job and I'm happy that they allow me to join their team even though I lack soooo many skills and I literally have no experience in commercial baking. I owe them a lot for allowing me to let me live my dream and for believing in me.
2. I graduated already!! And I graduated as Magna Cum Laude. Me and all of my closest friends got a Latin Honor and I'm so proud of all of us. I used to rant here about academics but here I am now, graduated with an award. I didn't told my parents about this before the commencement so it was all a surprise to them. Their genuine reactions was so touching, my father hugged me and my mom was scolding me for not telling them while crying. I felt bad for not telling them beforehand after seeing them like that, they were all over the place. But the hug.... they hugged me. And gave me flowers. That day was the first time I ever received a flower in my life, and I got a rare hug from my parents again. Thet were so happy and I'm happy to see them happy.
3. Kevin... I don't know anything about dating, courting, boyfriend, girlfriend, and the likes so I don't know if this guy from my workplace is making his move or just being too nice to me. Everyone in my work is teasing us and asking me if this "guy" can court me or smth, or if we can eat together on our break, or if he can buy me a meal. I dont know anymore because this "guy" told me not to listen to everyone so I stick into that and register in my head that all of those are just teasing... but his actions are wayyyy more confusing to me. He walks me to my brothers workplace because I go home together with my brother afterwork, he waited for me to finish what I was doing even tho he already clocked out, asked me if I can go alone down the basement to out locker room if not I can tag him along (bcs I end my shift at around 12mn), texted me if got home safely, always tells me to be careful, I can feel him looking at me from the back or the side when im doing something, he's so gentleman.... one time he even asked me if there's something in his eyes and me who has a bad eyesight just looked around his eyes longer that it supposed to be because I cant see it properly and his eyes are just starting directly at me... another one is our hands accidentally land into this one spot on the doorframe because I thought he's going inside while I was doing an inventory of stocks, but he didn't. My hand was under his and I can't pull it because I was trying to shove it off but "guy" just stood there not saying anything... while my hand was on the doorframe.... im trying to shove everything off, i cant feel anything anyway, im just so confused on all of the happenings because this is all new to me. I will still into stick to his words that all of thesr are just teasing and joking, nothing more than that. I dont know to a guy's POV. Is this just being gentleman or it's his way of confusing my already peaceful life :')
That's all hehehe it's quite a long one lol I miss telling you stuffs. I really got busy and I just changed phone and still haven't transferred that much apps. I want to tell you a lot about my day and random stuffs like old days, but when I get home I just go directly to sleep after wash up :( I miss you and everyone so bad... adulting it is...
I hope you're having a good time, and if your heart says to want to grow flowers, grow flowers, it's a nice interior y'knoww
It's getting longer so i'll stop here. Good night, Kev~
Your kindred spirit,
Nicole