Heyyy childdd ❤️❤️❤️
I really hope you’re doing better these days. 🥺
I’m so sorry for not uploading the letter on Monday but last weekend was insane because I had an event with Karimchi and also got sick (I think because of the stress) so I had to rest. 🤧
I will take more care of myself and will rest as much as I can, no worries❤️
I wanted to write you since last Saturday but the time ate me.
I wanted to write regarding your last pm.
So as you can see that will be today’s topic.
It is honestly more like a letter to you.
First of all, I want to tell you that you don't have to feel disappointed for not being completely honest with us about you… there’re some things that can’t be shared, those things are yours and the right people and the right time will come for you to share them.
And if you don't feel ready to share it with anyone, that's fine too, you can do it till you feel confortable.
Yes, we are your fans and we love you but personally, I fully understand that there are a lot of things that we don’t know about you (and probably will never know) and it is also not mandatory for you to tell us.
More than Kevin Moon from TBZ, I see you as Kevin, the Kevin who far from being an artist known by a lot of people, is a human being who also has feelings, who also suffers, has bad times, has a mind full of a world of things that not even he completely knows, the Kevin who is still in the process of getting to know himself and connect with himself, the Kevin who also stumbles, who cries, who makes mistakes, who can get disappointed and who has things that should not be shared with anyone…
I know that often we as fans, want to know more about our idol and sometimes as much as we think we know everything, we must understand that the reality is not only what we can perceive. Behind that person we admire there is an extremely broad context which we do not know and we should not know because it is part of his/her private life.
Would we like to help you? Of course!
We want to see you happy? Of course!
But we must not cross that line.
I’ll try to at least make you smile an inch for a moment with what I’m able to do which is supporting you in your decisions and dreams and writing these letters.
I am completely unaware of your problems and that is why I write about my experiences here in case it can help you with whatever you are going through, and probably those things that you can’t freely share… these are my experiences as a human with feelings shared to another human with feelings (you), behind the cameras.
I don't expect you to answer me if you are going through similar things or not, but if at least something, a word or something that I write can help you, then I'm happy
Even though I tell a lot of things about myself in some of my letters, if one thing is true, is that all of that is not all of who I am.
What I write is a part of me, of course, but I am not only that, as you say, everything we teach someone is because we have gone through (or continue to go through) a process or an experience that has led us to have that knowledge.
I always appreciate all the advices you give us and everything you teach us, because I’ve also learned a lot of things from you, but I admire you more for all the challenges you have overcome (or are still in the process of overcoming) and all you had to go through that made you the person you are today and the person you will be in the future.
If there's one thing I'm sure of, it's that you can handle anything. It's so fucking hard, I know, sometimes you can stumble along the way because the last time you tied your shoelaces the knot was loose and you tripped because of it...
(It's normal, at 23 I'm still too dumb tying my shoelaces).
I know that I will not be able to tie your shoelaces because it is something that you need to perfect with time, but I do hope that I can be a shoulder that you can lean on whenever you feel tired in your life path and who will always be cheering you on and encouraging you to keep going (even if I’m no physically there for you).
Most of the times we forget that the people around us are people like us. They are also brothers/sisters, parents, children, friends, students, employees, etc., who have their own world with their own problems and who are people with feelings.
I am aware that in the future you may not remember anything I wrote here. I know I am only one person -in a god knows how many people- in the world, but I hope that at least this little fish in the middle of the sea can plant something small in your heart/mind during this stage of your life. Even with the uncertainty of whether you ever read me or not, I am happy to have the opportunity to write to you through this platform.
Anyways, whatever you may be facing I know you are a very strong and brave person❤️
I know that you are a wonderful human being regardless of the fact that I don't know exactly what you are like and what goes through your mind every time you wake up and sit on the corner of your bed looking at your slippers in the floor… or every time you go to sleep and plunge into the darkness of your room… or every time you go into the shower and wait for the hot water to come out…
I am not disappointed nor would I ever be disappointed in you. I am not disappointed in the Kevin of the past or the present Kevin or the future Kevin. Regardless of how Kevin is, -not Kevin from TBZ, but you-, you deserve love and you deserve every beautiful thing in the world. We all have flaws, we all make mistakes, we all deserve to love and be loved.
It is a very hard path, right? The path of self acceptance. It is so hard to accept ourselves and learn to love our flaws. And when we don’t accept ourselves, we also don’t accept that others love us for who we are because we keep on thinking that we do not deserve to be loved, but it is something that little by little we can work on and improve. I promise ❤️
I'm also still in the process of accepting myself and I’m proud of how far I’ve come till who I am today ❤️
I hope you can give yourself a path in your head for me because I’m also so proud of how far you’ve come and all you’re currently working in yourself. For real, I’m so fucking proud of you ❤️
We're in this path together, you're not alone, always remember that… Even if you don't know me, you can count on me✨
Anyways, this letter was a little bit shorter than the previous ones but I really truly meant all I wrote
Te quiero mucho, child ❤️
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Anyways,
Yesterday it was the Day of Dead in Mexico, so I’m happy I can share in this letter how it was for me~
I love this day because even if it is something we all are afraid of, this day gives us another perspective of death in a colourful way.
You know the streets are full of colourful colors, the cempasuchil flowers, the ‘pan de muerto’ (trafitional bread for the Day of the Dead), all the altars in every house, people dressed as catrinas in the street (kids and even adults).
So yesterday we made a very simple altar in the office (because we didnt have too much time to prepare it) but still it was cute…
And in the afternoon I went with my friends and paited their faces with catrina looks to take us selfies✨
This is ‘pan de muerto’ (bread of the dead). The things above the bread have the shape of bones(?
Does it look like that?
It was my Catrina make up ✨
Honestly I liked it, it was simple but cute, wacha think?
These are my university friends, yes the ones I painted lol ✨
My look was already cleaning itself up by then lool
Such a good eyeliner tbh, lasted almost 12 hours 👍🏻
I also ate pan de muerto at the office with hot chocolate 😭🤌🏻
As you can see I use to eat the bones first lmao
(Also those honey butter almonds are 🤌🏻
My boss went to Korea last month and brought me a bunch of those 🤧
My desk is always full of food lol, that strawberry jam jar at the back tho…)
This is the small ‘altar de muertos’ we made 💀
It was so cute tho, I wish we had more time to do it 🥺
Also there’s a big festival going on in my city that is literally like being in Coco’s movie, I wanted to go there but all the tickets for the dates I’m available were sold out 😭😭
Look
I hope I can be able to go next year 🤧
Meanwhile I will watch Coco’s movie to feel in the mood
UPDATE: I ALMOST FORGOT TO ADD IT
I wrote something
In Day of the Dead there’s a cool thing called ‘literary calaveritas’ which are like short funny kinda poems where usually we include the Catrina and tell a very short story using ourselves as the characters of that funny poem or our loved ones
For example when we were at elementary school they used to give us randomly the name of one of our classmates so we had to write a funny poem of them.
(As I explained in one of my previous letters we see death at the Day of the Dead in a fun and colourful way so this is a way to see Catrina in a fun way)
So I wrote a Calaverita for you… first pls understand this is my first time in a looong time (since elementary school) that I don’t write one of these lol AND I’ve never wrote a Calaverita in English before 😩
Here we go
Catrina visited her friend Morty who was peacefully asleep in his cave
Curiously she observed him, “oh from all the reptiles you are my fave.
You must have a good daddy, for raising you this well,
I shouldn’t be this jealous so I must go back to my grave”
Leaving she found Kevin with a stunned look in his face
“If you’re not here to feed Morty you should get out of my place”
Sadly the Catrina turned but she saw Lemonade
“what a shame, but I’ll forgive you, ‘cause I’m also a Beyhive”
Whatcha think? Is it too weird?
I tried my best tbh lol
Morty is so cute that even the Catrina watches out for him 🤧
Btw I couldn’t get dressed for Halloween because I didn’t go to Andrea’s halloween party 🥹
I had to get all ready for the event 🤧
But she sent me this lmao
It was so cute it made me tear 🥹
Anywaysss
today’s songs recommendations:
This song ❤️
I wanna be somebody to someone, someone to youuUUuUuu 🎶
Probably you already listened to these songs since are oldies but goldies✨
I dedicate these 4 songs to you because of the lyrics but also because of the rhythm 🎶
These songs always help me to feel better so I hope they help you to ❤️
When I played this song I thought of you specially in the first verses 🤧
No, but literally every time I listen to these songs I go back in time to when I was at high school, but you know we are never too old to listen to these songs. Tbh Karen from hs had good taste, so even today I’m still playing my playlists from hs lol
These are also the kind of songs that I thought back then that I could only dedicate to a very special person in my life, so finally I’m able to do it ✨
And this song is always a good song to listen to, it used to lift me up back then and inspired me to keep going despite the circumstances, I felt like I wanted to get out of my bed and do everything I wanted to and so I felt it today, I hope it can make you feel better too ❤️
And last but not least this song 🥺🥺🥺
This is a song that fits you like ring to the finger (‘te queda como anillo al dedo’ as we would say in Mexico lol)
You always look up for us but I want you to remember that you are also appreciated and that I’m so freakin’ grateful for all you do for us.
You should also know that you are not alone and that in the same way I’m here to pull you up whenever you need it 🤍
Anywayss, I hope it wasn’t too many songs lol
You can also listen to them on your way back to Korea, in the plane, I feel like these are also good songs to listen to while traveling
Btw, have a very safe and fun time in Japan. Have lots of fun with Deobis 🤍
(Also I really loved your new hair color, it fits you soooo well, and also the curly hair 🤌🏻🤌🏻🤌🏻🤧 *lots of chefs kisses* -honestly you by yourself are always chefs kiss, my congrats to your parents for giving birth to such a handsome child ✨😩-)
Please take lotssss of care, okay?
*sending you the warmest hug*
I love you SOOOO much, child,
❤️❤️❤️
—Karen
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