HI, HI~ 👋🏼
Happy Tuesday for you, Mr. Safe Place~
Wow, why are Mondays so hard? 🫠 It was so so hard sleeping yesterday :/ I literally fought myself to sleep and everything was playing against me. Not even listening to 숨 on repeat did the work - that’s how hard it was kekekeke
I set my sleeping reminder to 11am so I could wake up by 5:30/6:00 pm buuuut I think I only did it for a week 🤧 Yesterday, when I finally slept at around 3:30pm, I started having a nightmare 🥲 Like… what are the chances???
I hardly ever dream, so nightmares are pratically never visiting my brain - until yesterday. Anyways, I felt so scared to close my eyes again, ‘cause I hate when you wake up from a nightmare and goes back to it immediately after sleeping again. Think I slept for 2 to 3 hours?
Almost died at work 🫠 I can kinda imagine your scolding, but I left home without eating a single thing. Had a bread at midnight (aka lunch break) and then only when I got home by 7am 🫣 Thought I wasn’t gonna make it to the end of the day, not because I didn’t eat - I actually wasn’t hungry - buy my head was kinda dizzy :/ BUT! No worries, I felt better as the shift was getting closer to end 😅
I’ll try to sleep a litte more today :)
Just now I was editing my first video (not gonna upload here, it’s actually something I’m working for another social media) and Gooooood, Jacob, this is so hard 😩 I feel so stupid kekekkekekke like, I’m watching some tutorials, but it just doesn’t get into my head - mental laziness is what they call it 😂 My biggest difficulty as of right now is the video coloring… ohmji 🫠 I was wondering why did I started this idea in the first place, ‘cause I just don’t wanna quit something I myself planned to do 🤓
Will it get easier with time? 😔
Now, hear this one!
I can tell you with right hand on my heart that I absolutely did not looked for it, I have done zero searches, sincerely just opened the app and IT WAS THERE.
You know? Simple like that.
I swear!
(You and) The Universe is playing so hard against my mental health 🫣🫣🫣 Like, the things, specific things, that jump into my timeline… should I quit social media?? Gosh, should I…?
Or should I stop watching your fancams…? I mean, that’s part of being your stan, right? I should watch all of them… If I watch another idol’s fancam, you’ll make that face expression, right? Kkekekekkekekekeke
That’s something you - surprisingly - don’t have to worry about, unless the other idol is a TBZ member 😶 Ever since I became a Deobi, I couldn’t look/stan/fall for any other idol/group. Which is something significant coming from a kpop fan who used to stan 5 to 10 groups at the same time 😅😅
So… can I scold you now? 😊😊😊 Because…
I JUST CAN’T.
I lovehate when you do thiiiiisssssssss 🫠🫠🫠🫠🫠 WHEN, JACOB, WHEN did I give you so much control over my thoughts and feelings???!
Gimme the control back 🥲 You’re seriously driving CobCobs insane, do you know that? Bae didn’t come to play 🫣
Again, this ain’t a complaint tho KEKEKEKKEKE I LOVE RECEIVING THESE SHOTS STRAIGHT INTO MY HEART 🙃🙃🙃 I’m so weak for everything you do :(
Either way, BE CAREFUL WITH THAT TRICK, BAE 🫣 Be veeeeery careful!!!! 👀
By the way, look what popped up in my “explore” tab on Twitter:
Missing your black hair hours 🥹 You’re perfect in any way, trust me, I just have a huge crush on this black hair look 😂 Let’s say you’re so perfect everyday in every way, but with black hair is like, even more perfect 😭 Which also reminds me of The B Zone concert in Kobe 🥹 My very first concert experience in LIFE 😭😭😭
Can’t believe how even the smallest details built up a perfect memory 🥹
It’s almost 1pm, I better get going~~
You can scold me next time kekekke
Hooe your day has been flowing smoothly, without any bigger problems. I wish you at least one big reason to smile today! 🫶🏼
You know I’m always thankful, right? Today’s not different, always thankful for your existence in this short but one-in-a-million life of ours 🥹 Here’s hug from my words, it’ll protect you whenever you need ☺️
Today’s song recommendation is a special one, ‘cause I love everything about this song. Recently I’ve been recommending songs so different from your taste, right? 😅 If you ever give any of them a chance, I jusy hope you like it at least a little bit. They’re songs that cause that feeling I can’t put into words, so… yeah, it’s about listening and feeling ❤️🩹
Anyways! I’m talking too much kekekeke Please, forgive the million typos I made since the previous one - I was proofreading and omg almost had a heart attack kekkeke - plus, I realized there are so many grammar and punctuation rules I didn’t know about 🥲 ((don’t tell Kevin 🥹))
Gooiiinggg now!
Today too, stay safe and blessed. Drink water, Cobie!
Thank you for everything, thank you for giving me hope through your music and presence. Thank you, for real 🥹🤍
— Ellen ☕️
#TSR🎧: So Far So Good - Purple Kiss 🤍🤍
random would you rather bc why not kekeke