Hey Kevin! It’s been a while huh? I didn’t mean to ghost or anything is just that a lot has been going on no lol thats a lie nothings happening its just my thoughts all over the place. I don’t actually know how to start this letter to you Kevin, I feel like I’ve been out of touch from everybody that its simply awkward for me. Imma start with congratulating you of course with such a successful comeback HELLA GOOD FUCKING ALBUM I SAY!!! So crazy good and all the wins and charts is so deserved!
Overall I haven’t been active. Im not updated with all your latest contents and such. I’ve been down about it actually because my attention span has been so awful lately that I don’t get to watch anything without giving up mid way and I just feel bad. I feel like I’m not being an actual TheB. Like days just merge into one tiring loop that I can’t get out of. Like even though I’m in a relatively okay place I make myself find something to be sad about or find something to feel sorry for myself. It’s bad right?
That’s why I haven’t been writing because the only thing I can really say to you is everyday I wake up, eat drink coffee / matcha use the phone all day and sleep only my crazy thoughts are busy. Nothing interesting about that.
You know, I promised myself the last time thar in the next comeback i’m gonna join a video call event and tell you my entire story verbally but again this era, my anxiety got in the way. Now the promotions are over i’ve lost another chance. I really hope that my letters are getting to you Kevin. I really want you to know how special you are in someone’s life. And I wish there was a way for me to know that you know me too. But I guess I’ll just have to wait for the universe’s right timing. I’m just really afraid that this burn out will get the best of me and make me completely retire from kpop. I’m scared of that. Anyways, the news finally came out that your going here in Manila for a joint concert FINALLY!!!! WAITED YEARS 😭 I’ll probably not vip tho Kevin, I got no funds and besides, I’ll save the front row for your solo concert here in Manila so it better come fast!! I’m gonna see you again soon Kevin!!
+++ I finally watched Euphoria btw, took me a long time. Rue represents what goes on in a Bipolar person’s life and I relate to every single thing (except for the drug addiction of course) and the episode finale of season 2, Elliot’s-song made me bawl like crazy and the first thing that popped into my head was The Boyz, So my song rec of the day is Elliot’s Song by Dominic Fine.
If I were Rue, You’d be my Elliot “You might have accidentally saved my life”
아름다웠던 거기서 다시 만나!
For my life, Kevin, Thank you
Mahal kita 💗⛄️- Z e i a h