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hello keb :D its been a while since i last wrote !!! how r u doing ? i hope u are doing well and that stuff is going good >.<
KEB I DREAMT ABT U AGAIN -O- it was kind of long and other things happened in it too but like there was this one part in where we both went to mcdonalds ???? i do not know or remember why when where how did I end up going wid sir KEVIN MOON at a mcdonalds tgt but like ... ok 😓 what i do remember is that upon entering it was quite crowded and u said something like i dont like it when its crowded i prefer when there r less ppl and i was like MHM YEP so true keb i agree ! and uh yeah thats all i dont remember if anything happened next or if i woke up or if there was a dramatic change in the scene but like ... yeah ! idk why im telling u this but yes 😓 summer has started ( very big sad sigh ) and its kinda affecting my sleep 👎 before dreaming abt the aforementioned dream i randomly woke up really really wanting to uh ... draw something ? I DONT KNOW MAN but like the urge to try to give time to art has been growing these days and its .... not the best time ... i have marked school assingments to do 💀 well its def a start that i completed a random watercolor painting i made yesterday ( i used the sort that kids use i found it lying around my place 🧍♀️) and i felt like its ... actually kinda ... nice ? ???????????????????????????????????????? considering how i used random diary paper lying around and that it was my first time ????????????? i just hope this random motivation persists , i lose motivation easily then regain it after like idk a year :(
the change in my mindset surprises me tho 😭 before being a deobi , i used to go unnecessarily hard on myself and continuously torment myself if i couldnt achieve something or do something the way i wanted to :( constant why do u do this why am i like this why did u not do this why do i look like this etc etc etc .... something abt u guys ... abt u .... made it easier to accept my work and myself :D i've always found it difficult to bring change into things that need to be changed ... thats slowly changing too ? i dont remember it word to u word but u once said something abt accepting ur flaws and abt being a work in progress - words that inspired the slow yet eminent change (。^▽^)and that one time when you talked about how you always try to be our mental health keeper and source of strength but then u said how we are ur source of strength :( it was so uplifting to hear that though i cant do much to show my support for u ( yet ,,,, i dont want to lose all hope ) u inspire me and make me feel so loved T.T im thankful i can project my love and support to you by writing letters on this silly little app, streaming, weverse livestream comments and hearts , giving u and the other memembers awards, twitter replies etc ... >.< i hope someday i'll get bubble, be able to create fanart to show u, be able to talk to u in a fansign, be able to send u gifts for ur bday like how my moonlight mutals do :3 and yk ... if not in this life then .. maybe the next ? >﹏< SPEAKING OF one of my moonlight mutals on twt got to talk to u in fan sign !!!!!!!!!!!! very happy for her heheh and very deserved too ! she has arranged many projects to support u :0 it feels so like so !!!!!! to think that people i know have met u !
thank u guys for initating this change in mindset for me - seriously, i have a lot to be thankful for T.T thank u sm T.T and yes i know that more changes are to come - both in myself and life - but i feel like with u i can conquer anything o( ̄▽ ̄)d and i hope that u are also able to do the same :> i hope that u are also able to accept urself for who u are as u are an amazing person ! and .... i love u !
also keb im rewatching the toeic challenge livestream again and 😭😭😭 BRO THE WAY U WERE FIGHTING FOR UR THE TWO WRONG ANSWERS .... i've actually done the same thing 💀 but honestly kevin i think the operators - indicators thing just depends on the context ? like indicators could be used when talking abt an economic revivial or wahtever it was that has already occured and operators could be utilized in more of a like .... idk like text book , factual sorta context ? LIKE AM I MAKING SENSE DO U GET WHAT I MEAN 😭 i went thru ( almost ) the same stuff amidst studying for my physics mid term exam ... i was solving past paper mcqs on an app with this auto checker thing on and i got this one qs wrong and was like ? 🤨🤨🤨 this cant be wrong idc the app is broken or some shi so i asked my friends abt the answer and they were like nooo ur wrong lmao and i was like HOW IM REFERING TO NEWTONS LAW EITHER HE WAS WRONG OR THIS APP IS WRONG but well .... i pulled up the answer key and MY ANSWER WAS RIGHT !!! 😠😠😠😠💢 i was like bHHhabahhHAHBAH TAKE THAT MY ANS WAS RIGHT GUYS !!!!! until ... one of my friends kindly enlightened me that i had pulled up the wrong ans key .... and i was like oh .... lolz .... sorry guys .... 😓 i can debate well on something if i have the energy for it and if i dont have to do it on stage lmao 😓
ALSO !!!!!!!! ITS MY BDAY !!!!!!!!!!! WHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO funny how its right after white day i was like why are so many tbz members posting yesterday 😭 not complaining tho ! bday is going by very cool so far heheh >.< i got bday wishes from deobi frens on twitter :D and many from my friends in school hsahdhas i was confronted by 3 of my friends in the morning omw to class and they were like HBD happy bday HAPPY ‼ BDAY ‼ give us cake 😠💢 and one of the members from the junior staff overheard and she came over and was like whose bday is it today >:0 my frens went ITS HER BDAY !!! and the staff memember was like did u bring cake 🤨 and i was like no omg 😓 and she was like well u gotta call me when u do bring cake ! and i was like yes sure !! and i just got bday wishes thruout the day by my other friends T.T i asked one of my friends to give me her insight on the last verse from a poem i got today in english literature (called the consumers report i think ?) and she took the print out of the poem with her and said that she'd tell me after class . she came back with an entire analysis as my bday gift (>人<;)was so happy i love getting gifts like these the most !! >.< tbh im the sorta person who doesnt care if i dont get gifts or not - what matters to me is how i spent my time with my loved ones ! and im very glad to have spent my bday today very well in school hehehhe :3 and with tbz and the boyz soon too ! ( gona watch tbz content after this :D )
ALSO ALSO .... TBZ TWT ACC WAS OPENED ON 15TH MARCH 2018 ?!?!?@?!@?@!? (;´д`)ゞ SHED A FEW TEARS FR WHEN A DEOBI POSTED ABT IT ON TWT LIKE T.T.T.T.T like i know its not much but it feels so significant in some sorta way (ノへ ̄、) happy new year to the boyz twt acc too ‼😻
i got more thru dms on insta too friend golden retriever sent me a long paragraph for my bday love her sm T.T ALSO in school we had a physics test today and omg .... i got a 9/10 !!!!!!!!!!! YAY AFTER GETTING LIKE 4/14 5/10 IN MY PAST TESTS LOL so for today i enjoyed physics ! and im understanding this shi like damn ?! got a compliment from a teacher of mine too ( i may or may not like academic validation ... )
ALSO when u posted photos with ur big ass ipad on insta i reposted them on my story wid the caption BRUH THAT IPAD IS ACTUALLY BIG ... and commented like 3 things on the post i dont remmeber ? one of them being smth like bro that ipad is big .... like big big . and earlier in school i had told friend golden retriever abt how u accidentally bought the ipad and she like recognized the big ipad i posted on my story so she went ur post just to inspect but to find ..... my comments on ur post ....... 😓 she replied to one of them with something like oh my what have i stumbled upon and i replied LOOK AWAY PLEASE LOOK AWAY baisdfjaschbas 😭😭😭
also kinda random but ..........
NVM MIND THAT U JUST POSTED ASIDJHFBUIAIOSDNVBHIWIAOSDCJKVBHYAUOCJKHBJASIUVJN\SGH@#$%^^*&^%$#$@#$^^* ON INSTA LAMSDFNASCJASJKCASJKKJASKJCCKAS HEHEAHFSHCIJASKCVIUOAS TAKING IT AS A BDAY GIFT IDC THANK U NOW I WONT COMPLAIN TO OTHERS ABOUT NOT GETTING U AS MY BDAY GIFT keb these edits u make r NOT TRASHY OK !!! 😠💢🤨🤨🤨🤨🤨 I LOVE THEM SM OKAY !!! love to see u get creative do not call them trashy 😠💢💢💢💢 hehehe glad u accidentally bought that ginormous ipad but like bro ...... its almost as big as my laptop's screen ?! 😓 anw i love kebin pout sm thank u for the high angle selfies too i love u 🧎♀️ also ...... forehead lolz ........ im good ! just ..... come inside of my heart ♪(´▽`) ( by IV of spades ... the song reminds me of u >.< ) love u sm keb thank u for posting on my bday and making it 10000x more special <3
now kebin the letter is getting kinda long ......... so i'll end it here >.< gbye !! love u sm have a great day great week great month and take care drink lots of water stay hydrated eat well rest well !! sending lots of warm hugs and love <3 ( ´・・)ノ(._.`) ( head pats for my favorite person ! )
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첫댓글 ps kevin if u do see like 10 comments from the same person on ur insta post ... that was probably me ...