alright.
wanna know how i got to this point? keep on reading!
happy so much (for) stardust day to those who celebrate, let’s do a bit of a breakdown shall we.
model house-like meltdown still a modern dream letdown
it kills me you know i’m dying out here.
what would you trade the pain for? i’m not sure
we were a hammer to the statue of david. we were a painting you could never frame
you were the sunshine of my lifetime- what would you trade the pain for?
i’ll never go- i just want to be invited
i just about snapped, don’t look back- every lover’s got a little dagger in their hand
i’m gettin that tilted feeling out here
nowhere left for us to go but heaven. a summer falling through our fingers again
i saw you in a bright clear field, hurricane heat in my head. the kind of pain you feel to get good in the end
inscribed like stone and faded by the rain— ‘give up what you love, give up what you love before it does you in’
i talked about this song when it first released so MOVING ON u already know how i feel
no matter what they tell you, the future’s up for grabs. no matter what they sell you- is there a word for bad miracle?
could we please pretend this won’t end?
we could cry a little, cry a lot, but don’t stop dancing, don’t dare stop
we could dance our tears away, emancipate ourselves
we said we’d never grow up— it’s open season on blue moods
(^that lyric is insane btw)
uh ok this song came out when my dog died LOL SO it has kind of a not great memory association for me, but regardless i love it a lot. i really like the lyrics— as the shirt does say, fob makes happy music for sad people lol. i don’t know, this song just makes me wanna jump around and stuff LOL a lot of fob makes me wanna do that but still.
thaw out my freezer burnt feelings for twenty summers
screaming at the stars like night lights and i love my life, love my life
running middle fingers through red lights
fever dream, tangerine sweat when we get down
you put the “fun” into dysfunction
^by the way?? we LOVE triplets
i think this was around-abouts when this picture was taken at the listening party last week:
it was very real for me.
part-time soulmate, full-time problem
i am a diamond on the inside, just add the pressure
and i guess i’m getting bolder, ‘cuz i’m less pissed we didn’t make your year-end best list; not the end of the world
i thought i knew better, i thought it would get better— i figured, somehow, by now i would have gotten it together
call you up and demand you have no fun without me
i’m like a storm on the horizon
ok moving on FUN SONG very fun song, i just. god i love triplets LOL I LOVE ‘EM LOVE A GOOD TRIPLET THEREFORE THIS IS A FAVORITE OF MINE. more songs should use triplets in my opinion. a lot of this album .. i dunno, a lot of the lyrics are almost like? cynical? things like “i thought it would get better”, we haven’t heard that from fall out boy.. Ever, actually. it feels almost resigned. i think this album hit me so hard bc it’s how i feel all of the time, just hopeless to current events and the way the world has turned out.
i make no plans, and none can be broken
remember us just like this forever — but this can’t last, won’t last
do you laugh about me whenever i leave? or do i just need more therapy?
love is in the air, i just gotta find a window to break out. buried alive inside my dreams
my mood board is just pictures of you, but i’m not sad anymore
i didn’t take the love when i had the chance, but i swear i’m not sad anymore
we all started out as shiny dimes but we all got flipped too many times. we did it for futures that never came, and for pasts that we’re never gonna change
this song feels like a coming-of-age movie to me. that was my literal first thought when i heard it for real tonight, it feels very teenage coming of age. u know what i mean right? yea u get me. hopelessly hopeful
i have been DYING to get to this song, and i am going to post pretty much every single lyric and GUESS WHAT?? I’M NOT SORRY BC THIS IS A GOD DAMN MASTERPIECE, THIS IS ART FOR REAL, THESE LYIRCS ARE ABSOLUTELY INSANE KEVIN MOON.
6am, mulholland drive, moonlight sonata and i. first movement, you and i, and a screw top bottle of wine
i feel so ‘a star is born’
kiss my cheek, baby please, would you read my eulogy?
i will never ask you for anything, except to dream sweet of me
tell me, when the party ends will you still love who i am?
scar-crossed lovers, forever, i’m checking myself out forever
i’m saving this all for later
scar-crossed lovers, forever — here we are untouched forever
they don’t know how much they’ll miss— at least until you’re gone like this.
talking to the mirror, say ‘save your breath, half your life you’ve been hooked on death’
twice the dreams, but half the love. be careful what you bottle up
the chemistry is a mess, it seems — but me, i’m still a sunbeam
i closed my eyes inside of your darkness, and found your glow
shake things up, and see what comes down
this song was a god damn sleeper agent, i didn’t think twice about it when the track listing came out and then i heard it and was BEEEEEEYOND FLOORED. ABSOLUTELY GAGGED. this song is amazing. immediately top 5 favorite songs of all time i think. AND THE VOCALS ARE SO INSANE KEVIN, you really need to listen to this one i think you might like it.
also at the listening party last week i thought he was saying “star crossed lovers” which would make sense so i didn’t Super connect with it, but as soon as i heard it was “scar crossed lovers” HOOKED. HOOK LINE AND SINKER THAT’S FUCKIN GENIUS.
also he got them phil collins drums in the background???? u better WOOOOOOOOOOORK YOU BETTER WORK.
also “i feel so ‘a star is born’” immediately made me think of you. truly, everything makes me think of you lol
anyways let’s move on finally sorry i really like this song i think it’s incredible
actually i think you might like this song too, it’s swing-y, and he’s sampling .. wtf is that song i’ll come back and edit when i figure it out. (i didn’t figure it out, you probably know it, the name is escaping me right now)
i’ve got this doom and gloom in my mind
let’s sneak in from the cheap seats, and we’ll drive until the engine just gives up
feeling so good right now, ‘til we crash and burn somehow
i know i’ve made mistakes, but at least they were mine to make
and all of my wildest dreams, they just end up with you and me
drifting from the start, i ripped myself apart — i’ll be whatever you need me to be
i cut myself down, cut myself down to whatever you need me to be
this is a charlie brown song. LOL IT JUST MAKES ME THINK OF CHARLIE BROWN i love it, i wanna do the charlie brown snoopy dance to this. i wish i could post gifs. u know what i mean. the cats are COOKIN, THEY’RE SWINGIN
parents got divorced when i was, uh, five years old
and i saw my father about three times a year after that
and when he found out that he had cancer, he decided to… to bring me here and he gives me this big pink seashell
and he says to me, "son, the answers are all inside of this"
and i’m all, "what?"
now then i realize, i realize that
the shell's empty, there's no point to any of this, it's all just a
a random lottery of meaningless tragedy and a series of near escapes
so i take pleasure in the detail, you know, a, a quarter pounder with cheese
those are good
the sky about ten minutes before it started to rain
a moment where your laughter becomes a cackle
and i sit back
and i ride my own melt
this is a spoken word track- i don’t have an opinion on it simply bc i think i just don’t like how this guy delivers it? i don’t know the delivery is a little bit weird to me, it isn’t the correct inflection in my opinion. the WORDS, however .. again, the over arching theme of just the acceptance of the Meaninglessness and the chaos of this shitty world we’re living in. not good acceptance, but a kind of numb “this may as well happen” acceptance. we’re all so just desensitized and numb to everything happening. but also feeling absolutely everything all of the time always. taking it day by day. riding your own melt.
(also fun fact i’m also a child of divorce, but i was much older, i think i was probably about 11 or 12 or smthn when they finally separated for good. we used to do this program at school called “banana splits”- basically once a month all the kids of divorce would get together during lunch and talk abt our feelings. i never actually spoke and i didn’t even go half the time. at the end of the year we had banana splits, like the ice cream, which i couldn’t eat bc they were pre made and LOADED with nuts lol. i always found that weird and sort of isolating, but it seemed as if the other kids took some comfort in it so maybe it wasn’t a bad thing. maybe it’s just me lol).
i like playing dumb, letting you figure me out
drop a bomb on all the things we dreamed about
smash all the guitars, ‘til we see all the stars.
got to throw this year away, we got to throw this year away like a bad luck charm
the trumpets bring the angels, but they never came- and no one let them in ‘cuz they didn’t know my name
i know i keep my feelings tucked so away, just another day spent hoping we don’t fall apart
let’s twist the knife again, twist the knife again like we did last summer
i’m just trying to keep it together, but it gets a little harder when it never gets better
again. this over arching theme of just giving up on optimism. i can very much relate to that, at this point i’m just completely numb. but actually 2023 has, So Far, had more good than bad. the bad is just Very Overwhelmingly Bad, but i’m trying my best to not let it swallow up all of the good.
also the orchestrals in this song god DAMN patrick really went to town on this one. bleeding fueled by ramen for all their worth LMAO I LOVE IT HONESTLY. why Not have a whole ass orchestra, ur fuckin fall out boy do whatever you want man, go hard no one’s stoppin ya
(i love the name of this song)
oh god, kinda please would you kill me now?
late at night, in my room, lie awake, think of you and all your little dooms
i carved out a place in this world for two, but it’s empty without you
i’ve got all this love i’ve got to keep to myself
all this effort to make it look effortless
one day every candle’s gotta run out of wax. one day no one will remember me when they look back— i can’t stop, can’t stop ‘til we catch all your ears though. somewhere between mike tyson and van gogh
^^that lyric goes hard
vocally this one might be my favorite MAYBE i don’t know it’s REALLY hard to choose ;-; they really did the damn thing with this album.
an alligator prince with crocodile tears, too many to count. permanent headcold dreams, awash in your love falling in and out. time is luck, and i wish ours overlapped more, or for longer. orange leaves bore the ones falling off trees. the first time i took the mask off, just had another one on underneath. i’m just melted wax on a birthday cake— another year fades away. charcoal crushed, pixie fever angel dust. stuck in a wasteland we covered in glitter and broadcast just for a little serotonin. self-sabotage at best, under your spell. but you know what they say; if you want a job done right, you gotta do it yourself. this palace was crystal, but the world was a cruel joke. what is there between us, if not a littleannihilation?
this is another spoken word piece, BY FUCKING PETE. it’s been a Very long time since we’ve gotten poetry from pete, i literally could not be happier right now to be honest. the backing track to this is honestly So perfect, the poem is so heart wrenching.. i think i may have said this before, but i like pete’s lyrics and poetry so much because we kind of have similar brains. he is Incredibly specific about the words he chooses to use. “what is there between us if not a little annihilation” might sound like it doesn’t make sense, to some people anyways, but i fucking Get it. i Get It, i understand what he’s saying. it just resonates with me.
ok before i start in with the lyrics- i really feel like i mentioned this on here but i may not have, every time a new fall out boy album comes out, i look at the tracklist and try and predict which one is gonna be my favorite. this was the one i picked out and ACTUALLY at the listening party i was like “fuck i think i was wrong this time-“ NOPE, i was right, i was absolutely right, this is it. i think i thought that bc i couldn’t really hear the lyrics. but i fuckin hit the nail on the head good job emma u got it. this is my favorite bar none.
i’m pretty sure as far as humans go, i am a hard hard pill to swallow
on the bright side, got the wrong insides
i spent ten years, ten years in a bit of chemical haze, and i miss the way that i felt nothing
passed my old street, the house i grew up in. it breaks your heart, but four of the ramones are dead
^i feel the need to explain this lyric really fast, he’s talking about the passage of time in sort of a roundabout way. using the ramones as a metaphor
i felt you at the beginning, but needed you at the end
stop me if you have heard this all before, too many times after too much alcohol
so if i had to guess what this song is about, im assuming it’s about pete’s past drug addiction. i PERSONALLY have never been addicted to drugs or alcohol (does nicotine count?), but i grew up absolutely surrounded by addiction, and seeing how it absolutely decimates someone. it’s like a disease, but it doesn’t only affect you, it affects everybody that you come into contact with in your entire life. like the black plague. so i get it. i get what he’s saying here.
oh also, you might already know this but this is kintsugi
“the japanese art of repairing broken pottery and mending areas of breakage with laquer mixed with powdered silver gold or platinum”. so it’s EXTRA meaningful in that way.
sometimes you wonder it we’re ever looking back at a picture of 2019, and saying ‘that’s the way, the world it used to be before our dreams started bursting at the seams’
we’re here and we’re ready to livestream the apocalypse
i don’t care if it’s pretty, the view is so pretty from the deck of a sinking ship
everything is lit but my lightning bolt brain
baby please, i just need someone to hold me, even if you don’t even know me. i’m going neon in the night time
they say i should try meditation, but i don’t want to be with my own thoughts
i just want to be your cherry on top
when i said ‘leave me alone’ this isn’t quite what i meant
i got the quarantine blues, bad news, what’s left?
so it seems the vulture’s getting too full to fly
DING DING DING, IT’S ABOUT COVID. they actually did Not write this whole album in quarantine, most of it was written actually before the pandemic, but this one is the only song that specifically references it and was written during lockdown. i. LOVE patrick’s vocals in this song. i think it’s incredible. again, such an upbeat song that sounds like it should be happy but it’s just so resigned and sad and angry lyrically. this is one i relate to the most, but not on as deep of a level as the other ones. especially the meditation line, i Cannot sit alone with my own thoughts i’d rather pass away.
i would be shocked, but also not at all surprised at the same time if they played this live on their tour. it’s in a Very high register almost the entire time, it would probably be hard to sing for like a million tour dates on end. but i wanna hear it.
i’m in a winter mood, dreaming of spring now
burning myself down
i feel like something that’s been stretched out over and over again, until i’m creased and i’m about to break down the middle, split me right down the middle
life is just a game, maybe. i’m stuck in a lonely loop, my baby
so much for stardust. we thought we had it all, thought we had it all.
i need the sounds of crowds, or i can’t fall asleep at night
i’m pretty positive my pain isn’t cool enough
ache it ‘til you make it
i think i’ve been going thru it, and i’ve been putting your name to it
in another life, you were my babe. in another life, you were the sunshine of my lifetime, what would you trade the pain for? i’m not sure
i used to be a real go-getter
i used to think it’d all get better
AND HERE WE ARE
THAT LINE
THAT’S HOW WE GOT TO THIS POINT. HOW ABOUT A ROUND OF APPLAUSE EVERYONE FALL OUT BOY MADE ME CRY SO HARD I ALMOST THREW UP.
i don’t know why That. that last lyric. that was the one that got me. and it got me HARD. it’s so simple but god damn that shit. it broke my heart. this song is also beautiful, like Actually amazingly beautiful. part of me is praying they don’t play this live even though i know they will, just because i don’t think i can handle it. like i’m genuinely scared for my emotional and physical wellbeing if i have to see this song live.
also you like that fuckin call back? to love from the other side? YEAAAAA WE LOVE A CALL BACK i was GAGGED at the listening party. it was a great moment literally everyone looked at each other like 😦 in absolute awe.
AND WE’RE DONE TA DA this is actually so much better than i could have ever hoped, which is incredible because i had HIGH expectations for this album. and they exceeded every single one. i know I KNOW this isn’t your type of music but if i can just rlly quick get on my knees and beg of you to listen to this. IF ANY OF THEM, at least listen to heaven iowa, i am my own muse, the kintsugi kid, what a time to be alive and so much (for) stardust I’M BEGGING YOU THEY’RE SO GOOD.
okay. phew. that’s all. thank you for letting me ramble abt the things i’m passionate about even if you don’t care. listen to those songs or i’m comin to ur house and i’m stealing all of your left shoes.
~emma-elayne
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