Heyy, it’s Karen 🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻
It’s been a long time since I wrote a letter, right?
I’ve been wanting to write since two weeks ago but somehow I didn’t get time or felt good to do it. You know, I prefer to write whenever I feel better.
So first of all, I couldn’t help but wonder if you are doing good these days. I really hope you are enjoying these days a lot and read, watch, draw, write, or do anything and everything you want that makes you feel at peace.
Also I didn’t get the chance to write you to make sure you received my lil gift 🙁
Again, I know it was not a lot but it was surely honest lmao
I started working at the forwarder company where I used to work with Andrea before the restaurant. And now we work together but in different areas, still, we get to see each other often.
Tbh I wanted to get a regular job after coming back because those kinds of jobs are extremely stressful and even require you to work after office hours, and you know how I am respecting my shift hours, specially right now. But I decided to go back because that was the best offer I got and because even if Andrea and I are in different areas, being there would help us to cherish each other.
So whenever we know the other is having a hard time we buy each other coffee or breakfast, because we use to forget to have breakfast or even bring coffee to the office whenever we are under a lot of stress.
This time Andrea bought me coffee on her way to the office 💜
These days I’ve been thinking about a lot of things, so that’s what I will talk about today.
Tbh I have been very depressed and tired these past days, and it’s okay, because thanks to that I was able to reflect on a lot of stuff. Wait, wait, I’m not depressed today lmao so don't worry ✨
TMI: There’s a way to know that I’m not doing fine and that’s not getting my nails done lol, if I’m depressed I don’t have energy to even do my nails. Oh, and also if I don’t post here in a while. It’s not that I don’t want to but that I don’t have energy or my mental state it’s not in it’s best mood. But I'm okay now so I did my nails after two months jsjsjs what ya think?
Its a simple design for my short af anxious nails
[The K stands for Kevin but also for Karen… lol]
Anyways… So the other day I was thinking about how wometimes we want something so bad but somehow things don't go as we expected and we don’t get to do it in the end (?
And after that, just when you moved on and took a different direction the opportunities come, so it’s up to us if we take them anyway or keep our current path.
You know, they say opportunities come when we least expect them...
So it happened to me last week, I got a notification of a job offer in BC, and even tho if I accepted it and went there I realized that it was not what I wanted to do right now.
So I thought that whenever we get the opportunity to do what we wanted but we feel like we don’t want to do it anymore then that means we’re on the right path. Or probably is not that we don’t want to do it anymore but that we feel like we should wait a little bit more to do it.
"Why I don't want to do it if that's what I wanted a month ago?" "Is it that I really don't want it or am I just too scared of doing it?", those where the questions that I kept doing to myself.
So I got super confused, I didn’t know what to do.
So in cases like these I realized that the best I could do if I didn’t have an answer at the moment was to give it a try yes or yes.
Probably I don’t have the answer rn but eventually, after trying, life itself will give me the answer.
If it’s not meant to happen, it won’t happen even if I try (I'm not saying it in a negative way). And if it doesn't happen, most probably it is because something bigger is coming my way and I should wait.
So, we have nothing to lose if we try it. For me, I rather to think “well, it wasn’t for me, hm… okay, next” rather than thinking “but what would have happened if I only had tried it when I had the chance?”.
So I had an interview and I was honest about my situation and told them that I’m not in BC anymore... They still wanted to do an interview, so I accepted. I had my interview the other day and I'm supposed to wait until today for their final decision...
I honestly don’t expect anything, I did my best regardless, and rn I feel like I did the right thing.
Whatever the result is, I will figure out what to do next. If I'm sure of something is that when a door closes, more doors will open in front of us.
The thing about life is that no matter how stuck we feel we have nothing more to do but keep walking. No matter if we decide to walk fast or slow, what’s important is to keep going. You can also take as many breaks as you want.
Life is like a walking machine, once it’s started you have to keep walking or you’ll fall unless you stop it for a break.
There will be days you’ll have to take more breaks, there will be days where you’ll feel like you can walk more or run faster and there will also be a days when you’ll realize that you don’t like going to the gym but do tennis, swim or just go and grab an ice cream. All of them are valid and it's okay as long as you feel good with yourself and your decisions.
If this is one of those days that you decided to break the routine and go for ice cream or to eat whatever you want instead of going to the gym then it’s okay, you should never regret your decisions if those decisions make you happy or are something you really wanted to do.
I know you probably recognize it, don’t you?
It’s exactly like the quote in Spanish that you shared from the museum the other day…
You actually shared it when I was just thinking a lot about it [so thank you so much for surprisingly having that talent of connecting telepathically with my feelings lmao].
So now I don’t regret every decision I’ve made in my life, because no matter how hard the consequences of taking that decision are like, it will be always worth it, because nothing is worth more than the lessons I learned thanks to that.
Yesterday I started watching EEAO (I haven’t finished it lmao but I will this week) and it made me think even more about life and every decision I’ve made that took me to be the person that I’m today. And also you know how grateful I’m with the people that surrounds me and made me remember how important they are in my life all all the positive impact they’ve had in my growing process and vice versa.
Last friday Andrea and I talked about it at a cafe. We always touch that topic whenever we feel like we're lost in life lol Because everytime we felt lost in the past, suddenly something good happens thanks to those moments of uncertainity.
A good example is how we met just when we both were having a big existential crisis.
Same with TBZ, you were at the time the only safe place I had and you came in perfect timing to bring light to my life.
Living grateful for everything, no matter how unfortunate we may feel in the moment, makes such a big difference.
You know I also like BTS, and also BTS was my safe place back then when I was in HS, so I was just thinking about how they grew and how I knew back then that they would become really famous and so they did. And same with you, as well as I did with BTS I have that feeling that you will grow a lot (I’m honestly so excited for what’s to come for you because you really deserve it). You know you got me no matter how busy I might be sometimes, thanks to this thing called adult life lmao. Also, no matter what, you are still and will be my safe place, so pls always remember that someone is out there so grateful with you for being her home and her safe place, okay?
Anyways, what I wanted to get to is that I was thinking about how positive and supportive I’m with the artists I like and so I thought “If I can be that supportive with them, how would it be if I put the same amount of trust in myself as I do with them? or even more…”
You know as fans we trust them without a doubt, but it comes to me, even if I trust myself to do something I want sometimes I quit because I’m too scared of not being enough.
So that’s why most of the time I start something and don’t finish it. I dare to say that’s one of the hardest things to change about myself. But as you say, I’m a work in progress, so that’s okay 💜 Sooo, that was today’s letter. I didn’t want to make it longer. You know I could spend days writing about my thoughts lol
I should write less so I can have more topics for the following letters, right?
Since it's been a long time since I wrote here I’ll make a quick compilation of everything interesting I did these last weeks and the songs of the day.
Do you recognize her? I think you will do if she got safe with you or if ist accepted the package lol
I was honestly too worried about it but still even if you didn't get her I recognise I should've send her with more time in advance, so whatever happened it's okay. Money comes and goes and I'll have more opportunities to send you more gifts, I guess.
Still she is cute, isn't she? She traveled a lot, and she was with me in a very difficult day, and even if she was with me only for a few days and that it was bought for you she was there for me when I needed an hug. So I hope if you happened to get her she'll be there for you too.
I know her name is Kuromi but I wanted to give her a name, but since I sck with names (u already know that) then you should name her jsjsjsj
Fun fact, I just learned that Kuromi is supposed to be a Bunny lmao, why, Karen, why...
Anyways, wherever she is, pls name her lol
I got along very easy with the girls from my new job so we went together to get some food, and we promised to go to together to a new place every month.
Even tho the job might be so stressful, knowing you are not alone in the office and having more ppl to talk to really makes a difference.
Also ofc I saw the show where you ate the Mazapan and the Elote lollipop. Actually is so weird for other ppl to like Mexican candies bc they are so sour and spicy lol
It was so nice seeing you like it a lot. I will send you lots of mexican candies next time 🫶🏻
I think Mazapanes are one of the few Mexican candies that are loved by almost everyone no matter where they are from. My Korean friends used to buy lots of it and bring them home.
I sent one of my friends two boxes of Mazapanes to Korea, one chocolate covered and one original.
Fun fact about those candies. De la Rosa is from my city and also Dulces Vero was born here. One of the things I love a lot about my city and that make me so proud is that most of the popular Mexican things are from here (including Tequila).
I live in a state called Jalisco and there's a city in Jalisco called Tequila which is the motherland of Tequila.
A few years ago De La Rosa made a kind of event in downtown and they made the biggest Mazapan in the world lmao
Here's a pic I found on the internet:
I didn't go there because I heard there was a loooooong line of ppl wanting to get a piece of the Mazapan lol
I just keep wondering how did rhey do to cut it without making a mess......
There's also an official De La Rosa store where you can buy limited or special flavours of Mazapan and other candies from the brand. So I guess this is a good excuse to go there to show you a little bit of it since I have never shown you a lot about my city lol
If you someday want to come to Mexico and decide to come here, I hope my tips can help you a lot.
[the other day a lady from the store around the corner gave me an Elote lollipop lmao I told you my dad is know in the streets and even if I dont talk a lot with everyone they recognise me bc of my dad, so do the lady in the store 😅]
Anywaysss
Congrats on your beautiful new born flowers!
Actually there's something fun, one of y classmates that is in Vancouver rn, send me a pic tellling me summer arrived to Vancity. So as soon as I saw the pic I felt like I knew those flowers lmao
Aren't they the same??? Or is it just me??
If so, then you can say you have vancity flowers in your room 💛💛💛
Speaking of flowers... we have no cherry blossons in Mexico but we have a tree called Jacaranda and beautiful purple flowers bloom from it 💜
There are also yellow jacarandas, so if I happen to see a lot of them together I'll show youuu
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Songsss of the week (or may I say a month now 😩):
Anywayssss
I hope you are doing great. Since I feel like I can write back now and I feel like mi head and mind are more at peace I will do my best to keep posting the moonday letters.
Even if you don’t read them bc you are busy its okay I want to keep doing it.
As well as you do your best every single day for us I want to do my best to be a better person that can also be there for you and be a source of strength whenever you need it.
So I will be okay for myself bc if I’m okay with myself I can share that with other people and somehow being a good influence for at least someone out there, you know. Pbbly to u or for my parents or other people around me.
I might not be famous but we all are able to be a positive influence in other people’s lives 💜
I hope you always remember you are not alone, we are here for you and even though we all have our own different battles we are in this together to support each other.
Because we all look for the same thing and is find the best version of ourselves for ourselves.
Anyway it will get longer if I keep going lol
[btw, I just purchased bubble, I know I never get to read the chats in the moment you send them lol but once in a while I’ll try to send you suportive messages there, that’s the reason why I payed it. So I hope someday my messeges can get to you in right timing. Update: bbl is sooo confusing lmao I guess I’ll figure out how it workd latter]
PS. Forgive my typossss cuz I know I most probably had a looooot jsjsjds
Have a nice nice dayyy and see u in my next possibly non-monday letter 🫶🏻
Te quiero mucho, mi niño
Please please take lots of care okay?
I’m so fcking proud of you today too 🥰
Con amor,
—Karen.
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