binnie!
firstly, happy june ^-^ I know i said it yesterday, but i didnt know if you just couldnt say it back or if you didnt see...so happy june ^♡^
I'm working on a fun little project for this month, and i really hope you will love it as much as me and my friends do. Please back me up if IST try to sue me /j but jokes aside, until that's done, I wanted to try something here.
so, the newer version of the *flag* has 6 colours, and therefore those colours have 6 meanings. I'm gonna attempt to write 7 letters (because there is another part) based on each meaning for a whole week. idk how far I'll get but I'll try
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Day 1 is red, life. For me, this kinda means looking at life as a whole, and in this case I'm taking it as my journey of discovery.
My sexuality and gender identity became an issue at 13. I wont say what, but something happened that made me think...huh...maybe if I dress less feminine, boys wont pay attention to me? which led to my first stage in my journey. I identified as bisexual and trans masc. I went by a different name, cut my hair short, and wore a binder to keep the appearance of a lil emo boy...but it didnt work. it didnt feel right.
I got outed in year 8 by a girl who didnt also want to be outed...so chose to out me, idek-
anyways, she outed me and I had to start accepting what was being said. after summer break, I went from denying people asking if I was a lesbian to just going "yep. and i dont care", it felt amazing to have that power, and at the same time I was having a lot easier of a time identifying as genderfluid. Eventually they left me alone.
Through college, I found myself losing who I was. the pressure to be someone I didnt feel comfortable being was getting a lot, and I pushed myself to be a cis presenting lesbian. It was a really low point and I didnt feel myself at all.
cut to 2019, I was looking online at a page about pride and that was when i saw it: "non binary. a person who feels neither female nor Male" and I saw it and went...yeah, that's me. I'm not trans, I dont feel comfy being called a guy, and I'm definitely not comfy being called a girl either...so...I'm non binary :> in that same year, I announced it to my friends and asked to go by Leaf, and a different set of pronouns. my mom and friends were so supportive, and it warms my heart so much when people respect that despite being really feminine sounding.
Again, the doll situation was the best thing to happen to me, because some friends who didnt realise how much my pronouns meant to me, started calling me by those pronouns, and it helped my irl friends understand a bit better, too :,) so thank you, firstly for correcting my pronouns when talking about the tattoos on the doll, but also for helping people realise that those were actually my pronouns. it means the world to me even months on, and so many people were touched by that moment ;-;
my name was a name I still hate, I was a teen, I was scared, I was an emo with no friends who relied on blasting fall out boy and simple plan to feel something, and i was relentlessly bullied.
Now I'm here :> my name is Leaf, which I shall be legally changing very soon (and that is the reason I havent applied for a fancall yet. I dont want you to know me by my birth name), I'm 23 years old, and a digital artist who has so many friends now. I'm known to many for what I love doing and I have friends and followers who respect and support so many aspects of my life.
I cant thank you enough for everything you have done for our community. The subtle nods to supporting 🥬🥓🥑🍅 artists and singers (idk what's allowed to be said), correcting pronouns, congratulating fans for coming out...it all builds up, and it builds up into you being such a wonderful human, idol, and role model. everything you do and say is so important, and me and my friends of that community (which is like....90% of your fanbase so it means a lot to A LOT of us) all love you so much for being so warm and caring to us all. I wouldnt be as open and proud as I am if it wasnt for you and TBZ as a whole. so thank you once again, for being the best human we moonlights could ever ask for.
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hopefully that was okay to say, I'll be back tomorrow with the next colour ^-^ until then
ilytt🌙ab
leaf 🌱
p.s. bey said happy pride at the 2nd night of london. a true win during this month honestly T^T what a legend