HI, HI~ 👋🏼
COBIEEEE IN KOBEEEEE!!! 🩷🩵🤍
Deobis’ precious star, how’s your Monday progressing? I sincerely hope your heart is beating happy and peacefully while you’re getting ready for Fukuoka concert~
Yesterday, June 4th, was one of the most memorable days in my ENTIRE life and I still don’t know how to put my feelings into words… It doesn’t feel real…?! Is it okay if I tell you things out of chronological order? Kekekekeke I’ll probably mess up somewhere along this letter 😅
Zeneration in KOBE / Day 2 was my 4th time seeing you live since last year’s The B Zone 🥲 It was also the first time I got to finally see TBZ as my beloved OT11, plus we could scream and do the fanchants without worries!! I mention in my letters from time to time how I’m so shy, specially in crowded places… but this time I was SO determined! I thought A LOT about when or how I would lift my flag, if there would be any problem with it, or if fellow deobis would feel uncomfortable to see another country’s flag in their country’s concert. Overthinking is a thing 💨
But… when the lights were dimmed, it felt like God touched my heart and gave me a green sign, plus a shot of courage. I immediately grabbed it and pulled it out from my bag. And dude… that was the best thing I did! 🥹
The general stage view mum and I got wasn’t that great because we’re short and right in front of us there were two very tall deobis 😅 So the 토롯코 (what’s the English word omg) made everything better 🤧
Kevin was the first one who saw it! 😭 He pointed at me twice and I was excitedly shaking my head “yes”, like, “yes, I’m from Brazil!” 😂 And his reaction was soooo precious, I’m keeping it in my heart forever 😭
I was watching the video I recorded and still can’t help but laugh at my “WHERE’S JACOB” dnfnkskdkskkdwjd As soon as Kev moved on, and while I was trying to breathe, I was already looking for you~ I told you I was going to be there, I told you about the flag, so I needed to keep my word! 🥹
That was when your eyes passed by and quickly came back to me 😭 Thinking about it now keeps making me feel my heart being squeezed tightly… How can we love and care so much about people we never actually met? 🥺 How can these people become so important in our lives?
You waved your hand and I knew that, at that moment, everything was worth it. You know, even simple and common things that are natural to other people usually are way more complicated to me, most of the time kekekeke So… I’m so grateful, Cobie!
I look at the pictures and the videos… BUT somehow they don’t feel real, it doesn’t feel like I was the one who actually took them… 😭 All these years supporting you from afar, thinking about one day seeing your eyes personally and hearing your soft and precious voice… Obviously, I hope this is not a conclusion, but I wanted to thank you for this small moment.
Thank you for bringing your gaze back to the flag when your eyes passed by it. I know nothing changed for you guys, but I hope you felt at least a small spark of how much TBZ are loved even at the other side of this planet. Hopefully this (or in the next) year, you get to see the proof of what I’m telling you, you get to feel how loved you are in the country that lives within exactly 12 hours of difference from Seoul time.
The whole concert was so amazing and well performed that I’m speechless even now… YOUR REVEAL HIGH NOTE GETS ME EVERY D4MN TIME AND I COULD FINALLY SHOUT OUT LOUD!! Also, can we talk about how Nightmares choreography looks like a masterpiece? It is SO artistically beautiful, like, how the white outfit added so well to the moves. You guys always give your 1206% at dancing and singing - I FELT SO PROUD 😭
You’ve grown a lot, Jacob, and thinking about it makes me so so so proud. How your confidence built up over time, how your skills are now closer to perfection in my eyes, and how your eyes still shine like a galaxy of your own. Thank you for your efforts at reading Japanese, Cobie-san! 本当にかっこいいでした✌🏼
Every single stage was so precious and I can tell you that I enjoyed myself the most this time! I literally forgot all my worried and fears, all the overthinking and anxiety… they just disappeared at that moment I was with you.
I shyly shed a tear during Flag. Although I protested a lot when I saw 숨 was out of the setlist (please bring it back in Gifu 😭 it’s my fav song ever), Flag will always have a special place in my heart, you can see how I always get emotional hearing this one live. Third time and it still makes me cry~ Do you know one of the reasons why?
During the chorus after the bridge, when you sing first followed by Kevin, in this specific part, all the lights are off except for two. Only you and Kev are enlighted in this part. Seeing the stage like that, I prayed while hearing you sing 😢 I hope, and I wish from the bottom of my heart that God keeps taking care of you two, and the boys too, guiding every single step along the way and leading you to the places where He planned even before we were born. What I felt in that moment was that you two are doors for His blessings, the ones He can count on… and seeing how many lives you’ve been changing and touching, I think we’re sooo blessed to have you in TBZ. I always say it, but, thank you for allowing yourself to be a precious tool in God’s hands. And I hope you can keep allowing your life to be a bridge, conducting love, peace, support and light not only to The Boyz and The B, but also to everyone who’s around you. 🤍 Deobis are here to be the same bridge to you, I’ll keep on doing my best to get all of this and more delivered to your heart’s front door. Anytime you need.
It’s a relief The Boyz are 11. It’s a blessing The Boyz have you. It’s the best miracle that I got to see you so close at least once in this short life. Thank you for existing, for running towards your dreams even on this path that gets steep ever so often. It was and it is worth it, Cobie.
I’ll try to wrap up this letter “shortly”.
You mean a lot, Jacob. And I realized once again how much I love you deep inside my heart 🤍 Be happy, though I know we can’t always find happiness every day, I hope you know there’s somebody in this planet that cheers for you. Remember the hand? I’m still holding yours, so you can hold mine whenever you need to. Together is better than alone.
Thank you for being part of my best memories, Jacob Bae. I will love you timelessly.
Stay safe, stay blessed today too.
I LOVE YOU.
— Ellen 🇷☕️🤍
#TSR: Flag - THE BOYZ ✨
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