Hi Kevin!! Happy Monday 💛
It's the public holiday in Malaysia today because of our King's birthday.
Anyway, since I just finished my degree a week ago, I haven't found a job yet ahahaha. I have just been resting, reading, trying out a new hobby - drawing with oil pastels because it's my favourite art item(?) although I'm totally not good at it!!
During the weekend, I went out to watch a movie with my family on Saturday and had a little reunion with high school classmates on Sunday 🥰💛
I hope that you are having a good time in Japan too!! Take care of yourself hehe I hope to get a lot of good pictures from you 🥹 especially the boyfriend pictures one (you should ask members like Sunwoo and Changmin for some tips ahahaha 🫠🫣🤪)
Funny excerpt today, dad bought melon pan and sigh everything reminds me of you 😂 but I ate the melon pan happily!! ahahaha
I'm sorry that I don't really have interesting story to tell, and sometimes my letters feel a bit rushed 🥲 I will try to think of interesting stories to tell you next time!! ahahaha
But today marks my 3rd year anniversary of being a The B 💛 I hope that for the past 3 years, you could feel some warmth of my sincere love and supports towards you. I'm so glad that fate brought us together and it was definitely the right time to discover you during the pandemic, Kevin 💛 I always wish for the best for you!!
Sometimes, I feel jealous seeing how other moonlights got noticed by Kevin. I feel like every moonlight got noticed by Kevin at least once, be it at the concert, weverse, pms, or you just recognised them from the gifts they sent to you, or their fan accounts. But I am not active like that because I am a very introvert person hiding behind my private account with only a few friends 🥹 I also think about how I am such a silent lover, because sometimes I feel like my feelings are too big for my own heart that I get overwhelmed so easily and later on I get scared because of how overwhelmed I am. And that's why I am such a silent lover and I prefer to admire people from afar, not telling them how i actually feel ☹️💛
But still, although I don't know if Kevin was aware of my existence or not, and whether you read my letter or not, I have been your fan for 3 years, and I will continue to do so ☺️
There's a quote by Mary Oliver that I hold on to tightly this year:
"You don't have to be good, you only have to let the soft animal of your body love what it loves."
And although I realised that I'm not good in a lot of things, including oil pastel art, or showing my love towards Kevin like other moonlights, I'm just gonna let this soft animal of my body love what it loves at its own pace 🙂
Sometimes, I like reading your past fancafe posts before I go to sleep. It feels so comforting, like you're chasing my nightmares away for me to have a good night. That's how much of a comfort you are to me, Kevin.
Have a good week my beloved person. You are very dear to me, Kevin 🌻💛
- Shamimi 🧸