binnie!
yes its half 4 rn we dont talk about that. anyways! hello you 🥺 oh my gosh I cant even begin to figure out where to go with this letter, so I'll add a pinch of everything.
first off- my lovely binnie (who I also miss ♡), thank you so much for the past couple of weeks. I was feeling really down at the fact that so many of my friends were seeing you, whether it be over video or in person, but everything that has happened for the past few weeks has made up for that. you know what you did, thank you so much for making me feel so...I cant find the words to explain it, but thank you for being so sweet (not tbz) (actually yes tbz).
I think the last time I spoke to you was when I video called trish, and while that hasnt happened again yet, i have been in contact with her about some things...i cant yet say...though keopi already gave a slight spoiler on their call with you (who already told me about the moment they mentioned me. why are you both just the sweetest omg).
I'm also happy you finally met milo!! this era so many of my friends got to talk to you, some for the first time too. although I've GOT to talk about my favourite exchanges-
hi Ken hi barbie will forever live in my brain (you guys matching will never not be cute), as will joy being THE legend and jumping in her friend's pool, but I think we need to talk about a very serious matter here
*applies heavy eyeliner, puts on arm warmers, slips into a casual Pierce The Veil shirt* so, when were you gonna tell me you were a mainstream at heart but inner emo, huh bud? I freaking- no because listen I grew up with fall out boy, panic! at the disco, the academy is..., all time low etc etc and knowing that you (my current ult) not only listened to fall out boy (even a little) (also my old ult) BUT KNOW T H E E E E E ANTHEM, THIS AINT A SCENE ITS AN ARMS RACE???? bro my heart LEAPT-
so I feel like now is a good time to dive into a little storytime.
back when I was a kid, my mom raised me on my chem, linkin park, and green day. I found my feet with FOB, P!, and ATL at age 9 (omg and cobra starship my BABES). Anyways, I grew up well with fall out boy and even learned guitar and bass because of them, though I wasnt the best, I had fun with it and eventually got patrick and Pete's guitar and bass. which was a moment (I still have them though). when I was 15 about to turn 16, I got VIP tickets and actually met them! I ended up on Pete's Instagram because I made them miniature guitars which I took with me to the photo op, and oh my god- patrick stump...that man. what a guy. firstly, until the day I get a kev hug, patrick stump has to be the best hug I've gotten from one of my idols in life. he was SO sweet like "oh my gosh you made this??? you're so cool" and I cried. I look awful in the photo so no photo, but trust me it did happen.
I feel like my collection eras in life are no stronger than my main 4 atp: fall out boy, 5sos, bts, tbz. but oh man if you think the kevin wall is bad (yes, the wall that is literally just your posters and postcards from albums because I dont wanna ruin them), you shouldve seen the fall out boy section of my room...it was...god. I tried to find a photo, but I got these instead
so yeah, that was a little dive into my emo years, thank you Emma for that gem.
next subject!
theres a theme of people talking about how you've inspired them, so I'd like to present- my first try at digital calligraphy
I sat last night and tried my hand at it since I was getting frustrated with what I was working on. I listened to melting heart the entire time (Much like your first calligraphy live) and really felt the music as I was doing it. I'm frustrated atm, like many others, with how there just isnt enough appreciation for the things you do behind the scenes...so I did the line you wrote. I wanted to make it a gift, and do a wallpaper version, but I couldn't be assed to figure out the dimensions...so it's a poster now skskksksjs. also sorry for adding the "girl" in there, I didnt know whether to put it or not and I couldnt remember if that was what you added or if it was added onto your line. so I'm sorry for 1. making it gendered but also 2. potentially adding a part that was added on.
lastly, I'm sad to say...i made a bookmark this era for my fansign slot, but it was too last minute so the friend who went on my behalf couldnt take it. but here it was
I'll leave it here as its 5am and tbh I dont have to be up for a little while so I'm gonna head back to bed. I only woke up because I overheated a little, but I'm feeling better now :>
thank you as always and as usual for everything you do for me and my moonlight friends. so many of us are actual friends, and I cant wait until the days you can meet some more of them (manifesting for flora, come on flora).
signing off ! ilytt🌙ab
leaf 🌱
p.s. now I know you read my letters, you have no excuse to bring up your favourite emo songs on bbl- I'm kidding (I'm not pls pull through on that topic), my real P.s. is that I hope you are having a great day, resting well, and that you will see bey soon because you deserve it and you're amazing ♡