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아임백😎 ㅎㅎㅎ hi, eric!
I'm back here again, haha. Today was such a crazy day for me, because I got only around 2 hours of sleep and then we had classes until 5:30 pm... then 4 quizzes from our majors 🥴 It was actually funny because at first things were going well and I found the first three quizzes kinda easy. I even got the highest score in one of them 😎 (1 mistake 😳) but when we got to the last one........ ha ha...... I made a such a regretful mistake 😭 So there was this part of the quiz where it was full of computing and calculations. It was around 17 of the 30 items! And for this, the first calculation was specifically important because you'd use the answer you got there for the rest of the items in the calculation part... AND I MESSED IT UP 🧎♀️ Ughhh. I knew the rest of the formulas and even did them correctly but because of that first one...... I don't think I'm going to make it through that passing score, haha 💔 (also sorry if my explanation sucked hahaha) Oh well. 😭 When I get scores like this, I tend to get very calculative. I think I'm a bit ambitious? when it comes to academics so if I get low scores, I try to think of plans on how to lift my grades up, like thinking of certain scores I have to get in the next ones, what's the percentage or average I'm aiming for, etc. lol
Anyway. I think it's because I've always achieved nice scores ever since I was a kid so I kinda grew up pushing myself to keep maintaining that. I know it's okay to take things slow, and you know, not to be too hard on yourself when it comes to these things, but I just really like the feeling of accomplishment when I get those kinds of results, you know what I mean? But at the same time, I also wish I wouldn't, you know, be so attached to getting satisfaction from high grades, haha.
Oh yeah, it also rained a bit hard today. My classmates and I didn't have an umbrella but thankfully there was a guy kind enough that offered his huge umbrella to help us cross the street~ Sometimes I don't really like rainy days because of how humid it gets and how you get wet when walking outside, but I think I've been liking it nowadays. The sound of the rain is just so comforting. And the drowsiness it induces... except it can be a pain when I have to stay awake to do some school work lol. But the rush of rain is so relaxing to hear. And the smell after the rain goes away.... soooo good.
It's going to be autumn in Korea soon, right? Or is it, already? Anyhow, I'm often envious of countries that have four seasons. Because in here, you just get either the really dry and hot days that you feel like you're being toasted and steamed under the sun, or you get the very sleepy and cozy days from the storms and the rain. There's no in-between. 😭 But yeah, I've always considered autumn as my favorite season. First, we have the weather. Although I've never directly experienced it myself (😂), I think it has my ideal type of weather. Then there's also all the things that happen in autumn! I love how nature looks like in autumn, too. And even the name autumn itself is so pretty, haha. I'm not sure, but I think you mentioned before that your favorite season was summer? cmiiw on that, but for me, my least favorite has ALWAYS been summer, hahahahaha. Maybe because of the tropical country I live in that I'm so sick of the heat 😂 Like I get it, there's always the fun activities and all in summer but I just really dislike the heat 😭 Actually, before autumn, my favorite season was winter. But somehow autumn captivated me later on despite never experiencing it. 😂 Oh yeah, you're also the beach type of person, right? I'm... actually not really into the beach, hahaha. Aaaaactually maybe I'm just traumatized by the heat here. 😭 Like you know those 바다 vs 산 questions? I always choose the mountain, LOL. And although I barely do it, I like hiking and trekking~ 😆
Anyway I feel like I've been talking about the most random things. 😭 It's funny because despite being an introvert, I love talking a lot that sometimes I'd disturb someone I'm comfy with and talk with them for hours. 😂 Once I talked with my sister for around 4 hours straight, hahahaha. I just really like talking especially when it's about my interests. 😆 Except it tires me sometimes lol. But really, talking to people and getting to know others is such a fun thing for me. I just don't like the "socializing" part. Do you know that difference? Haha. I can't explain it myself either actually. 😭 But I'm just really always fascinated by people and the things around me that I always get delighted in getting to know them. Maybe that's what I mean! The part in "sharing" or "knowing" but not actually "communicating". 😆
Okayyyyy. Anywaaay. I'll stop here, haha. Thankfully, we don't have a quiz or homework due tomorrow so today's a day I can sleep peacefully. 🥲 Because we've been having a crazy number of tasks to do each day recently and it was so draining, but today I can finally rest a bit. 🫶
And wow I can't believe I'm already in my second year of college... 🥲 Things have been going too fast that sometimes you get this sensation or feeling of fear or worry that you might just get caught up in all of it. 😓 I feel like that hasn't happened to me yet exactly but I can sense that I'm on the verge, hahahaha.
But yeah. Now I'll be doing a few of my hobbies since I have some free time, haha. Though I'll probably do some tasks in advance to free myself off some load for the next days. Gonna go read manga and all 🥳
I hope today was a good one as well! I hope you're constantly being surrounded of the love and admiration people have for you. Sometimes I guess it's difficult to fathom, because we can't see ourselves personally. And we know ourselves the best, too. So we can't exactly gauge how people see us, and you know, what they like in us and all. Like sometimes it doesn't feel real because people aren't seeing 100% of who we are? Like we can't exactly swallow all the expressions and emotions thrown at us. But at the same time, I think that people are like mirrors. There's a reason why people love others. There's a reason why many people like you. They see the good in you, they see the cool traits that you have, things that make them smile, laugh, make them happy. And I think it's nice to see, realize and accept that part of ourselves, too. It can take time to understand why people feel things, and even us ourselves, we don't always know why we feel a certain way. But because there are reasons, there are things that cause something, things that make up something, we get to find appreciation one way or another.
Okay I forgot what I was going to say after 😭 I always lose my train of thought /cries/ I'm sorry if it didn't make any sense because my mind is literally empty right now from post-school, lol.
Aaaaand yeah. I hope you have a great September ahead! Please enjoy this year's autumn for me 🥹 One day I shall go there or somewhere with four seasons just for autumn!!! Haha. No because I literally have been to countries during spring, summer and winter but never autumn!!! 😭
Anyway! 😭 This end has long been overdue by now lol but yes. Bye and good night!!!
Also I thought I'd list down my personal 소확행s each time I come over here. I wanna be able to share the little things in my life that made me smile at some point, or gave me some kind of break from an exhausting day, just as you guys have also been one of those! hehe. And also just to share the good vibes, you know? Haha.
오늘의 소확행 (230906)
- 퀴즈에서 (하나 밖에) 좋은 점수 받아쓰!!! 예이!!!! ㅎㅎㅎ
- 오늘은 자유 시간 많다!!!! 아주좋아ㅏㅏ
- 아침부터 맛있는 거 많이 먹었어~~
- 우리 동물 애기들이랑 놀아쓰
- 아까 좋아하는 버블티 마셨어 ㅎㅎ
- 가족분들끼리 싸움이 없었어
- 수업에 제시간으로 다녀갔어 (늦지 않았어 잠은 다행히 계속하지 않았어ㅎㅎㅎ)
- 비가 오는 날이라 좋다~~~
-끝-
love u eric! take care always. 🤍
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