Hi bub! I hope you’ve been having a good week. Did you finished S4 of S.x Education? i need to watch it!
I wasn’t going to write you a letter until the end of this week but I’m just feeling so defeated from some news today. So I’m writing you to tell you the things I want to hear and I hope they are things that can lift you up, motivate you, comfort you and/or make you feel like you always have someone supporting you.
Just to note: I’m using the word “you” as a general statement here so don’t be alarmed or worried that I’m directly talking about/to you, Kevin LOL I mean yes, I hope my brain rambles can be of help to you of course but I’m really using the word you, to talk to myself and whoever else needs to hear it right now or in the future.
Things might not always go the way you want. In fact, things will not go the way you want majority of the time but that doesn’t mean you’ve failed. It’s more about what you do next that can turn the situation around and make that unexpected outcome an advantage for you. If you’ve put all your cards on the table, you’ve exhausted all the avenues of options and did your best, please know that you did everything you could with all your resources. You worked hard. This might not have been what you’ve expected to happen but what’s more important now is how you move forward. What’s your next move? How will you fight for what you want and deserve? That’s what’s the most important.
There is no one else in the world that will look out for you more than yourself. You are your most reliable friend, support system and motivator. If you’re not getting what you think you deserve, look elsewhere. If you’re unhappy with your professional life, personal life, etc, try to assess what’s making you feel a certain way and take baby steps to try to work towards a goal. Seek out what you want, what you deserve and make things happen. No one else is going to do that for you, except you.
You’re worthy of love, you are loved, you are important and you are seen. You’re working hard, you’re doing well and I’m proud of you for completing every day. Don’t let anyone else tell you otherwise. Don’t let anyone value your worth based on anything trivial. You are resilient. You’re a problem solver. You can do anything you set your mind to. I believe in you.
Most of all, I’m just so proud of you. Life isn’t easy. There are so many bumps and curveballs along the way but even when obstacles appear, you work through them at your own pace. Not everything will always be sunshine and rainbows and that is okay! Life is “Sugar Honey Ice Tea” sometimes and that is okay!! You just gotta wade through the “Sugar Honey Ice Tea” and find a different path to take. Things might not always work out but you’ll make it on the other side eventually with support from your family, friends and people who hold you so dear. Every day is just a new chapter of a book. If today wasn’t the best, let’s try again tomorrow.
/End brain ramble.
The news I got today was that HR denied approving my merit increase/raise because of the return to office mandate that I have been fighting them about. I have been going into the office for over a month but they did not care. They did not care that I have been working my butt off for the year I’ve been working on this account and purely based my raise eligibility on what I’m calling classroom attendance. So essentially being a body in an office is more important that a person’s work ethic and quality of work. I’m honestly so bummed and disappointed but what can I do. The decision was made, my bosses could not or did not fight for me and now I have to decide what I’m going to do next.
Annnyway I do have a bake! I made pumpkin crumb cake this weekend! It came out so good. Perfectly soft crumb on the inside. Spiced really well. Totally felt like the perfect autumn treat!
Thank you for always being such a source of relief and comfort. Your existence makes me so happy. I’m so thankful for you Kevin Moon 💗 As always be safe, stay healthy and rest well. You worked hard today and I’m proud of you always.
Love ya like XO,
Justine