Hi Eric👋👋 Oh writing to you like this remind me in those days. I used to write all day letters for you when you were on hiatus. I dont know how I can write it so consistently each day lol. How diligent am I lol even though I was working at that time. I bet I still have a lot of free time back then and are stress-free lol.
Anyway I am sorry for writing this to you at a very late late time. Actually this letter is supposed to be a new year vitamin lol. This is already November. Wow. I cant believe it. I was so so busy in those days so I had to stop writing it in the middle. Even my sleep and eating routine goes crazy lol.
How have you been doing these days? It must have been so hard and tiring right? I know. Preparing for the comeback that is coming in 4 days,follow-up by encore concerts in early December for three days continuously,year-end performance and awards,even fancon.? next year.
Despite that,there must be a lot of variety shows in between you have to attend to. It must have been very very extremely packed and insane. Thank you for always doing your best,putting in a lot of effort until it is perfectly made. Despite the pain muscles..? I heard you are getting a lot of pain lately.
I hope you do not push yourself too much. I know you want to give your all. I see your efforts,all of your endless hardworking everyday. Not to mention the lyrics and music produced by your own. I see it clearly. So dont worry okay? We all saw how much you hardworking on all of it.
We recognize all of it. Dont worry. We will never take it for granted and I am always hoping that you will get the rewards from it in terms of success and becoming more famous. When the day come,I hope you know that this is all the effort you have made and that is the outcome of them.
Dont downgrade your skills that you have. It might have been you are the only one who had those skills. So dont waste it and polish it more. as the day goes by it will become more shine than ever. Trust me.
Thank you for always doing the best for us. Remember this. Your time spent restless sleepless eatless,will never betray you. It will eventually come to you one day. Right in front of your eyes. Till you cant differentiate either this is a dream or real. The outcome of it soon you will see it with your own eyes.
So dont ever lose hope like you always are. You are always an uplifting mood person,passionate person,hardworking person,full of energy and always bring a bright mood to any person that is beside you.
Oh you seem to be getting matured these days aren't you?? lol. Seems so shy and awkward every time doing aegyo lol. You used to not shy at all in the past lol. These days it seems you feel regret after doing those lol. Ofcourse I know. I have been watching you guys since the beginning lol.
Anyway it's okay. Just be the person who you are. Just do what you think is comfortable with you the most. Nothing goes wrong when you are being yourself. Trust in yourself. I hope you are becoming more confident in yourself.
You have a lot of skills you know. Know how to write lyrics,composing musics,dance,rap,cleaning and organize things oh and even solve rubics arent you lol. Ofcourse I remember it. That alone is a lot. Okay?? So dont underestimate yourself. Dont compare it to others.
Just win against your past self. That is actually how we could really get proud of ourselves. By improving ourselves better than our past self. That way you could feel more confident. I think. Isnt it?? Soon while you are improving yourself better each day,you might didnt know that you have surpassed a lot of people on top of you already.
Soon you see you are at the top of the hill already. They are all below you without you knowing. You got what I want to say right? Yeah. That point. the main point.
When I have a deep thought in these matters,I feel like I couldnt believe it because I myself have a lot of them already fulfilled. My goals. It seems in the past year too I am already achieving a lot of my goals. Every time I set my own goals either small or big,it seems I can get through it easily.
Actually I doesnt remember how many goals I had achieved but everytime I write it for you guys,I realize it. Me myself. Have I reached it? Yes I reach it. It has been a lot I have been achieving. I think I couldnt write it all out because there is too much. But I am so grateful and thankful I got to fulfill a lot of my goals.
It used to be so hard and difficult. Even to see the slightest of the improvement. But now it kind of changes. Maybe in the past I used to be so scared and afraid it would not have been changing even if I make one slight small step.
Since then I changed my way of thinking,why shouldnt I just give it a try first?? Why don't you just do it first? Think about it later. Just give it a try. No one will booing you for those tries. This is the power of positive thought actually. These changes a lot since I consistently want to be a positive thinking person.
So I changed my way of thinking to everyone a lot. I become more open minded person. This person might have been doing this because of a reason isnt it? I am trying to understand it on the side of that person. On their view. They may have their own experiences that made them do those actions.
So I dont want to think negatively on other people. Can I give some examples..? when I was in University,there was one person that seemed to dislike me actually. I dont know why too but she always seems to hate me.
Its not my assumption. I had heard it clearly and she was telling something bad about me. behind my back to other people. Sometimes it isnt true and its not my fault at all..? but you know it kind of hurts you when there is someone who speaks behind your back like wanting to persuade others to hate me as well.
Actually if you want to know. I am a kind of person who didnt trust easily until I see it front of my eyes directly. The proof of it. If I heard someone telling me something bad about other people,I just listen to it and didnt agree with them totally. Because I never see the person itself did it like they said.
It can be accused of someone right? And it's a bad thing to spread the false rumours. And I totally hate it. Spreading something false about someone doesn't even know if its true or not. For me I would check it first whether it's true or not. I will not easily trust anything someone would say.
It might even take a few days for me to find the truth about it but its okay as long as I didnt blame the innocent people. Even though I just saw the proof of it,I still couldnt believe it so I looked for it more than one so it will eventually connect.
But ofcourse everyone has their own opinions about why they do that and I dont really like to judge people. Just let them be their ownself isnt it? Why can't they be their ownself. It isnt even a mistake so I couldnt relate why others hate the person so much. It just their ownself and not a mistake though.
Anyway the main point is me and that person who seems to hate me but always borrows my homework or anything lol. Theres time while I was going to the dorm with my friend and I saw her walking alone. Usually she would always walk together with her two other friends. I dont know they fought and seems to didnt get along well.
She seems in a bad mood and unfortunately its rain. But she doesnt have an umbrella. I saw her from behind. You know usually people would avoid people who hate her right. Because yeah why should I help the person who hates me right?
But nope. for me it isnt. I used to think like that when I was in school but not anymore. I feel like why should I hate her right. And I doesnt like seeing someone sad and feeling down. So I want to cheer her up.
That time I was sharing the umbrella with my friend while excitedly talking after a class. She was holding the umbrella since she is taller lol. So I told her lets go to her. You can hold an umbrella for her. As she doesn't have one. So my friend was like what? To her? Really? Sure you want?
She might know that person seems a bit different with me. So I said yes lets just go. So we went and put the umbrella under her head from behind and she was really shocked lol. She looked at me and I talked with her. We uplifting the mood so much lol. Thankfully she seems so touched by me and laughing altogether.
We were so happy while using only one umbrella for three of us lol. We keep teasing each other and told to be careful,the rain drops at your side lol. Couldnt centre it well since it three of us. So I just told them its okay. Put it more for both of you. I am okay since I love rain lol.
They asked me to hold it. What in this world why should I hold it. lol. I am the shortest here lol. Its hard for me. So I asked my friend to hold it. But I got wet a lot lol. Can you imagine that situation. It is a really funny situation lol.
I still could remember the joy of it lol. I really loved the atmosphere at that time. Having fun together under the rain laughing while running lol. Everyone running avoiding the rain at the sides. For others it must be the worst memories since we got wet but for me not.
I am a little bit weird right lol. I loved it eventhough it seemed like a hard time but I looked in a positive way. I got to enjoy the time with my friend laughing together. Avoiding the puddle of the rain too on the streets and I separate from them because it is on my way lol. They scold me lol. Dont get rain on.
Stand under the umbrella please. They keep scolding me lol while laughing. Since its okay for me as long as they don't get wet. And can you understand when the taller hold the umbrella for you as they are tall but me still got wet a lot from the sides.
As the wind seems a bit strong that time so I feel like I am tired lol. Whats worth standing under the umbrella,I still got wet anyway. So I just let them take the umbrella lol. Anyway its getting longer now lol. After that she seems getting nice with me and doesnt hate me anymore.
I dont care if she hates me or not actually because it is their own problems. I don't hate her. Ofcourse I talked about it with my roommate that I trust the most and asked her if it is really my fault because of that she hates me..? But she totally said nope it is never your fault. You did nothing wrong. She just thinks bad about you,just ignore her. You are a kind person.
Because if there are my faults,I want to change it and improve it. I dont want to fight with anyone. But my friend told me nope. Its totally nope. So dont ever think that. She is really a kindest person everrr my friend. She really comforts me a lot,listening to all my worries and always being there for me hard times and happy times during University student.
I heard if we hate someone,our heart would be uneasy everytime and always feeling burdensome. So I doesnt want for it to be a problem to me. I doesnt want to ruin my day just because of her. It doesnt worth it at all.
I just want to enjoy this life. Enjoy every little things that happen right now in the mean time. I dont want to regret any of it or missed any of the moments. I want to create a lot of happy memories till I would never remember the bad things that ever happened in my life.
Because at some time I realized those words are true. If they hate us,no matter what we do,even the kind action too can make them feel nauseous. So what. I don't care if they want to hate me or not as long as I dont hurt them. I dont hurt other people. We will never can satisfy people so dont wait for them. Just go on with your life. Do anything you like and have fun.
What I want to tell you is when we think positive in any way,it would always bring the positive outcome. So it is important to set a positive thinking. Even if it seems impossible,it isnt actually. You could never believe what the outcome would be. The miracle of it will make you shook totally. The beauty of it✨
Why suddenly today it keep coming these motivating words lol. I just wrote it based on my head lol. It keeps pouring right now. I hope if you ever had a hard time,feeling losing out of nowhere,you look up to this letter. Since this letter I think it is the best comforting words and filled by lots of uplifting words.
You did great right now. Even at this time. I am thankful for that. Thank you so much ✨ So Eric,dont ever lose hope okay? Dont give up. Even it seems hard or impossible,you still can do it!✊ At some day you might couldnt see what is front of you while living a hectic busy life.
But its okay Eric. Its fine. You are doing well. You will pass through it somehow. You will! So believe in yourself. You could do much more better than you could ever imagine of. There is no limit of it. Dont give up you are in the middle of it already. Dont turn back.
Just keep going straight until you achieve what you totally want. Your dreams. They keep waiting for you at the front. Some might left you in the middle but dreams will never leave you. They keep consistently waiting for you until you greet them. They see all the hardships you have been through and even the happy times.
They know you are putting a lot of efforts in them. So they are cheering you a lot at the front. The dreams know you are doing all of these in order to arrive here to meet them. So they would always standing there. They will welcoming you warmly when you arrives there and celebrate excitedly with you.
It seems a bit nonsense isnt it lol. Its just a metaphore. I hope you understand the main point from it. So I believe you will do well in anything Eric. But dont forget to rest too okay? Make sure to sleep in the middle. Eat well.
Just because you are chasing your dreams,dont fade the love for yourself okay? You yourself need a great care too. Eat meals so your body could function well and have a peace of mind. Sleep well so you will feel fresh and have a lot of ideas.
And take care of yourself well. Dont fall too much while performing. It might bring bad condition to your body. So take care okay? I know you might told me its nothing. But it actually hurts you right? You are a human too. Beware of your every steps lol. Try to stabilize your body well so you dont get hurt.
You should find a way to avoid any fall okay. You want to keep performing infront of us right? So take a really good care of it. I believe there are a few ways to avoid it. I know its hard but I believe you can Eric.
So I think just that. Oh the mv trailer for Watch it is out right a few minutes ago lol. I still dont watch it. Oh now while I writing these I feel guilty right now lol. I feel like I am doing a mistake right now lol. I should WATCH IT as soon it is out isnt it? lol. Oh so I understand the title well now lol.
Bye Eric~~ do well on your practices,fighting for this comeback,encore concert and final year award!☺️✊✨ Nite~~🌃 Oh and stay healthy okay?? I wonder if Haknyeon doing well 🥺 Is it worse? I hope he get recover quickly and its okay take time slowly to properly get well. Dont rush things out. Bye I am gonna watch trailer.
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