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Hi Heaven's Kevin 💙
I did as I promised, and finished my reaction video for "Watch It" 💙 It turned out really well, and I am so happy to see people have enjoyed it so far. I hope you will enjoy it too, if you ever get the chance to watch it!
Since I last wrote to you, quite a lot has happened in my life. At first I thought it would be nice to write about it right away, but I also really do enjoy compiling everything into one longer letter, cause it feels more special? Like when you are meeting up with a friend again after a really long time, and you sit in a coffee shop for nearly 5 hours because there is so much to catch up on. I really enjoy that. It feels a lot warmer and sweeter, and I think deep down, long conversations like those are what a lot of people wish for.
So what is new?
Well, I got my drivers license 2 weeks ago!! I was so nervous for my driving test, but it went so well! I know the real test comes when driving alone, but still I am so proud of myself for completing everything this year. I started in late June, and finished in late November. I thought I would need years, but I managed to do it in 5 months, and I think that is so cool!
I also got a call a couple of days ago to help out on a tv show! It was only for a day, but still it was such a life changing experience. I got to be on a big set with some of the most professional filmmakers in my district. I got to run around and make coffee, and help people and AHHH it was so nice! Every filmmaker dreams of getting a job on set, and I finally got to do it! 💙 And yesterday I also helped on a music video!! I did costumes for that one, and the artist really loved all of my ideas, and it suited his identity as a musician so much as well. It has been such an eventful week. But you thought I was done with mentioning cool film stuff?? Oh no, I have just begun haha. I worked on a 1-2 minute film with someone in the filmworkshop here where I live, and they are going to show it on a festival!! So I am going there this week, and I am really excited! 💙 I don't think we will win anything, but still, just the experience of going to a festival and seeing something you've worked on is so inspiring! I already feel so much more motivated in my work, and it is truly a blessing to be able to experience something like this! And I can't wait to tell you more about it!! 💙
I have also been meeting up with the local student drama club again, and my friends told me I should join them next year! I think I might. What I love about their events is that, people are being themselves fully. They don't mind singing slow karaoke songs at 10PM, or running aroudn in costumes. They play around and do really good improv. They just have a good time, and create things together and I think it is really beautiful. So I might try some acting myself next year. Who knows, maybe I am good at it? I feel like throughout all of 2023 my motto has been to follow my heart and do what feels right for me. And for 2024 I want to focus on why being me is the greatest gift I can give to the world. So I want to try a lot of things, and do things my own way and see where life takes me.
And before I get into another life update I just want to write a bit about a converstion I had with a friend the other day. She told me how she hates summers, and how it is the worst season. That day it was snowing, and the sun was so bright and beautiful. So I told her that I don't really know which season is my favourite anymore. There is something beautiful about every single one of them. Spring reminds me of new beginnings, summers are so healing and fun, fall is cozy with beautiful colors, and winter is so calm and fragile. It kind of reminds me of life, how every aspect of life is like the 4 seasons of the year and how beautiful it all is. Now as adults we are kind of like between spring and summer, figuring ourselves out and falling in love with the parts of life we want to spend more time focusing on. I really love thinking that way. And the beauty of seasons is that you get to experience it over and over again, falling even deeper in love with the beauty of every aspect of it. every seasons holds an emotion, a memory, a mood. When I look at the snowy mountains these days, all I can think of is how peaceful it sounds, and how gentle it feels. And going into 2024, I am ready to experience the beauty of every months and season once more.
There is one other life update I want to talk about today. And I feel like I never mention this topic, so it would be nice to get into this one. A couple of weeks ago my coworkers and I had a christmas table. It was really nice, and at the end of the evening we went to this local student pub. They have a café there during the day, and a lot of students volunteer there as well, it is really nice. I have often gone there to study, but also hang out with friends. However, there is a really cute guy working there. So I told one of my coworkers, and he went all "OH I KNOW HIM, I'LL LET HIM KNOW". Me being all panicky didn't know what to do, but I kind of wish it would end there. But my coworker came over to me the other day and said "Oh I let him know, but I didn't give him your name, I just said 'I have a friend that find you cute'. He seemed a bit annoyed that I didn't give him your name, he really wanted to know". And turns out he sounded very positive as well. And like I find this cute and all, but now I am this anonymous woman and I have no idea what to do from here on. So I asked a fellow coworker about it and she said "I think a lot of guys do find it sweet when a girl comes up to him and tells him he is cute, and asks him out, so you should go for it". So here, supershy me knows what I should be doing, but I am too afraid to do it haha. But I also know nothing can happen if I avoid trying. And like I have been on dates before, so I am not afraid of things like that, but I think I tend to avoid asking out the people I find cute cause I know I get shy and I am like the most extroverted person who is never shy. So I know I should get out of my comfortzone, because most likely that's what my heart needs too. So we will see what happens 😆
And I am so happy to see you guys had a good anniversary weekend! 💙 I really hope you will come back to Europe next year to perform, cause I would love to see all of these performances in person too!! Talking about Europe, today: 11th of December, it is actually 4 years since your first ever concert in Europe, aka the Berlin show of dreamlike tour! And it was my first The Boyz concert as well! I remember how nervous and excited I was, and how much I cried when the concert was over. It is still such a precious memory, and my favourite one as a The B! 💙 So thank you for the best concert of my life, 4 years ago! 💙 And It was also the first time I met you! I sat up every day for a week preparing things for the concert and the special event, and I really wanted every moment of it to be perfect. I still remember my question from that day "Can you use 1 word to describe The Boyz's 2020?", and Younghoon saying "Lets Get It". And now I wonder, how your 2024 will be. And I hope it will be a good one! 💙 I remember 2020 being difficult, but the fandom also grew so much that year, so I think 2020 did bring you guys so many good memories as well! And looking back, I am really proud of you all for how far you have come. You have really achieved a lot since you debuted 6 years ago 💙
That was all of my life updates for this letter! And I can't wait to share with you my next life updates as well! 💙 I wish you a happy christmas! 💙
- Helle
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