as i am writing this i am in a plane. TO THE PHILIPPINES. WHILST YOU ARE WALKING THE RED CARPET. IN THE PHILIPPINES 😭
funny how the world works huh. i was texting my BESTFRENDD who was live updating me about the red carpet . whilst i myself am on another runway… you handsome ass man. looking that fine in my motherland whilst i’m not there i declare this an agenda against me.
you’re so handsome yknow kevin. i feel like there’s a sparse difference between recognizing someone to be attractive in comparison to being called handsome
there’s this depth to it that’s egar to know how this ‘handsome’ person might look, don’t you think. my thoughts have always been enamored with how handsome you are but everytime i see you
like genuinely you’re the type of guy that if i ever crossed paths with id do a double take
spacer theme !!!! dude this letters about to go through some crazy bananas turbulence just like this plane i’m on. get ready for a goshdarn ride of a letter by yours truly
as i am writing this in the middle of turbulence rn, am i having hopes of seeing you in the philippines? maybe who knows, maybe i’ll run into you in a tim hortons (if you mysteriously get a free drink it wasn’t me !) (it was me) waa maybe i’m silly for hoping to see you physically in the philippines ..
actually it just occurred to me how this is the first time i’m in the same country as you? crazy bananas how many close calls i’ve had;
- in 2019 when you guys were doing the castle, i flew in the philippines by the time you guys flew out — 3 years later i go to the same venue you performed in
- earlier last year you went to saudi for kcon whilst i was in the neighboring country, qatar. sigh
- and now by the time i land in the philippines, aaa will be over 😭 but at least i’ll be in the same country as you?
- a few months back you performed in sm araneta — a day ago i go to the same venue !!!!
seems every chance i have seeing you the gap becomes closer and closer. who knows maybe i’ll get to see you in qatar before the philippines. did you know i almost met jungkook once ? that’s a whole different story but — anyhow !
having thoughts like this makes me feel crazy. im ngl to you kevin i’ve never met an idol in my life, i’m not sure if dpr counts but holy hell he’s really handsome 😭 (pardon me this once) most of my videos of him are angled down because i was too infatuated with just. CHRISTIAN YU
hmm.. let’s think about it this way kevin moon, the amount of close calls you had to see beyoncé to eventually finally attending her concert is me wanting to see you — you are my beyoncé fr 🤞
wa. but the thought of seeing you irl makes me nervous in a way, genuinely speaking i don’t think i’d be able to even look at you 😭 not in a bad way but in a, wow-he’s-handsome-i-gotta-act-cool-and-mysterious or wow-he’s-handsome-i-need-to-get-out-of-here
do you understand how ridiculous it’s been going to timmies here in the ph and being frozen in fear thinking about potentially seeing you — YOURE NOT EVEN HERE ANYMORE 😭
anyhow i know you make me nervous (without even physically seeing you) because my bestfrend attended the seoul encore and I COULD NOT BELIEVE YOU WERE REAL….. we watched their concert clips together on facetime like some reaction channel and it was bananas. realizing you are in fact real — so real that you interacted with my bestfriend
they put up a sign and you SHRUGGED NOT KNOWING WHO I WAS SNDHSJDKDJDK
PHOTO PROOF OF THEIR SIGN, MY BESTFRENDS REENACTMENT OF THE MOMENT — yea yea yea kevin moon save your excuses you’re FAKEEE FOR NOT KNOWING ME ! ok i’m joking but internet safety 101 i don’t go by the same nickname on every social media ……… and now you know i go by tomo….. somewhere …….
i don’t wonder too much if you know deobis from fancafe .. although are you that good mister moon 🥸 who knows .. am i the only (filipino) deobi from qatar ?
i’m not sure if i should be glad or sad but hey ! if ever someone ever runs the opposite direction of wherever you’re going, or you get a free random coffee — it’s probably me ! i’m so serious kevin moon you make me too nervous i’d avoid you it’s like when you see your crush it’s ridiculous
maybe if i write about it enough times to you on fancafe it’ll happen LOL
neaw (now). kevin moon i need you cozy and drinking sumn nice because i’m about to air out some dirty laundry
dude i’ve been having a bananas ass emotional turmoil. imagine going through a bad breakup, having to deal with the processing alone and then months later — your ex’s roommate dms you to APOLOGIZE .. ironically. i’ve learned a lot about myself and the people i’m friends with.. +1 new friend (ex’s roommate) because i would never imagine someone i’ve never met or talked to would become a relatively close friend
yeaa yea YEA you read that right kevin moon
IVE NEVER MET OR TALKED TO MY EX’S ROOMMATE BUT NOW WE TALK ON THE DAILY bananas experience i tell you — also don’t get it wrong they have a partner but we trauma bond you could say 😭 we’ve just been talking about the principle of the problems we’ve had with my ex as a partner to me and as a roommate to them
this is so silly to be gossiping with my kpop man. anyhow, man my chest is feeling heavy as i write this. i guess i still haven’t gotten over the fact that people who i literally went to school with — never reached out to me yet a complete stranger felt like they owed me an apology for the thoughts and opinions they had of me when they realized my ex wasn’t portraying the breakup truthfully from how my ex was treating them
i can’t explain how unfair it all feels yknow. unfair? unjust? uneasy? i’m not sure but it all doesn’t feel good
i’ve been having a hard time, feeling naive in the fact i never knew people could be so capable of being so horrible. or the fact that i felt so naive to still see the good in people because despite the bad breakup, i genuinely thought my ex would be respectful and tell the truth but they ended up doing the complete opposite and now i’ve never felt so ostracized. made me question myself and my ‘friends’
plus it was my first bad breakup. what was i supposed to do? i remember thinking of things i should work on myself because i don’t think it’s right of me to write to you as if i was a complete saint in all this, granted i wasn’t exactly kind myself. i’m working on being better, i don’t wanna carry on the problems i had in my last relationship onto my next.
yknow. making an effort to move on.
i wondered what it took to be a good person. does it mean you’re a good person if you have to wonder if you’re good ? when the roommate apologized to me, it was one of those ‘i should’ve heard both sides of the story’ how it wasn’t right of them to hear one side of things and immediately jump in defense of them — but to be fair to them, we didn’t even talk to each other 😭
but i didn’t want to dismiss their apology, i appreciated it for how admirable they were and because i was in that position a few months back with my close friends. it was a full circle moment.
to be a good person… i remember desperately needing to apologize to my friend for not hearing her side of things since the guilt was eating at me horribly. i can only imagine what the roommate was going through. except this time they don’t even know me. can you even imagine yourself in this situation mooney ??
they even admitted that their partner was the one who told them (the roommate) to reach out to me to which.. again complete strangers to me man, i really appreciated the both of them ☹️
i’m sure there’s a phenomenon. some sort of life experience, life lesson i can learn from all this because i won’t even lie to you kevin, hearing all the horrible things my ex made up about me, physically made nauseous — i really hated it. but i have a lot to be grateful for when it came to my friends, they made me realize i was being too harsh on myself for actions that were out of my control.
adopting the whole ‘let them be’ mentality. because honestly it says a lot more about them than it does me yknow. goodness. i’m so glad i’ve been feeling more clear minded about everything, the last couple weeks had me thinking i was crazy.
i dunno. i think that’s the best i’ve managed to articulate myself without excessively explaining this or that. i’ve continuously zoomed out to see different perspectives atp i’ve felt like sourdough starter in a glass jar that’s been cultivating for ALMOST THREE MONTHS !
what does that even mean ! I DONT KNOW !!!!!
i thought my lesson of learning how to move on wasn’t over when in reality — i’m accepting for once things aren’t my fault and that the actions of someone after an event speaks more about them than their intentions. i think. wish i could reach through this phone and hand you a microphone for your thoughts
fact this all started because my ex’s roommate dmed me. reddit AITA ass title
speaking of dms.. i’m unapologetic to you on insta can you blame me you are thee kevin moon but also begs the question if you’ve figured me out on instagram or not. doubt you have because you’ll never find me kevin moon !!!!!!!! can’t guess my name on there !!!!!
LMFAO here i am wondering if you’d remember me and then doing everything in me to not be recognizable across social media (is it working) never thought the world would be spinning around someone other than me baby i like that
was that a smooth transition into talking about the album because you bet your ass it’s been on repeat in fhe car !!!!!! personally . i am a badluclk and crying&laughger luvr 🥸👍
anyhow. i thought this letter would be longer but i think my emotions were like spaghetti pasta in boiling water and you aren’t sure if they’re completely cooked yet or you accidentally overcooked them. and what happens when you overcook spaghetti ? they become mushy. stick to the bottom of the pot.
what does this even mean? dude i’m not even sure myself anymore all that i’ve got going for me right now is that the roommate and i are actually pretty similar
they’re super sweet :) and glad to have gained a new friend. unconventionally 😭
anyhow !!!! sorry kebbers if this letters a little bit all over the place my brains like a baby’s rattle, hope the jump from topic to topic wasn’t too odd lol
given it’s almost the end of the year, that only means one hell of a packed schedule so i hope things are okay behind the scenes ! remember to always prioritize yourself physically and mentally
also. it’s been on my mind a little but we haven’t been hearing about morty for a bit D: after all you have been busy travelling — tell morty i say haaaiii
sending lots and lots of virtual hugs (and hisses for morty!), from the philippines ! to korea ^_____^
hope you’re taking care always my kebbers
— eri ʕ•ᴥ•ʔ♡
ps. i was meant to swnd this letter last night but ive been goinf out everyday ever since i landed 😭 wtach out my next letter might be coming a lot sooner rhan you’d think ! and sorry again because i did not proof check this letyer !!!!!!!
wanted to share some pics of my solo journey to the philippines :)
KEVIN MOON YOU GOTTA EXPERIENCE QATAR AIRPORT ONE DAY 🙏🙏 pobin is here on ur behalf
also literally me sendinf this to you on the highway 😭
seeya next letter kebbers ^___^!
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