hiiiii kevvvv
it feels like ages since i last wrote u a letter ive been busy with exams and life problems but well…. did u miss meeeee 🤭….. *insert crickets sound*…. LMFAO sorry 🫡
ive been so busy with stuff that i just realized i havent even commented rat in the trap mv ㅠㅠ its literally soooooo good loved the vibes and coolness and the colors everything was on point 🤌🤌 the jump scene was so cooool and the bars close up shot at the end ???? i lost it u had no business being that coooool and attractive sir what abt my mental health 😮💨 (im using so many emojis today sorry) no buuuuuuut u are the coolest u never disappoint when it comes acting skills!!!! alsooo were the italian flag colors a hint for tbz in italy concert soon 👀?? (okay sorry i need to go to bed fr)
brooooo that part in the mv behind the scenes where sangyeon was whispering to your ear and u started giggling was the MOST ADORABLE CUTEST THING IN THE FREAKING WORLD 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭
kevvv i started boy swallows universe after u recommended it and ive been liking it so farrrr!!! i love crime/adventure series that have lil kids as main characters i find them way more entertaining. its been so long since i last watched content in australian and now the australian accent mania has came back to me i cant stop saying mate in aussie accent at the end of every sentence im addicted helppplpp💀
these past days ive been thinking abt many things abt myself that i wish to be ablt to work on and improve… one i mentioned in the past is getting more social and stepping out of my comfort zone. another thing thats been bothering me for quite a while is how i always escape from my vulnerable moments. i have a phobia of showing my weakness to the ppl around me, even my family. not bc i feel ashamed not at all, i just dont like the attention i receive when someone sees me crying or feeling down if u know what i mean… im just the type to cry a lot in her room alone when everyone else is sleeping thats how i feel safe. and i know its wrong!!!! like the other day i was watching the sunwoo & eric trivia interview and i got so emotional and i really like to get in my feels esp when it comes to tbz and how much i love and feel attached to u guys so for me its very normal to feel that way but i realized how hard i was fighting my soul not to start bursting into tears (spoiler i failed 🤡) just bc i didnt want my mom to enter my room and ask me why i was crying 💀 and i find it suffocating bc sometimes i just want to feel free to cry without being scared of being perceived. theres literally nothing wrong with crying??? especially if its an emotional/good type of crying like the episode i told u before !! the thing is i know that!! its just that i realize that ive been so used to control my emotions ever since i was young because of personal experiences that now it just became a bit stressful.. i dont mean to rant abt my problems, i just felt the need to share it with u bc i dont have ppl to talk abt these stuff.. or maybe im not brave enough to do it and telling these things to u in a letter makes me feel a bit safer and lighter and understood :’)
anyways! kev i know u and the guys have some performances planned so good luck with your next schedules 🫶🫶 dont forget to take rests and get plenty of sleep (or at least try) hope u are taking care of your health!!
i forgot to tell uuuu on this day last year i got my first weverse reply from u 🥹 (i always complain abt my typos but that time i was thankful despite it being embarassing lol 💀) it was a nice and funny memory i miss the old wv days my friends and i used to be more active :’)
mini photo dump for u (mostly the sky) ^^
bye bye kev, ti amo~~~
-mil^^