Hii kev ♡
How’s our moonlight boy doinng ? I sent you the last letter hours ago but here I am again, you’re so full of love I can’t help but always make my way back to you, I guess we’re inspired lately ? I appreciate you so much, I need to write it down so let’s make it a one big appreciation letter ♡
I was lying on my bed last night just going through our fancalls, older letters I’ve written you, listening to your songs, basically looking back at my days as a theb and this thought hit me; after all these years of working on myself, going back and forth between diving in not so fun times and leaving myself to the happy ones, I do believe I’ve never been as purely happy as I am now
I used to never feel happiness without guilt, as feeling that way wasn’t as natural for me back then, it was therefore hard to appreciate those moments without double thinking everything, linking my current state of joy to downs every single time
But reading through my letters I don’t think I’ve shown you this side of me once ? I always managed to end my letters being optimistic, hopeful and positive about every little bits of emotions I’ve shared with you, 1st because I want you to read nothing but good things, 2nd because this was my new way to cope with things which I learned and adopted thanks to you, from the very moment I became your fan onwards
I think I got that from witnessing how eager you were to find your way through all your hardships despite how much of a work it was for you to step a foot in front of the other at times, « look how passionate he is about life, why can’t you try and put meaning into it as well » that kinda thought ?
I was talking about it to a friend the other day, how your dedication was something that I respected a lot, as it has given me the will and ability to live with purpose
Opening the gates to a happier, jollier, healthier and way more cheerful side of myself that I struggled to bring out for so long
You’ve made that happen, your words and own experiences that you were willing to share with us made that happen, isn’t it a lot? You’ve done a lot, you’ve changed a lot, you’ve changed it all for me Kevin
You know I’m a crybaby, but the only moment I cry when it’s related to moments spent with you is at the very end, not because I feel saddened by the end of it but mainly because I keep having this feeling of realization « wow I really was happy just now »
This bad habit of associating happiness with guilt ? Vanished
Becoming your fan made me feel the purest form of happiness I’ve never been able to even get near to for so many years, you just came to me and handed me the most precious emotion I was dying for
Kevin I’m literally crying writing you this, now that’s new lmao, I just really don’t want you to ever think that you haven’t done much, when you DID change it all for me
The lil clip of that fancall you saw on my story last night, that was one of those moments; I didn’t realize it at first but I smiled so big my jaw ended up hurting at the end, time always flies by so fast when I spend it with you, because I’m so happy enjoying the moment to the fullest without any external thoughts, it just flies
That’s a feeling I used to crave and it now became my daily routine thanks to you, isn’t it crazy ? *cries a river*
You’ve done a lot Kevin, finding you was the greatest thing that has ever happened to me, I’ll forever be grateful for you and I should and will try harder to let you know from where comes the love and respect I feel for you and your acts, you’re just too kindhearted to even realize how much power you have on people, so genuine and authentic it does tell a lot about you my Kevin
The things you do that we find crazy are an obvious thing to you, do you realize that you’re the only one so openly grateful to your fans ? I’ve never heard of a single artist as consistent as you in showing love and appreciation to the ones who look up to you, that’s why we’re always so surprised and grateful for you Kevin, I know it’s a normal thing to do for you, but when you take a step back, there really is no one like you and I can’t freaking stop crying It’s getting blurry lmao😭😭
« Why am I receiving so much love » « Why me » « What have I done », all your feelings are valid and so are these, but my main purpose behind these letters is to give you an answer to each and every single question you might have regarding your huge fanbase
I’ve loved lots of artists, grew up listening to music and could’ve become a fan of anyone else, but I decided to stick with you, because there’s only one Kevin Moon and therefore only one artist who was able to make me feel such safety, happiness, comfort, love, respect, admiration and inspiration I just couldn’t look back at anyone else
You are one of a kind Kevin, I don’t want anyone to think that I’m biased or am solely talking like that because I’m your fan, I became your fan for a reason and you are the reason, your art is the reason, your heart is the reason, your persona is the reason; There is no other Kevin Moon and this is the reason why you are loved, we find in you what we can’t find nowhere else, you simply just are our answer and I hope you can be yours too
Why are you so loved ? Because you are you
I love you so much and am so glad to see you so loved, if you end up asking yourself such questions it must mean that you really did feel this overwhelming feeling of love, and I’m so so happy to know that it’s the case, that’s the only thing I want for you Kevin, to be forever loved and happy, as you deserve
How can I be so profoundly happy thanks to someone without knowing for a fact this person is too right ? I really hope we can be this someone to you, or at least contribute even a bit to your happiness, it would mean the world to know that the one who’s helping me crack a smile, acting as my safe place on a daily, is as happy as he made me
just cryin because I’m so grateful for every single inputs you’ve had in my life, I feel like it would’ve been harder for me to climb up to where I am now if it weren’t for all the lessons I got to learn from you, you’ve done a lot Kevin, you’ve really changed it all
Thank you so much for blessing me with your kind heart and wise words, thank you for being my idol, thank you for introducing me to what happiness really is, thank you for helping me build a healthy routine, thank you for being a safe place to rest in, thank you for being an artist I can lean onto, thank you for inspiring me with your art, thank you for giving me a reason to move forward, thank you for helping me find my purpose, thank you for being my motivation, thank you for becoming my role model, thank you for helping me end every single one of my days with a smile, for enlightening them all, pushing me into carving my own path, taking in new challenges, living my life with great energy, to the fullest, eager to outdo myself, hopeful, thank you for helping me hold on the ability to daydream, to not take everything too seriously, thank you for acting as my real life fairytale, for letting me become your fan, for giving me friends, a new family, a big circle of lovely people and another safe place to rest in, thank you for making me feel loved and enough, for making the experience of being your fan a life changing one, thank you for making me so full of love, for inspiring me to be kind, loving and appreciative to people around me, thank you for making me a grateful and happy person, thank you Kevin,
I could go on and I want to go on, remember how I always told you I could write you an encyclopedia ? I really could, because you’ve given me SO much, I have enough to go on for the next hundred years
I never once meant anything I’ve written you lightly, I really do owe you a lot, I do am thankful for you, you did do a lot and I will make it a promise to keep on coming back to you, to thank you again and again and show you why you are so loved! You know the answer already right ? Because you are you, the one and only Kevin Moon ♡
I love you Kevin, thank you, thank you so so much for being who you are, what have I done to deserve you and all the good you’ve brought me, I feel you, I know why you feel that way, you believe that we are the ones who deserve it all and we are adamant about the fact that you are, isn’t it such a lovely relationship ? Thank you for being the roots of it all, for bringing this fandom together and for handing us a chance to have such a wonderful experience as fans to an artist
Thank you for becoming Kevin Moon of The Boyz, we will keep on trying harder to make it your greatest experience as well ♡
I’m sorry for making you read all of this and thank you so much for reading it all, I hope it will help you even a bit, have an idea of what it is to be your fan along with why we appreciate you so much ♡
I love you always and I’m forever proud of you ♡
Please rest well, stay safe, take care and I’ll see you in the next one my cherished one🍒♡
,Je t’aime du plus profond de mon cœur🫶🏻
,,Lots of love, Sarah ♡
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