aliceIN
hey my sweet kev♡
huhhh emotional much today mh?
I just stopped crying after your bubble messages lmao
in a positive way tho.. you always get me whenever you start saying those things.
just... thank you. 🤍
I just want you to remember that yes, you are a lifeline for a lot of us but I hope you know that we will always be here for you too, no matter what.
we are humans, but you are an human too and we need each other.
so if you need help sometimes, if you want to vent (as much as you can ofc), do it🤍 we will be here for you. 🫶🏻
but thank you for always being so understanding towards us and to make us feel heard, you dont get how important this is for me, for us.. to have your idol read your letter, read your comments and interact THIS much with you as if they were your long distant best friend. this is incredible and we are truly extremely lucky to have you in our lives 🤍
we love you so much kevin and we will always do. ❤️🩹
암튼 ~
ahhhh I was gonna tell you different things today but.. something happened:/
I won't be drastical just yet but I'm just really sad... (which literally fits what you said earlier lmao, I didn't want this letter to be 🫤 but here we go I guess)
so a few weeks ago I was organizing things with Mat and we suddenly decided to send CVs to an agency here in Tuscany that organizes summer schools and travels. she went to Canada for one month with this agency so she knew it was safe!
what we applied for was "companions during summer travels" or "animators during summer school (italy based)" WHICH IS SO COOL because it's all English based and what if we actually get hired for the companions and travel all summer?? crazy
I was honestly so excited that we could have the opportunity to work together since she's my best friend, so we sent off the CVs and waited 😁
until today, she recieved her reply and has a job interview tomorrow and I did not.
I mean our CVs are not so different.. she has probably more working experiences as waitress while I have more study abroad experiences so ? I'm confused, maybe she got her reply because she sent it first?
still, I probably will get the email soon as well, the thing that made me go :/ is that I told her I was happy for her but she didn't even reassured me or anything... she was just "Thank you I'll let you know how it goes!"
which is weird for her.
like I told her "I didn't recieve anything:(" and she just ignored the message..
well I probably put too much meaning into this... and it's my actually first real job experience so.. it's normal to be sad about it?
I don't even know if I'm more sad for the "rejection" or for her behavior idk..
well I'll just .. try to forget about this.
hopefully I'll still get my email someday :(
(bc literally who knows about this agency? lmao it's so small, we probably were the only ones to send the CV😭 let me innnnn😞)
I'm just a little disappointed on how she replied to me and it made my mood dorp.
but oh well, this is life, made of disappointments and achievements (didn't see any achievement yet but I guess I'll wait)
for now, I'm stuck with the ebikes 😁👍🏻
I'll just go prepare my dinner now, I'll keep you updated in case I'll miraculously recieve my email lmao
I love you my kev🤍 as I always do (but a little more than yesterday and less than tomorrow) 🤍
pce out
aliceOUT
PS. cute video I found today that made me think of u