HEY, COBIE!
After long months, a new letter has been born! How have you been doing, Jacob?
Actually, it hasn’t been that long since I last talked to you… 😅 Last Saturday was my first (proper) fancall with you, even though I failed completely 😅
Supporting from a certain distance has been something I’ve been (re)learning how to do, I guess it was kinda needed in my life, like, in a certain way. For the first time in almost 6 years I started being a fan of more than one group, but what really surprised me was realizing how TBZ still remains at the top. So this balance is kinda new to me, you know…
Absolutely not surprised when I realized you’re still my number one 😅 Which just makes me even more blushed and embarrassed and AAARRGHHH to think about the fancall 😩😩 I TALKED TOO MUCH 😭😭😭
To think up until 30 minutes before the call I had NOTHING planned (and was also freaking out)… 😞
I basically didn’t let you talk 🫠🫠🫠🫠
ARGHHH 🤦🏻♀️
I also barely looked at you :((
Now there’s no memory of it for me to see your reactions or you remember your smile, I’ll just move on with what’s left in my mind… although most of the times I’m just wishing I could forget eveything because I was SO SO SO nervous and embarrassed 🫣😅
I wanted to share the playlist I made for you, but well, it was faster than I expected 😅
Anyways, kinda repeating and summing up what I said/wanted to say…
Hope you feel seen and loved and appreciated. We can see your efforts, how you vocals and your dancing have improved SO MUCH, specially your confidence. It’s been a while, though I bet you always hear this, but thank you for being this safe and cozy person for us, for being a warm hug when we need, a shoulder we can rely on.
In certain ways, I miss you a lot, but things inevitably change, right? 🥺 Thank you for giving me my favorite memories and feelings when you did lives at midnight, Jacob. I’ll never forget how happy I felt being with you and Sunwoo, laughing at you guys singing and eating at 3am. Thank you for listening to my endless talking last Saturday 😅 and for each and every song you have released until today.
Looking back, I think I may have sounded exaggerated in many letters… I just hope you never get me wrong, it’s just that I always choose writing over talking (because I don’t really enjoy my own voice), so whenever I start writing, it’s kinda hard to stop 😅
It’s crazy, like, each experience I get to live, the more I see you as humanly as one can be… Maybe that’s one of the reasons why it was so hard thinking about what I wanted to tell you during the call. ‘Cause well, even though we’re this idol-fan relationship, we, fans, know what you decide to show us, while you don’t even know who we are personally. So, technically we’re strangers to each other, right? Like, not considering our “professions”. Is it understandable…??? 😞😅
Anyways…
Hope you know how much I’m proud of you as a Deobi and as a CobCob! This pride literally exploded while watching Hurt Me Less on It’s Live! 🥹
Sorry again for the little messed up letter, totally out of order…
Thank you for everything, Jacob!
You mean so much more than I could ever write.
🤍
#TSR: on the run - nina nesbitt