˗ˋˏ hello my love ˎˊ˗
yours here
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hello my sweet eric🤍
how are you feeelinggg?:( i know youre taking your medicine as ive seen and heard, i know you said its something not too bad but i feel horrible that you lost your voice and everything.. youre working hard and i just hope youre able to get more rest these days pertaining to your voice.. >.< i hope it was at least better today, i know youre probably being easy with your throat when you arent doing fan meets.. but i just feel horrible.. :( i hope youll feel better soon lovie.. take my voice.. please.. i dont need it.. i really do wish you feel better asap .. ☹️😭🥹
um not me being here to ask but i knooooww u were up mad late too.. coming on bubble at 4am yes you are a late bird but i just hope youre taking care especially with your voice.. plz get rest when you can and when you do rest i hope you sleep cozily also:,) agh i hope your day started late today a bit nd u got rest 💛💛🫶🏻 but i assume youre preparing things too !! don’t get more sick
where do i begin..? ill just talk about my day yesterday just a tad!!
i got up really early for work again 🫤 surprisingly i woke up before my alarm went off which was at 5;35 i woke up maybe around like 5am idk why but i just laid in bed.. although i was super tired i just couldnt sleep;-; fun fact about me everyday im usually about 3-4 minutes late to work everyday and everyday im late, my coworkers r always like “impressed” as they say to, how im always there at the same time everyday even if im late IDK but i got there like 10 mins early today.. im usually on time to things but noone really cares cuz i do a hell of a good job everyday so.. anyway but i worked earlier in my day and another fun fact but i stopped drinking all caffeinated and sugary drinks about maybe a month ago.. ive been laying off caffeine for about 2 months now but sugary drinks i cut out too 🫨 i just drink water everyday bc my mind is really everywhere with certain things~
after work i went home and then later in my day i headed out with clarissa, her sister and our other friend 🥸🥸 we went to the gym and then afterwards we went to the mall! we also ended up going out to get sushi cus around the time we ate it was like 8pm .. anyway im ramblingggg :p
omg also,, there was an earthquake today near me.. i didn’t feel it that much because i was moving at the time, i was also at work but my sister was home and our whole house shook nd shit and also bella was going crazy apparently beforehand.. animals can sense when smthings abt to happen beforehand, im assuming uve heard of that, but my sister called me frantically and everything.. its weird bc it wasn’t in new york it was mainly in new jersey but it was felt pretty far out to where i live in ny, but it was a 4.8 which is kinda insane especially over here😭 kinda scary tbh
anywayyyyyy
throwback to when i slept thru the hurricane and earthquake alarm in la for kcon lmfaooo
https://x.com/dforq/status/1776560487150538917?s=46&t=x-aLDu9jnA-bBex3Puq1Lg
seeing this early today makes my heart hurt. you are so driven and always never fail to show a great performance, despite being in pain (whenever that may be) i know you’ll always continue to work hard to show us everything, but it pains me when i know stuff like this has happened or does happen. you really are so hardworking and ill forever applaud you with how youll always push yourself to perform, even when youre hurting. thank you for always working hard, your professionalism is truly immaculate. i really do wish that every show you perform (all of u) tend to stay safe and nothing happens. i know that putting on huge performances can have a heavy toll on your body especially when youre constantly performing with all your might, song after song too. so i pray always u stay safe. this clip really breaks my heart :(
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but yeah. i miss you, really!~
and i hope youll continue to take care :). im cheering for you as you always know:)
im gonna kinda just ramble about something here if i possibly can 🥲
not to go into detail but ive expressed it before to you recently, but everytime around when i sleep my mind seems to get the best of me and certain thoughts take over and kinda consume me whole. its always really at night and im honestly super tired of the feeling like its draining me mentally in so many ways and i just hate it alot. during my days my mind can go from making feel like the most confident person in a room, to feeling so small. i hate how my thoughts can literally eat at me and make me feel so little in some of the worst ways sometimes:(. im sorry to say all this as i also try not to say alot to you either because i dont want to necessarily burden you with my problems as i know you go through things on your own too, whatever they may be:,) but i just hate feeling so insecure these days like it genuinely eats me alive sometimes..🙂↕️
i swear its just my mind at night though omg like when i think too much it just progressively gets worse.. i just need my brain taken out i swear i really do hate overthinking.. it drives me to tears some nights like i literally sobbed last night.. as much as im very confident sometimes its just so tiring :/
and some things thatll also get the best of me is i have this one certain thought that really weighs me down, and ill constantly be reminded of it by a certain clip or if i hear certain words (im kinda sugarcoating smth i hope you dont mind) and it really takes a toll on me):
>.<
i really cant stand it.. thank you for listening 😞 sorry to be a little sad here.. but you know i find a home in you and that you make me feel insanely safe. you know theres noone else id rather love and support nor be by anyone else’s side other than yall. as ive gotten more wiser (?) i guess i just dont want to fully burden you with what goes on in my head or life LOL..
it sucks cause theres things i want to tell you but alot of people do read these..
but also like idgaf about what ppl think but when im in a vulnerable state i tend too smtimes. i know you’ve said youd listen and i know your shoulder is there for me to lean on but id rather me send you all my love i can because i just would rather appreciate all the moments i have when you read these with pretty words of what i tell you because im very self aware of not taking things for granted, and i just want to appreciate the moments of when i write to you and always let you know how much youre loved and how much i adore you. ☹️💗
even if i dont express it, or i express something little that im not doing well here and there, thank you for always uplifting me in ways and being there, cuz i know i have your support and love too :( some days are really a challenge more than others, but i know i have you and knowing i have love and support from you, you being my most favorite person ever. means the world really, from all you included too. i wouldnt want to imagine my days without you, so by me sending you love always, if its selfish of me to ask i hope that’s what youll think when you see my name. that ill always send you my love and the most encouarging words & support that can be thrown your way.
loving you has made me more confident in ways i cant explain, that ive found parts of me while loving you too. but i do crumble sometimes as my mind (anyones really) can overtake my confident thoughts 😅 thank you always :(:
ive found a home within you and your boyz, 6 years ago and its a forever home for me 🫂 you know this, its always gonna be u!
your love is truly like a hug, so thank you for allowing me to take as much love when im in need :,)
i do wonder what you think when you see my name.. besides being ur angel 🤫 lolz anyway
i hope you had a nice saturday too(:
but i actually wanted to ask you this also last time we spoke, but my mind ended up blanking lmfaoo.. but i want to go into more detail so, ill def be wearing other colors too but i wanted your top picks (i knew youd pick pink 🥰) and for the eras part, im gonna be picking my fav stage outfits that youve worn, and ill be recreating them 🥰
(the way i already have 2 honey outfits planned in my head) ouuu she loves fashion.. ahh im excited i have visions of everything and im very excited to share with you as sorta plan it (: i love fashion so, its something me and my friend are doing. but ill also just be coordinating other colors at certain stops too!! abt to leave u stunned 😜 lmaoo
still waiting for the replies too so maybe ill speak about it more tm and tell u the stages im taking from of your fits too :p
i miss you alot, i rlly do.. :( i really hope you get better soon with your voice and you dont get worse(:
take care in the meantime
whatever schedules occur in your days, i hope theres peace surrounding you and that nothing stressful is on your mind or weighing upon you. im wishing you the world, i hope you enjoy the rest of your week. i know youll work hard, but be easy on yourself too as you push for greatness (:
may the world treat us both with kindness these days. 🤍
the tenderness i have for you will forever shine as
bright as the stars ✨😚
eat well, stay safe, get better soooooon!!
i miss u:( whenever u see this, just know i love you 💞💝❣️
expressed alot td.. letting u in on how my mind works.. with the millions of words youve read by me, most of them pertain to my love about you, i dont ever wanna take your time or presence for granted, but ill express more too as i kinda use this as a diary and i dont think youd want me to keep alot in sorta :,) thank you for being the shoulder ive leaned on the most, for the longest time ♥
my boy forever & always
i adore u & cherish u, have a cozy night and smile within the next of your days 💓✨🫶🏻
gn to u love, i 🫶🏻 u always
♥ — your angel,
angelina
💌 april 6th, 11:12am est
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