Dearest Eric,
Zeneration II was announced yesterday morning!! It's so funny that I was sleeping over at Mo's (my besties) place, literally on the floor (I lowkey prefer that to an air mattress because it helps with my backpain.. but we were joking around the night before that I would sleep on her racoon hat as a pillow LMAO)
I wouldn't have seen it so early on if I wasn't at her place! but she had uni classes from 9am, so we woke up at 6am and the moment I looked at my phone I saw the dates!
I really hope Mo and I will get to see you and many the b friends this year (actually I'll say I will be seeing you - fake it till you make it hehe)!! I will say it'll most likely be Paris, however I know some moots who will be going to London but I would like to meet them too, or see you more than once...🥺 If there's more Europe dates my decision will probably change around but!! I can't wait to find out more and start preparing~ I want you guys to be my first big-scale and kpop concert, to travel with my bestie and meet more friends! < 3 I also wish all 11 of you to stay healthy throughout the tour, meet lots of lovely deobis and see lots of lovely sights!! You mentioned you really liked Europe so I really hope you get to visit even more than just Paris and London ToT but most important don't get hurt!!
Speaking of friends, I went to see one of my long time online friends today! She works at a bubble tea shop near my university, but I actually haven't seen her since 2021 even tho she lives just outside the city!? I don't even remember how we started talking in 2020, but we've been through a lot since then! We only realized today that we haven't seen each other since her birthday three years ago.. and I went to give her some duplicate album inclusion I had of Younghoon and Kevin as they are her favorite members!
Actually all the photocards she previously owned got lost, probably moved or discarded by her mom... And since I already had 2 of the same YH be aware photocards, and I will soon get another be aware Kebin one that's the same - why not give it to her!
Another funny coincidence is that since Sunwoo is Mo's favourite member, I let her choose any of my SW pcs to take for herself a few months ago, and she chose a be aware one! But there's this highschool 후배 of ours who doesn't stan you guys (sadly....) yet keeps getting official photocards as freebies! So she keeps sending them over to me through a mutual friend, and she got the same SW pc! so she'll be sending it over like she did a Sangyeon pc some time ago lmaoo
I'm just sad that I only have one photocard of yours... please wish me luck on pulling you from the phantasy pt 3 album that I ordered!!! it's sad that you're my no.1 but I only have one 포카... I put you in a holo sleeve tho LMAO it almost shines as bright as you do <3 maybe I should show you my casual collection once? I am very proud of it even though I never intend to purposefully collect photocards..
Since around last week I've been feeling much more.. stable? My mood has been mostly good even though I got really shocking news last week (grief over it only caught up to me last night.. but even then I was mostly okay! just processing the loss of a childhood friend :// )
Honestly this winter period and starting the second semester have been pretty hard with my mental health being quite low - but the sun sets later now! more daylight!
I've found myself going outside more and exposing myself to the world much more! I am someone quite shy and I tend to have a lot of anxiety surrounding social situations, but I've been able to push myself outside of my shell in the past week or so and experience more of life outside of my small cramped room!! This is another reason I really want to see you guys live even if it's far, a whole new and scary experience - one of my new year resolutions was to not back down when something sounds uncomfortable and instead embrace it! I think I've been doing well so far! :D I even began talking and overall using Korean more, even though I've been scared to do so in the past (an ex coworker would make it really uncomfortable to even try... but Mo knows more than me and she doesn't judge me for the smallest mistakes! so I think I'm closer to improving a lot! :D)
Only issue I've had is that burnout has been catching up to me and physically :/ I keep overheating, getting dizzy spells and chronic head aches, feel sick later in the day... I hope you guys don't experience it, at least not to this extent - but you guys work so much more than the average graphic design student that I am alike (I'm more active than the average!! I dance and exercise! I have had visible abs since entering highschool!! I am activee~ LMAO)
but I am a tough nut to crack! I've gone through harder things, I'll check my health and get through this as well~
Oh also! I got a tattoo inspired by you :D
Although I don't know you as a person - I think I won't regret getting a smol lightning bolt in your name to remind me to keep going even if you're not who I see you as :) I've looked up to you since I was 16, and this may it'll be 4 years since then! I hope I'll be able to look up to you until forever, whatever that vague term means, and I hope you succeed in whatever you do <3
Now a little more... self-promo if it can even be called that - Mo and I are preparing a cover of Honey, right? ever since we realized it's Sunwoo and you we just HAD to do it! Over the weekend I made a dance comparison between 2019 me and 2024 me - so it gave me the idea to put my attempt at Honey besides you to check my timing and angles! Annd... it actually came out so good...
I have to fix a laarge part of the choreography, but there is some parts where we were so in sync!! I can only dream of reaching the level you're at, seeing as it's my hobby and I am completely self taught - but I've improved so much since I began dancing T-T I feel so proud of myself for still dancing even if I took breaks and had large set backs in the journey - I know there's so much more in front of me!! I always say this, but hopefully one day we'll dance on the same stage - however even if it isn't a stage, I really hope you will see me dance one day and that I can make you proud <3
i can't show it to you because of copyright, but if I do better I'll post it somewhere!
I think this is all the.. many things I wanted to tell you LMAO I just now realized how much I've written... if I haven't remembered it by now, I think I should save it for another letter T_T But!! hope you have an amazing day and an even more amazing week! and that your voice came back, if not drink lots of tea because I know it helps!! speaking from the experience of losing my voice after verbally teaching all my classmates history of arts for like 11h straight before an exam... at least I got the highest grade and helped at least one other person get a 10 as well :DD and even without a voice.. you sounded cute~
song rec:
My Affairs - Jutty Taylor
The Perfectionis - Jutty Taylor
Your Moon,
달야 <3
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