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hey my love!
yours here <3
hello my eric💞
i hope all is well with you today! there is something i want to address, i dont think ill say too much today tho for you to keep this short and simple! theres just something i want to express which has been on my mind all day since i saw/heard it! 🥹
okay so your voice live, as i wasnt able to watch it in real time, im glad you came by for strength before you slept, and i just want to say i really do love how you express and state your thoughts of whats on your mind. i know for a while now you’ve always expressed you want us to share our personal thoughts with you, and some of our worries.
this kinda goes back to my other letter i mentioned but ill talk about that later upon this topic~ but i just want to say, how you mentioned you dont like telling us your worries since its something you dont want to give off, i understood what you meant completely. and obviously you cant say everything but, thats the same way i feel amongst you when i have alot of worries on my mind as well😅 im not going to express it all here, as after i listened to the live and caught upon translations i was eager to write you letters pertaining to this live and by the time you head back to seoul, hopefully theyll reach you a few days after. i mentioned alot of whats on my mind and something i talked about in there so youll understand more, but for the longest time youve always stood by the same words youve mentioned how you want us to let you know our worries, you just have the most caring heart ever and im just very very lucky to adore and cherish someone as lovely as you. thank you for always reiterating that. thats a reason i love you
when i write to you mainly here, it brings me alot of strength, just coming here brings a presence of peace to my days knowing i can communicate with you here as its sorta more personal. but theres alot of the time too where id like to have serious talks with you also to hear whats on your mind or tell you whats on mine :(: https://x.com/tbzwangdeuls/status/1778828262376190080?s=46&t=x-aLDu9jnA-bBex3Puq1Lg
but truly alot of the time i just feel bad saying alot of my worries and thoughts, its just who i am and idk if that’ll change anytime soon, but its been something ive been working on for a while. as much as i love you dearly, i feel this with all my friends my mind just feels a certain way when i tell people the worries in my life/mind. idk if its just due to like past trauma but its something im still trying to overcome even with my really close friends, my mind is a very iffy place sometimes lol.. as much as im extroverted and kinda like an open book, this is something i tend to hold back.
but again a few letters (933) back i talked about this same topic sorta how i feel bad mentioning my worries, so im just gonna take this as another reminder (not reply? but sorta like one, i know you havent been on here) but im just gonna keep looking back on this as a reminder and try to push myself to tell you more..
again, the cards i expressed much much more pertaining to this topic and your eyes will be the only ones to see them. i would just rather me focus on sending you the extra amount of love and strength that is withheld only in my heart for you, and not take your precious time for granted. :,)
i could go on with this topic forever, but seriously, being with you for the longest youve always expressed this kinda thought, and just hearing the reminder once again genuinely, and i mean genuinely really helps:(
especially these days
also in the cards i talk about you expressing hiw you feel too. althought you cant say much alot of the time, i really would like to know when your days are harder then others :(
the reality of the world we live in is truly cold sometimes, but with the love that we have, may it shine on each other and bring one another warmth. as much as i know you have a shit ton of worries and thoughts, i wish you didnt have alot of worries. you are such a precious person, and the more love you receive you become more and more precious by the day.
as you are an insanely precious person who i hold dear to my heart, knowing that i can be a precious person in your life as well is something that just makes me smile too. coming here i do this for you and i love doing it because im very passionate in loving you and ill always scream your name wherever i go, because you are a precious person that deserves the world & to be known. i give love to those naturally around me and whos in my circle, but one thing ive learned also while loving you, is that i can be very passionate with those i hold dear to my heart and ive learned to not hold back telling people how much i cherish them because everyone around us deserves to hear so..
i feel like im getting off track but again, overall, just hearing you say these things on live is just a clarification that i feel like my heart and mind (def) needed as this time. with this ill look back on and continue to remember and try to continue to open up with what i tell you. just the voice in my head i always debate back and forth with 😞
again its not that i mean to hold back, its just part of me feels extremely guilty knowing you go through a shit ton too, even to extents if its not bad. but i hope i can always be a bright presence for when you read these or you think upon me~
https://x.com/tbzwangdeuls/status/1778851729657975255?s=46&t=x-aLDu9jnA-bBex3Puq1Lg
you mentioning this to me.. no back!! ill always be by your side, and i know my words are a support system for you as youve mentioned, so i promise i promise you always know im by your side, loving you whole heartedly more & more as i continue on with my days :( 6 years and forever ~
well always shine together as were people that can benefit from one another, your words and love bring me so much strength. i promise ill always tell you how much i adore you each second and ill send you so much love and energy to hopefully push you on days where you need it, on days where you need it a little extra i hope you think of me and know i am always right there with you cheering you on❣️
why is she getting sad writing this.. anyway, youll recieve 4 handwritten cards from me (i wrote alot i was just eager to do so, because thats what i felt was right in the moment) but i really do love loving you, and nothing will change that ever. i hope youre doing okay, and i hope your worries wont eat at you as much as they eat at me too.. but again.. harder said then done.. but that doesnt mean i cant wish that upon you.
you know greatly tht youre someone i hold close to my heart and in my life, i look for u wherever i go:)
the cards, express alot more of this same topic as i said, its not repetitive at all so some things in there are different from here but mostly everything is.. just giving you more of an insight:,)
im uploading this right now as its currently 3am near me, ill have a busy night tm so ill tell you all about that next time i write!! i decided to go to my cousins party in manhattan 🥹🥹 excited
eric i cant fking say it enough but i truly mean with the entirety of my whole and i already know you know this, that im so grateful and lucky to love, have, support, and cherish someone like you. :( if my love is ever overwhelming, im not sorry because a precious person like you deserves to feel the most love and i wish upon the stars my love forever does that to you!
take all this love in, you are a precious person who has endless love flowing your way, from me of course too:)
my person
also~ i know you said its troublesome for you to fall asleep sometimes.. im not sure what the factors are to tht these days, im gonna assume your busy schedules or your mind is running insanely fast. i dont know what to say to help with this, but i hope youll have better nights where its not hard for you to fall asleep and you can overcome that feeling. i try to just force myself to sleep or i just think of the color black?? idk theres different methods for everyone.. another thing that helps me LOL is i used to use an eye mask.. oh boy tht thing puts me out within 5 mins.. get urself a lil eye mask 🤣🤣
no but all seriousness, i hope as your nights go on you can fall asleep easier..
i really really hope youre doing well these days. please have happy days my love, i hope the things that are troubling you when you do have troubling moments arent extreme.
ill tell you more as i used to do, i promise so<3
you talking about the things ive stated in here today, i wonder what prompted that.. i hope youre well my love 🥺🤍
i really love you.. sometimes i wish id want to know what your thoughts or responses would be like when i write certain letters like these
anyways im off to bed, i hope whenever you see this that your day was brighter today then it was yesterday, and also that your day tomorrow is ever better too.
well continue to shine bright together, despite how far i am from you, my heart is right with you as i know i have yours with me too❤️🫶🏻
i miss u baby:( take care of yourself!
im wishing you the world, may the world be kind to you in replace of me in your everyday activities 🤭 hehe i had too sorry.. okay gn from my side.. maybe ill be up when you see this. who knows.
ill forever be here cheering you on in every aspect of your life. today i did so much writing, all pertaining to you and it brings me joy(: you are a joy in my life
love u my sweet caring boy 💞😽🫶🏻take care
♥ — your angel,
angelina
#angel_fm: can’t stop your lovin - poolside & panama
i have a feeling you’ll like this. the vibes r very much summer vibes:)
https://x.com/tbzwangdeuls/status/1779062769494769744?s=46&t=x-aLDu9jnA-bBex3Puq1Lg
you soo want to come see me.. my bfff
💌 april 13th, 3:20am est
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