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helloooo my love..🤍
im honestly technically not sure how to even start this today if im being honest, everything feels so weird right now amongst me 🙃
i guess ill say i hope you’ve been well and taking care, i really miss you these days. honestly ive been trying to focus on you as i usually do, and also try and distract myself, but like nothing is cheering me up. except music :(:
i really wanna praise you first just a little bit saying im very excited for your program coming out, it fits you so well and i just am very excited to see you show off your charms and cuteness. :) my love like this show is just so you!!! i am so eager to watch it for you🥺❤️
im glad its you
and secondly, you mentioned how you had a photoshoot. you know i think youre theeeee finest human to ever be upon this planet, ive praised you so so much for your past photoshoots which i still ponder upon once a day as theyre just so mesmerizing and unforgettable (especially the interviews in them) but i am so eager to see your looks like i dont know if im ready.. like i am.. but im not.. do u get me..? but really they’re amazing. im soooooo soooo patiently waiting (eagerly) for when they will be released like my love u are booked and bussyyyy🥰🥰🥰❤️❣️🫶🏻 im so happy for you, this ethereal boy im very excited to see it i just know you posed and did well🫶🏻
oh and third!! your guest mc with younghoon!! i just really am so proud of you these days as you’re doing so much and working hard with your heart amongst your sleeve<3 you did so well and no words can explain how happy i am to see all these oppurtunites unfolding for you.. im emotional with any new thing you take on, more steps towards greatness and so much love surrounding you as you continue to work insanely hard. :) your efforts will always be rewarded, im really proud of you my love !! you are so hardworking truly❤️
with all thats been happening with you, ive been really trying to cheer myself up with it all. the words i write to you today i sincerely feel with every inch of my heart, but if im being honest, my head just doesnt feel here. like it’s somewhere else if that makes sense.
these past four days have felt sooooo long and ive been dreading my days. ive been trying to be positive amongst myself but everything just feels (excuse my language) so fcking weird like.. i went to work the past 2 days and i dreaded being there, especially yesterday. my head was pounding and i was getting so irritated at the smallest things and it just wasnt good. i havent been able to sleep either, like theres so much on my mind..
im really nervous for her wake and funeral.. you know how i expressed how i was really nervous that she’d pass on my moms birthday? well as if this is any better but the wake is on my moms birthday and i feel so horrible for my mom.
im really really nervous for monday and tuesday. ive been to funerals before but nothing ever like this, i really just dont know how ill react and thats the thing im afraid of the most 😭😭😭 i really am trying to be strong but all this is just so hard and i just feel so drained ): i really can’t even explain how i feel.
you’ve always been a driving force of mine, the reason ive felt so cheerful during my days, your precious existence has made my days so much better. these days im really trying to not feel so down but its the hardest thing ever and i just want to feel myself again. its so hard, i know youre by my side and part of me is trying to put a focus onto you to make me feel better. thank u for being there for me<3
ive also been journaling these past 4 days and just listening to music to keep me going too
like im hella drained
ive been spending these last 4 days with my whole family, and ill most likely be spending the weekend with them too. last night they were all over and we had to put together boards of photos.. shit is so depressing like seriously.
im being strong but i crumble here and there with my thoughts when im alone
i am literally so nervous for monday and tuesday like i really dont know what to expect. when the thought comes to my mind, of someone who used to have so much life within them, that just isnt here anymore it all just doesnt feel real and is so weird to me
oh and was aggravated as hell cuz the cards i sent you were stressing me out amongst shipping like 🙁🙁 just unnecassary problems but it all worked out in the end 🫶🏻 hope you receive them soonsies as i expressed my mind a bit eek
again i havent had the chance to really catch up on alot sorta kinda, but i really am happy for u my pretty boy. my heart is so happy for u, as always
i really wasnt even gonna come here again today either. but you bring me strength, & i really dont want to give you depressing ass letters but my heart misses you and while im going through these tough times i just cant help but think of you for strength and love. i dont mean to say i miss u alot but i really strongly do these days, just want to feel bright again and you help with me feeling bright nd make me feel myself<3 like i genuinely just feel drained 😞
i think ill get going now, you’ve been working so hard and im happy for you as you work for greatness amongst yourself. so many beautiful activites & achievements are waiting upon your arrival. im proud of you, i miss u my pretty boy. take care of yourself in the meantime. you’ll be on my mind like always :(:❤️
have a good night, or day, whenever you see this i hope youre well. ive been glancing at the stars extra, ill think of you when i do these nights. you and the stars are bringing me a feeling of normality these days:)
i hope your day was good!
i love you 💗💕🫶🏻❣️❤️🤍 so much
♥ - your angelina
you are just so beautiful i have to tell you always.. i hope you post more i know you said u have a bunch but if u cant choose send them on bubble 🤓 or just show me them all yassss
take care and i hope youve been able to sleep lately.
these polas.. me when.. lol.. i love you:(:
🫂 me imagining a hug from you
#5no추: scary love - the neighbourhood
been listening to this these days
the possibility of you outweighs the actuality of anyone else
💌 april 20th 10:43am
📧 april 20th 11:43pm
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