hi kevin ~
surprised i am back here this early? usually i write you letters with months interval 😅 i feel the need to send you one today so, here i am 🥰
내가 왜 와냐? 궁금하지? ㅋㅋㅋㅋ
saw your bbl messages on X and i have so much to say. 공감 ㅠㅠ i relate to you so much 😔 as i am not subscribed to bbl, i can only see your messages when someone post it.
remember back in 2020, i am sending you letters actively. some times i post together with my friends other times it was just random moments of feeling like sending you one.. i miss those times as well.. i miss how i can just say anything anytime i want here .. but things happened and the energy i have now.. the energy i carry nowadays, this is not my energy back then.
you’ve mentioned in your bbl how we gain energy from you and that you do not want to come to us with the whatever energy you are dealing now.. i can relate to that because that is also the reason i don’t come as often as i was doing before. i learned from changmin during a videocall slot i got that he gains energy from my fancafe letters and i was so so surprised and touch because i thought it was only me who gains strength whenever i write about anything here ..
remember how i used to randomly rant to you literally about anything even about my dark days.. i shared them here.. to you and to ji.. and my overthinking self also panics with the information because i was sending letters that might be filled with negative energy since i was ranting.. i was afraid i might radiate and only give you negativity than strength.. so i tried to change how i write to him then .. i tried to be more positive and not share any negative things.. like how i used to. AGAIN.. TRIED.. because that wasn’t the real energy .. it is not as genuine as if i write with the usual way i do, right?
so what i am trying to say is, doesn’t matter if the energy you radiate is going to make us worry or what because kevin.. KEVIN MOON , YOU ARE SO MUCH MORE THAN WHATEVER ENERGY IS GETTING YOU NOW!
어mooney is right.. it is the first life we are living so.. let’s live by it.. overcome the hardships.. face all the emotions and energies we might encounter .
am i actually making sense because i am writing this almost one in the morning and my emotion is also over the place lmao (+ with almost no sleep mood lol)
not the right time for me to rant because this letter is not about me but YOU!
DEAR KEVIN MOON~
don’t you worry making us worry just because life is shtng on you again or whatever.. we are not just here to support you.. we are also here to join you in tough times because that is what you are to us .. you guys never leave our side whenever life tests us..
hope that you will feel better and do not rush yourself to be fine.. sometimes we have to feel it.
gonna end this letter with this 🎡 .. this is the exact 관람자 you rode when you got here for SHOW CHAMPION IN MANILA back in 2018. and sharing this photo to remind you that sometimes we are in the peak of our energy.. to give out to people but most of the time we also have to embrace being below the usual energy that we have.. because these energies are like passengers of ferris wheel, this energy already finished their turn being on it’s peak and we have to let them out.
i really hope this letter makes sense 🫠
잘했어, 수고했어, 고마워 🌙❤️
P.S.
sharing these photos i took to help you be in a better mood ✨
P.P.S.
i forgot to share this last time 🤭i went to the timmies branch you’ve been to when you came here for KVERSE last year after i took photos for you birthday frames 🤗