Hii kev ♡
how’s our moonlight boy doinng? I hope you’ve been able to find time to rest your mind from any hard feelings pertaining to what you’ve been dealing with, remaining as kind to yourself while hopefully still drawing enjoyment from every little thing you appreciate acting upon ♡
Doing better or not, that’s okay, you’re doing just fine, just put yourself as the top priority and take care my Kevin ♡
As for me I’m doing greaat, exhausted, satisfied just as I am more than apprehensive of the outcome resulting from this busy finals week but at least it’s coming to an end, I’ll have one last exam on Monday and then we’re free~
It honestly went pretty good, the language part is definitely the one I’m the most confident about and even find enjoyment going through? As I’m basically testing my knowledge and gauging the amount of things I’m lacking in and need to work on, as it’s easier to know on the spot what’s going wrong when it’s about languages
The oral exam is always my favorite don’t ask me why lmao, I’m having so much fun speaking I just literally couldn’t stop rambling
It’s basically done in pairs, pairs which we get to know on D-day seconds before the exam💀 We just pull a random topic and are required to initiate a conversation out of it on the spot, with grammar points that have to be used, the teacher joins in and asks questions too at the end and yeah, nerve racking at first but fun, pretty much the kind of exercise we had for the Cambridge exam (lower the level tho lmao)
It looks scary, even more when fluency is yet to be reached but that’s the type of training that we need, I won’t have my notebook before my eyes when exchanging with natives will I? Lmao
I left the classroom with nods, a smile and a “잘했어요“ from my teacher so let’s say I nailed this one
I talked about y’all cause being a theb is my ✨personality✨ « 좋아하는 가수가 있나요? » “더보이즈라는 그룹이 있는데 너무 좋아해요” her face lightened, guess we found a theb lmao
Who would’ve thought orals would be my favorites, the atmosphere is just so good amongst us and the teachers, you just know they’re there for you
I’m pretty satisfied knowing I can speak without stuttering nor making any mistakes for that long, spitting out everything I know and actually manage to go beyond just plainly replying to her questions
Give me more kr friends now I need to speak yall
Until the day I’ll become as comfortable as I am with English~ and then we’ll learn Japanese LMAO
but anyways, I honestly do am kinda nervous about it still, as the civilization part always gives me a headache considering it’s way more tricky working through essays in your own language, as ironic as it may sound, I’m shaking in my boots pray for me I can’t mess that up I’ll die lmao
It was a full on roller coaster, from going home with a smile, to questioning my whole trajectory when it comes to my studies, wishing for myself to have a clearer view of what I’d like my future to look like professionally
Doing what I like isn’t enough to act as a barrier from all the overthinking pertaining to how hard it is to reach success in such a social setting, I guess I do have lots of worries regarding this whole ‘after uni’ job situation and it does kinda frightens me tbh
I still don’t feel ready enough to put final words onto what I want, and choose for once and for all one and only thing to live by for the rest of my life
But this is a prerequisite of making the choice to go on with further studies, and knowing that every little choice I’ll make from now on will have influence on my future is pretty scary when worded out this way
I guess that’s inevitable to go through such thoughts, growing and reaching new steps is indeed as scary as it can be exciting, but we got this, I just like to tell myself that whatever has to happen will happen and that god always got my back anyways
We all have worries but when I do try to take a step back from filling up my mind with all this future stuff, I do feel a bit more content with what I currently have before my eyes and I’m beyond grateful for that
There’s still a long way to go to finally reach a place of complete satisfaction, we’re still constantly learning and I’m yet again way too young to even dream of getting close to the idea of accomplishing the entirety of my current and future dreams and wishes, so I do wish I and we could grow a little bit more lenient on the pace of our own growth, with less comparison and much more comprehension
It’s okay to be in a place of doubt and I wish we could just leave ourselves welcome all those feelings, as complicated as they can be just like we would welcome the jollier ones, no need to turn a blind eye on such emotions, letting yourself slow down and leave space and time for breaks is what will ultimately push you back up, that’s what diving in all sorts of situations made me realize
I like to think that our time will come anyways, you’ll be granted what you deserve and what will ultimately reflect the amount of work you’ve put into shaping your career, the answer is never too far, I’m sure you’ll find yourself growing closer to what you aspire to achieve, wishing for your best always my Kevin ♡
Glad you have your lovely mom to cheer you up always ♡
Soo Thursday morning, I was walking in the subway station on my way to uni until I turned my head to billboards of Greenhouse’s movie poster? I recognized the actress right away as she has played in Sky Castle, turned out the movie came out in theaters the day before
I had 4hours of nothing in between two of my exams, same for today so I was like umm, today or tomorrow lmao
I ended up eating with my friend at the park right next to my uni as we browsed through our notes one last time and made my way to the theater~ the good thing is it’s literally 5min away from my uni, I lowkey can go whenever
Soo that’s what I did, I actually ended up going out before the end of the movie as their adds made it so much more longer I had very short time to make it for the exam lmao
Soo I missed a good 30min of the end of the movie which is crazy frustrating as it was right at the moment where everything was about to unfold😭💀
It came out in 2023 in Korea? I’m not finding it online until god knows when I’m frustrated
I might just go back to the theater soon lmao we’ll see
Buuut, it’s a thriller, it takes us along a divorced woman barely holding onto life living alone in a greenhouse away from her son left in a juvenile detention center
She works as a caregiver for an old couple, a blind man along with his wife struggling with paranoia, having as a goal to gather enough money in order to get a proper place for her and her son to live in
She is mentally struggling, taking part in a support group for self-harming people, where she meets yet another unstable woman, until there you’d ask me where is the thriller
Well, I did not read a thing about it nor did I watch the trailer beforehand and it was better that way lmao
An accidental death leads to a series of unforeseen events gradually turning into a pure disaster as all those troubled characters intertwine shifting the whole plot around
I teared up in the first half (in a movie theater Kevin someone stop me) and then was left dumbfounded, the main actress is just so good, I remember her making me feel crazy uneasy in Sky Castle, well that’s the same if not worse on this one, so disturbing pls
But anyways, I need to finish it first lmao
Psychological things always get to me I’m not built for this yall
But Anywayys, It’s Mother’s Day on Sunday here, I bought her earrings with a purple diamond cause her fave color is purple too🫶🏻
We’re like mother like daughterying so hard</3 I was actually about to buy her either a bracelet or earrings with the infinite symbol as she bought me a necklace like that, yk the meaning + looking like an 8 as a lil wink to 0809, my bday, cherishing this necklace with my life
I wanted us to match buut I saw these ones and it looked cuter~
Anyways, I missed writing you, it’s only been a few days but I’ve gotten too used to this to not feel the need to comeback and ramble about everything and anything on here, thank you once again for being such a lovely one that finding our way back to you seems only natural
I genuinely find it wonderful to see so many people running to you on a daily to try and make you feel loved, thought of and even more worthy of the time we’re willing to spend for you, thanks to the endless amount of positive feelings showing you appreciation brings us
I’m so grateful for you Kevin, I just can’t help but associate you with the greatest form of what’s considered inherently good and that makes you one to cherish accordingly <3
Seeing myself growing ridiculously happy over the most random things makes me look so childlike yet I feel like that’s one good if not the best thing I’ve gained from supporting you
You did nothing except from showing how genuine of a passionate lil genius you were and it was enough to reach us the right way, look at you helping people grow passionate over their every inputs on things they hold appreciation for, you’re such an inspiring one ♡
You sent me straight to heaven singing to daughter’s opera bridge btw, waiting for the day bey will stumble upon your killing voice doing great justice to her masterpieces so I can scream even louder, if you ever plan on making any Cowboy Carter bsides a TikTok of yours, we’re looking forward to it ♡
But anyways, I’m sorry this was a long one, that’s what happens when I don’t write you for more than 2days..
Thank you so much for your time, thank you for reading, I hope from the bottom of my heart that this can be off help to you when left in times of vulnerability, I wish we could at least help you crack a smile amidst all this overthinking, you’re doing enough and you’re doing it great Kevin, just take the time you need for self care and rest as much as time allows you to ♡
Have a restful night, wishing for you to put an end to your day on nothing but pretty words for today ♡
Love you always, missing you, proud of you ♡
Please take great care of yourself, stay safe, rest well and I’ll see you in the next one my cherished one🍒♡
,Je t’aime du plus profond de mon cœur🫶🏻
,,Lots of love, Sarah ♡
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