Dearest Eric,
I've loved you for four years today! happy 4th anniversary love ♡♡
when did that much time pass!!? it feels like yesterday that I watched the Danger performance, telling Mo right away that I thought you were cool. or her birthday that year, that the two of us spent listening to your entire discography - I still remember hearing your rap in 'shake you down' and stopping in my tracks. even if I was absolutely speechless at that time, you haven't failed to take my breath away time and time again.
thank you for being one of the few positive constants in my life and for such a long time at that. I always feel awkward writing letters like this because I feel I can only thank you for things you've made me feel and done for me - but I hope I can repay you for all the happiness and inspiration you've brought me.
four years.. both of us have grown and changed so much, but at this moment I‘m more than ever grateful to call myself a person who likes you. with each new song, choreography and performance you show your endless ambition and passion, and I pity anyone who doesn't know how to appreciate everything you can give. you shine so much farther than the stage, you're like sun on a warm summer day. I know I mentioned in previous letters that sunsets make me think of you, but it seems as if you're even brighter than the sun and more colorful than all the sunsets Earth has ever seen. thank you for keeping my heart warm even when it felt like everything was crashing down.
I'm not sure if I've already talked about this in one of my 'blue' letters, but the music you've put out on soundcloud means so incredibly much to me. when I first listened to 'Somewhere' I found it just to be a nice song, but as time went on it became the reason I kept going even when I felt my road came to an end. as cliche as it sounds, there were nights where I doubted all hard work I've ever put in, but 'Somewhere' was the support I couldn't find in any words told by people around me. in [여담:餘談 TRIVIA] you mentioned that you believe your music can't change the hard reality of the world, but you do have the ability to change a single person's world, and you already have done so <3
it would be ignorant of me to only mention your music, even if it is your job, but your personality and way of approaching life is very inspiring to me. funnily enough my personality is almost opposite to yours, or at least our demeanors are? people do see me as a "sunshine" and bubbly, but I am veryvery shy most of the time - if I don't get approached first, I most likely won't become friends with someone.. but I think that's exactly why I love you so much - I may be a believer of 'opposites attract' but I also see myself in you! because growing up I was much more extroverted, made friends with everyone on the playground, talked to all the parents... I think younger me and you would've had a blast together, although we'd have a giant language barrier!! anyways as a kid who grew up and ended up much more quiet and shy, it's refreshing and inspiring to see someone be so open, bright, outgoing and easy to talk to. I believe it's also about the balance that comes from seeing someone so sun-like as a person who is very moon-like.. I think we need our opposites as much as we need our similarities :]
that being said, I really wish I could know more of your perspective on the world!! and not only the world, but your outlook on life, everything and nothing. I feel like I either miss out on that because I'm still not good enough in Korean, or by simply not seeing enough videos - but I really hope we'll be able to see and hear much more of you in the future! I'll work harder on my language learning to understand, and try to look for you more in my day to day life!
I do have to apologize - for all the love I‘ll never be able to show you, be it from my lacking vocabulary or inability to convey my feelings. I do hope you know that no amount of letters, or words on paper would be able to count up to it – and even if my pessimistic side keeps me from admitting it, I believe my heart will forever have a space reserved for you.
you haven't walked an easy road, and I wish you can remain as happy and healthy as possible. I can't wait to see how much more you can grow as an artist and person, and I hope we'll soon get to listen to songs you produced on your group albums as you've mentioned wanting to go that for so long!! thank you for staying so strong for all this time, giving people around you and far from you strength and energy, and I hope you can forever stay truly yourself, whatever that means for you.
there're so many more emotions that I can't even convey in this letter because words are simply not enough, but I will try my best to show you love through my support in the present and future <3 thank you for being lovely to love
your moon's recommendations:
WA-R-R – Colde
this song is the first recommendation of yours that I added to my playlist, and I‘ve loved it ever since <3 I hope you can do a cover of it one day! It suits your voice a lot :(( <3 (give us more song recommendations!! your music taste is t h e best!!!)
Barve Oceana (Colors of the Ocean) – Joker Out
the song that reminds me of you, but also myself :] I know I‘ve recommended it before, but I hereby proclaim it ours~
P.S. - DayDream played just as I was about to post this 🥺🥺
overwhelmed with words
the Moon to your Bolt,
달야 ♡
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