hi kevin!
its been awhile right?
hey, im doing well but first of all im very sorry for not writing here, life been fine im very well.
i have no excuse for not writing here LOL but life is fine but its kinda flat i dont think you want to here my daily life like going to work and home repeat so i dont have anything to write to you and may almost over i guess i have to drop something here😢 but hopefully in june ill try my best to write you something
anyway i dont know if you already read it or not but dyva already wrote that we went out last saturday along with tookie and diqi. since dyva already wrote about it i wont write about it again (basically my memory already foggy from that day) im just gonna dump few picts from my phone camera hehehehe
also!! you see on the pictures theres flowers bucket right?? someone called Sadam. gave me those few weeks ago im v happy with the flowers so i brought it with me (no we dont have any relationship or talking i swear to you) (it just nice gesture from them)
also, at the beginning i told life was fine right?? but actually theres this one day, i realized i have to give up my feeling. remember ‘that person’ someone i really like that i told you here? that few months ago that we like each other but i said no we cant be together… things been bumpy between us. im in between dont want to give up that person or had enough for two months im being selfish not to let go that person i want to keep that person close, but god i turn out i shouldnt do that, i always asking for a sign to let that person go the sign ALWAYS THERE, but i was too in love to see lmao. like sometimes we talk so intense like talking stage when someone about to start relationship then we are not talking at all then we talk again…. (also i know that person kinda do lovey dovey with other person (damn its already a sign)) and one day something happened and well yeah i think i can let that person go, its gonnaaaa be sloooowww asf but anyway i guess i can! i told dyva im giving up whatever going on between us.
to think about it, i think we might hurt each other feeling like i might confused that person too like wtf i want from THIS i already said dont want any relationship (however i dont want relationship bc that person behavior behind my back lol) , but sometimes i feel like im the only one who get affected😅 i feel like this is breakup but hey we only on talking stages?????? but my heart really broke lmaooooooo also think that person get the signal, i have this playlist for that person and she knew i put two new song and the songs basically about giving up their love😭😭😭😭😭😭
i only cried once btw hehehehe anywayyyy!! im totally fine im happy its about damn time since i know i can do nothing to our “situationship” eventually we need to give up sooner or later right? anyway since i cant suddenly become stranger to that person we probably gonna be friends or at least twt mutual? idk bro at least i dont have any romantic intention to that person anymore.
now!
time to my love confession to you, damn i miss you so much sometimes i dont know what to do about it. its not easy for you to post on social media everyday but i hope life been thriving for you. please do at least tell us youre doing well by posting whatever on instastory, twt, bbl or wherever alright? dont have to be everyday tho. kevin i love youuuuu so much, you have now idea the impact you had on my life. i really hope we could see each other on august. i miss you so much!!!!
i hope on your tired you have someone to hug to lean on, you have so many people behind your back, you dont have to lonely alright…
please be happy, please be joyful kevin!
aku sayang kevin pokoknya!🩶
gra