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HEYYYY how have u been kevin! ive finally started flower snack !!!!!! on the day i started it i only let myself watch 2 episodes because i really want to take my time watching it :') first of all I KEEP ON GUSHING OVER HOW CUTE U ALL WERE ASJDNFSBDIFHUO esp u 💔💔💔 so cutie patootie i will cry 💔💔 i mentioned in earlier letters how i tried to start watching the show before but i ended up crying and was like nvm .. i felt like crying in the start very much 😻 however I MADE IT THRU 🗣🗣 i geniunely wondered how u guys felt when u all were told abt the restaurant ... i wouldnt have been able to take it very well myself :P ALSO THE WAY I CHEERED WHEN U WERE CHOSEN AS MAIN CHEF U'D THINK U'D WON THE OLYMPICS OR SMTH 😭 also i really respect u all for cooking in the summer with makeup on and all ... i cant bear only making a simple lemonade in this weather i end up sweating buckets 😓 props to u all fr 🌸🌸 i also cant help but think abt how u probably felt homsick when recording for the show ..........
also now that my exams are over, i can fall asleep a lot more peacefully 🌸 meaning that im not revising history or islamic studies in my brain whilst lying down and waiting for sleep to arrive 😋 and when i have free time, i think about things. recently i spent my time before sleeping thinking about you guys. i attempted to ... person-ify you guys in my mind. by that i mean trying to make you guys feel more like real people. AND by real people i mean like ... humans in the flesh. being a deobi for 4 years and thoughout not having seen u guys even once irl just makes it a lot more difficult to think of you guys as humans in the flesh. but being a deobi for 4 years also means feeling very familiar and at-home with you guys. so i sat down instead of lying down to sleep, calculated what time it was in korea at that moment and thought. it was 9 pm at that time, and i thought about how you guys would've been practising for the upcoming concerts, or maybe doing stuff for a new cb (yes i feel like u guys r gonna drop smth before touring 🌸) or maybe you guys would be resting and eating ice cream or drinking coffee tgt in the practice room. or you all wouldve been in your dorms and you would have probably been checking on your plants and morty. or maybe you wouldve been watching a show or you would have been working out. by this thought process you guys just somehow felt more real to me. i do not know if what im saying makes any sense to you but i still wanted to tell u anyway 🏃♀️ another time i just sat and thought abt the people i love and how lucky i am. i thought about how if you had never said yes to kpop star, ud have been teaching kg kids.
i felt really thankful and glad in that moment 💗. i actually enjoy thinking :3 i also daydream .. a lot ... these days ive been daydreaming abt going to flower snack to support u guys 🌸 im also glad that i can just think like this without having any negative thoughts pester me. when i was homesick, i was a lot more pessimistic. thank you for being the person who taught me gratitude 💗 i geniunely wonder where would i have been now if i didnt know abt u guys ....
ok but i feel like its been a while since i told you about silly memories from school :00 i mean its probably because i literally stopped going to school in the later part of the 2nd term, specifically after my mock exams ended in march 🌸 to defend myself 1) it was the month of ramadan, meaning i was fasting 2) SCHOOL IS USELESS 👎👎 IM A BIG HATER WHEN IT COMES TO THE SYSTEM but i also love my school for all the ppl ive met 🧚♀️ 3) i was attending classes at my tuition center and they had pretty much replaced school for me lmao. omg but i thought going to tuition classes during ramadan would be difficult bcs the classes would be held before fasting but God bless ... they werent bad at all 💗💗 there was this one day when i had a tuition class after my mock exams. i had to go right after my exam + i had missed the pre-dawn meal we eat to sustain ourselves through out the day 😃 this was my first time fasting without it and my schedule was rather vigorous. i thought that id be feeling like id die of hunger but i was thankfully ok :3 just very tired ... i dropped off to sleep the moment i got home, barely had any energy to change out of my uniform 😭 oh but we were going to talk abt school .. ANYWAYS !! so once the teachers had let us off early, i think it was the bio mock exam? either way, my friends and i were just talking and sitting on the benches. i noticed this horrifyingly huge flying insect near us 🌸 but it wasnt very near BUT IT WAS ALMOST AS BIG AS A FIST AND BLACK AND JUST MEGATRON 😟 at some point the insect flew right at where we were sitting and when i tell u we all RAN FOR OUR LIVES 💀💀 a while later we moved to sit next to pillars whilst playing a game on a friends phone ksdjaskdkj that was very memorable ALSO OMGOGMDS our first mock exam was a phyics one and no one had studied 🌸 this was the first time i gave my exams with 0 studying ... made me realize just how horrible my memory is 😭 BCS MY DUDE I FORGOT THE MOST BASIC OF THINGS LIKE THE NAMES OF THE TYPES OF WAVES 😭😭😭😭 WHAT 😭😭😭😭 and if u think i was being irresponsible, i was not 🙄🙄 we had our board exams in a month like girl i am not studying physics when my board exams r going to be abt history geography islam and my native language 👎👎 i'll be giving exams for phy chem bio maths and eng next year ... how will i survive? idk but that is smth to worry abt later 🌸 wait but i was talking abt the exam .. yes so no one had really studied and there was this girl next to me who kept on trying to ask me things 😞 i did my best to ignore her- see im not the person to rely on at all when attempting to cheat in an exam 😰 HOWEVER there was a girl in front of me and i was friends with her and kind of did tell her some answers ... realized at some point i was being a hypocrite so i stopped telling her things after a bit 🌸 after the paper the physics teacher approached us to ask abt the exam and i said that it was easy but it'd have gone better if i studied a bit 😰😰 and the girl i didnt help was there and was like GIRL WHY DID U NOT HELP ME IF THE PAPER WAS EASY 😡😡💢💢💢 and i was just like oh ....
OK ENOUGH ABT SCHOOL TALK LETS TALK ABT OTHER THINGS ‼‼‼ so kevin i watched asteroid city a couple few days ago :3 i knew i had to watch it when i saw the photo of the movies poster in ur room :3 it was really interesting to watch but I WAS SO UNSURE OF WHAT THE MOVIE WAS CONVEYING 😰😰 this was my first time watching a movie which was rather abstract in the way it conveyed its message, so i watched videos on yt abt it right after it was done. i feel that i'd need to watch it once again to come to my own ideas on the message of the movie :") but i LOVE LOVE LOVE literature pieces that let you interpret things and this movie is right up my alley 🗣🗣 i'd love to know your thoughts on the movie :3
ahahaha i have more things to talk abt but this letter is getting long AND i also have letters to post from my travels,,,, i'll end this letter here :3 take care of urself!! rest well eat well and DRINK UR WATER !!!!!! sending lots of love and virtual hugs <3
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