Kevin moonnn
dafafaaaaa
missin ya ~~
How are you? I hope you're doing well. I saw your story where you said that you were going to go back to work on all your demos. I am so excited. I threw some confetti in the air. Can't wait to hear everything.
I'm so grateful you had the star photo shoot !!! reading about all the different talents you have knowing there are others who may not know you yet and are learning about the kevin moon you want them to see. you get to tell ur story. tho it may bot be as transparent as you'd like; i know it's a start and i hope you feel that way too. I'm so excited the world's not ready. Secondly, those pictures turned out so!!!!!
Also I got my concert outfits already and I'm so excited because I've been planning for more than two years. but anyways, I'm so excited and I hope you're doing well. I took some pictures cause I went on a walk in the morning and I wanted to share them with you.
if you wanna share these with anyone i'm okay with that , or send the pretty flowers to 어문이 ¯\(ツ)/¯
i always wonder if that's weird or that " she probably won't want flower pics" but she comes to mind when i see them. and i know she cares about the b so i wanted to show ways of my care the best i can ~~
started this letter and then 🧍🏾♀️
when i have episodes of back to back anxiety attacks i wonder , "kevin may have to go through this but still attend schedules. and interact with those that create such volcanic tension inside." so i continue to show up , physically and mentally. bc you did/do. attending the boyz eventd with your name intertwined with all of the art and production. you put your passion into that but in the end you had to still continue to those events with the knowledge that what you created people weren't acknowledging. And I want to say i'm sorry.
i had an awful day at work to put it nicely. There were so many emergencies and things that needed to be done and it's not like we were shortstaffed. It's the fact that the people that were there were passive aggressively putting it on me. I want to help the patient and I wanna make the entire experience fluid because I've been the other side. and so having only my tunnel vision, i didn't see how the power imbalance created such an avoidable weight on my mental health. my fellow staff member was training and so it was just me and the nurse when it should be 4. with them being older, a lot of the responsibilities are shoved to me bc i'm " younger and have more energy". and I do acknowledge that being in the south does have a very big effect on work dynamic. I've noticed that's so frequent.
I had an interview for another job because I've been looking for lots of reasons ( won't go into detail un this letter). a lot of the scenarios they were asking me in the interview were things that had happened the prior day and it was really triggering when I was driving to work this morning. I had an anxiety attack that i habdnmy expirenced it in such a wat for two years. I felt like I was being reverted to the version of myself when I was still living at home, I hadn't really put in the work to heal because I didn't know how to heal, a place of just fear.
I made a countdown on my phone for zeneration. of when I get to see the boyz in concert just so that I have that to look forward to. I just wanna say how grateful I am to you for being kevin moon and having you in my life is so much more a blessing and a gift and I can never describe my gratitude. i think that's why I pray for you so frequently,, i think because i think that's the only way I know how to? even in my ramblings I hope it touches your heart to know that, no matter the time zone, there will always be someone praying over you and doing their darndest to love you in their own capacity. from canada ( da fam+ friends), to america( me ), to seoul ( da fam + friends pt 2). AHHH GRAB YOU FORKS; exept it's kevin moon protection club. gotta come up with a better name. i am open to taking suggestions. all that to say thank you.
am I constantly changing what my favorite picture is every time you upload a picture? Absolutely.
jacob is so cute 😭 i had the interview the day he did his birthday live that morning 😭 it made me so happy so early in the morning. it usually takes to mid afternoon to feel this way
you can add it to your growing vinyl collection. Sometimes I think about the fact that you use the vinyls that were purchased for your birthday and it makes me happy :3
i set a countdown on my phone for atl!!!!!
xoxoxo
bukky