I miss you, my moon.
I've been quiet the last few weeks because my energy is really low (again). But I was so happy to read your recent messages and watch your Welive 💛 It improved my mood by 300%. I love seeing you being you. And your company is something that always makes things seem better. I feel at peace!
I know you're very busy, right? Getting ready for the tour and the new album... I know it must be tiring, so I'm here sending you good energy! You can do it, Keb Kebinnie! 🫡💛
Btw, I saw you talking about Road to Kingdom in the messages. This week there were several videos posted by the fandom and I always get emotional after watching them. You are incredible, I will never get tired of saying it. And getting to know behind the scenes, all the effort you guys had to put to make everything happen... I can only feel enormous admiration for each one of you, for all the courage and strength you have. You are my heroes! 🥺🫂
Well, updating you on some things, last week I visited a very interesting building. I studied it a lot in college, it's the project of a very famous architect, Lina Bo Bardi. This project is quite emblematic in that she transformed an old factory into one of the most interesting cultural spaces in the city, highlighting industrial architecture. It is a very pleasant fusion of materialities, with the raw form of concrete, the lightness of steel and brick walls. I walked around the building in love and was also able to watch a very interesting exhibition. The purpose of the visit was to go to the library to study with my sister, but it was great to analyze the building a little, especially now that I'm somewhat absent from architecture.
I'm studying for a test, a specific objective for something that is not very connected to my profession. I'll be honest in saying that I decided to take a break from my profession as an architect and urban planner. I can't be the Fath architect now. I can't be her. And it was very painful to realize that.
Despite loving my profession in terms of knowledge and everything I learned, life as an architecture professional gives me nightmares. I realized that with every resume I sent out, every interview I had, I felt exhausted. That's because it's not what I want to do. At least not now.
I admit it's not really in my character to back down or give up or whatever, but I feel like if I didn't I would be crossing a line. And the result would not be positive. So I decided to change the course of my life, at least temporarily. Not working as an architect now doesn't stop me from changing my mind in a few years. But what I need now is to try to be honest with myself. And regardless of any judgment (which I know is already happening), I need to be real with what I believe in for myself. And working without being happy is not one of them.
I miss being an obstinate person with something that interests me, you know? The last time I felt this way was when I wrote my scientific initiation by analyzing a carbon calculator for landscapes. It was one of the most incredible moments of my life because I saw meaning in what I was doing. I saw a purpose. And I think doing things with a purpose makes everything different.
That's why I intend to dedicate myself to this test, get this job, and then be able to return to my studies again. Do a postgraduate degree in climatology or a master's degree involving something like that, who knows. But being able to return to what makes my heart happy.
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Wow, what a long letter... I'm sorry.
Finally, I want to share this drawing I made of you. The last few days have been quite tiring and I have felt sad several times. And when that happens, I find comfort in drawing you. Once again, thank you for being the person my brain goes to when I need to smile. My precious Kev! 🫂💛
Te amo, Binnie Binnie.
Have a great weekend!
- Fath