Helloooo Eric! Haha.
잘지내고있나유~
You know I was looking at my older posts for you and the other members and some of them weren't even too long ago but why are they so embarrassing LMAO 😭😭😭 If I ended up sounding weird and all before, first of all I am so sorry hahahaha. First, I'm a yapper, but second, I'm just a very random person LOL Anyway! Still, it was nice to look back at them for the memories, I guess? 😂
Recently I've been struggling to find motivation to go to school 😅 Mostly because I'm SO tired. Aside from that, it's probably because.... I'm so tired. yeah. HAHAHA. No but I guess aside from that, I don't really have anyone to talk to lol. 😭 My social life is so sad, I swear 😭 I have friends outside college of course, but like, every time I go to school, I'm just: 🧍♀️. Haha. 😢😢😢😢😢 (쓸쓸)
But yeah, anyway! Nowadays, as I watch more TBZ content and catch up, I don't know why I've been more in the mood for your music, haha. Like, I listen to a LOOOT of music and I sometimes listen to completely different genres and artists depending on my mood and my ears' cravings. But nowadays, I've been craving that "The Boyz sound" for some unknown reason, LOL. Which is whyyyy I'm even more excited for your concert! Haha. Did you know I literally had a dream the other night about attending a The Boyz concert after I slept from binge-ing content 😂 It was pretty cool, actually. There were like 2 days and for some reason, Coldplay first had a concert on the 1st day in the same venue you guys had yours the next day, lol. I remember we were late for the TBZ concert and for some reason also, we entered riding on this thing that looked like the upside down rollercoaster (the one where you're hanging?) but without the tracks, hahaha. So we arrived at the venue from above you guys 😂😂 That was so weird, lol. And I remember there was a slight malfunction so the thing we were riding on went forward and got really close to you guys so I remember taking a close-up video shot of Sunwoo 😂 Anyway it was still a fun dream because I got to see you guys even if it was through a dream! 😆 Because of that I overslept until 2 in the afternoon 💀 Oh well. Haha.
Honestly I've already had a lot of dreams where you guys were in it and it's always so much fun, lol. Because from what I remember, they're mostly concerts and fanmeets haha. I always try to write or type down those kinds of dreams in my notes app or messenger as soon as I wake up, actually. I tend to forget the details of my dreams like 5-ish minutes after I wake up so yeah 🥲 also for the memories haha. Anyway!!! This just means I have to go to your concert here in the PH!!! 🙏
And yes. I hope you're doing okay, Eric! Because I'm not 😃 HAHAHA just kidding (or am I? 🤨) Anyway...! 😭 I always feel so worried about every coming school day that I just want to melt away 🫠 Even more especially so because there are too many things I'm still unsure of... /sighs/ 😮💨
But yeah, I hope that tomorrow will be kinder to you 🥹 I feel like I say this all the time hahaha but: (1) I'm running out of words to say, and (2) I really mean it. 😆
Also just leaving a small thought here~ hehe. There might be times where we feel like all things we're doing are in vain, but don't forget that everyone's a work in progress 🤍 Just like they've had their own time, you and I will have our own time, too! I think it's important to remember that especially when we feel like nothing's coming out from working hard and hard every single day 🥲 And also when we make mistakes or reveal imperfect sides of ourselves even when we didn't intend to. Because there's no way we're living life with all the pieces collected. Also remember that nothing is ever pointless! That one small step is a big point in itself to a line that I'm sure will lead you to somewhere. It's difficult to believe in things like that (I get it myself) because life is so unknown and everything feels like a gamble but I think that the fact that we're still able to experience good things and fun moments in life are proof that the good stuff are still meant to exist. You know? 🥲 So yeah. Haha.
So so so thankful for every one of you, always. Writing this as Brighter starts playing on shuffle... ✍️😭 And at 5 in the morning! Hahahahaha, the timing lol. I love that song. I hope I could hear it live one day ;(
Will be taking my leave now and I hope I can go back here again soon! 언제나 고맙고 아끼고 응원하고 사랑할게요, Eric! 어제, 오늘도, 내일도 🤍 We got your back whenever and always ;)
그리고 of course today's 소확행:
- 자유시간 좀 생겼어
- 더보이즈 콘텐츠 많이 봤지롱 😋 (덕분에 많이 웃었어 ㅎㅎ)
- 밖에 가서 남동생이랑 같이 영화관에 드라마 영화 봤음
- 맛있는 음식 먹어쓰
- 잠 많이 잤어😭😭🙏 (보통은 2~4시간만 자서)