[케빈] a letter from leaf 🌱 #69 alexa play true friends by BMTH

[Leaf]

binnie!

I think this is the longest I've gone without writing so far, and tbh I was meant to write to you multiple times before this but...life kinda got in the way.

had another scary health episode, been in and out of a&e, my grandma isn't doing well, my (non immediate, thank god) family is lowkey falling apart, and to make matters worse- the UK is BOILING rn. but thats eh so ill get to the good stuff

In my last letter I said I'd write when I had an update on my business project...and I do! as of right now, I have a fully working website, all the shipping costs have been figured out, AND the sample was shipped out yesterday !!!

kev...its ADORABLE. I'm actually so emotional thinking back on how it was just a little doodle (well, an 11 hour doodle) and now its real!! it'll arrive next week and I'll be able to test the quality irl then, but then its onto actually promoting and trying to sell it!! aaa!!!

its actually really good because by the time the interest check is done and it can be put on the website and everything, FirstKhao will have started shooting for The Heart Killers which I'm soooooo excited for. I really hope people love this project as much as I do.

unfortunately I do have some...kinda sad news. while we both know ill probably pull through somehow anyway- I'm having thoughts about whether or not ill be able to make it to London in September 😔 I know I previously told you about a specific plan with this, but my friend who I was supposed to be going with didnt actually tell me she wasn't going anymore. so I booked the hotel for both of us and THEN found out she wasn't going. which is...fine. i get its expensive to fly so far but...she couldve told me first, you know? it was so upsetting and stressful it triggered a really painful physical flare up and thats kinda what caused the "should I even go" thoughts that then proceeded to get louder and louder. if I do go, then ill see you there. but if I don't, and I'm really sorry if I can't, please know its literally just because I no longer have a friend to go with and being alone health wise is super dangerous for me. I've been able to manage it in the past, but you know how things how gotten worse...I can't risk it. so we shall see. but again I'm just so mad I wasn't told sooner so it wasn't such a huge stressor ;-; as the title says- alexa, play true friends (because Oli Sykes is right. true friends stab you in the front)

Anyways that aside, BL discussion of the day, which atp should have a name so uh... welcome to

✨BL with TheB✨

in this weeks installment: we reach episode 4 of both Love Sea and My Love Mix Up this week. For Love Sea...genuinely so ready for the story line to pick up, yes the spice was great but the emotional scenes in episode 3 had me in tears and I need MORE. My Love Mix Up is also starting to pick up now, but I'm calling it (and will update on if this becomes a thing) that the Carrot and Cabbage blanket that Atom and Kongthap own WILL be merch (and I WILL be getting it). would convince my best friend to go halfsies with me, but our friendship is already a little blurry as is...and as much as I love where its kinda heading, I don't wanna lose it if I'm seeing it wrong you know? so yeah. calling it now- those blankets will be merch and I will NOT be missing out again like I did with My School President. Also this week- Wandee Goodday episode 9!!! I can't believe its almost over. I'm so grateful for this show seriously, the rep of asexuality, s-ual health, consent, and signs to spot danger have been absolutely amazing to see. I really hope more BL shows will go down this route too in the future, as these topics are so so so important to remember and take in.

also in BL news, actors Both and NewYear officially got engaged yesterday!! they've been together for years, and technically both proposed last year, but now with gay marriage being legal in Thailand, they made it official and will be finally getting married T^T as someone who has followed them for 6 years...I'm so emotional.

okay BL talk over for now.

So...I know I've been a bit ia for fanart. well...I can finally reveal some things

1. the commission i told you about before is done! it turns out...it was for Ina!! Ina was the wonderful bean who put together the Lip Gloss group cover I was in and idk if you remember, but she also let me share her account to watch The B Road with her!!

2. me and another deobi you know and love (and who you may have noticed has also been a bit ia too) will be working on a collab over the next few weeks 🥺 im so excited since I love collabs, but also because the theme is one you already know I feel a lot towards, and it'll be a chance to draw you again!!! these past few weeks have literally been so focused on style finding, commissions, and right now I'm painting a BL actor for my mom since her birthday is in 2 days...I should really hurry with that.

3. ill be taking a month or so to focus on designing prints for my shop to go with the hoodie designs (both the one currently sold and the next one to come as a way of announcing the next design) and then after that I'll be potentially able to update the Darlingie dress up game!! its been a while but I wanna add some more options...and since it might be around sep-oct...I've got a few ideas up my sleeve hehe >.>

as I said, I need my hand to nyoom today to get this joong done. I'll be off for now, but ill come back next week to show the hoodie to you!!!

ilytt🌙ab

leaf 🌱

TW // Food

p.s. my song rec for todays letter HAS to be Its You from My Love Mix Up. the way Gem and Fot's voices go together so harmoniously are just so...a a a. shall also recommend Check Me from Only Boo which is quite honestly a bop

this one this one this one. but Re Move On is good too. very different vibe. its more boppy

p.p.s I made this pasta salad yesterday and it was so good I just need to share it here

ate the whole thing within an hour 😌 leaf who only just started writing to you over 2 years ago is quaking rn

p.p.p.s. Happy June. I was dumb again KDJSKSJSJS

rainbow dash found jobless

OKAY BYEEEE HAVE A GREAT DAY STAY HYDRATED REST WELL