Dearest Eric,
happy july!! it's finally my birthday month~
you've worked hard for half of the year already!! now in the second half you'll get to shine on stages all across the globe~✨
more important than anything, please take a lot of care to stay healthy and injury-free! you're always doing an amazing job, so just stay happy and we'll also all be happy :] hopefully we can all live through 2024 with happiness, health and peace in all of its forms <3
i know you're preparing hard for the concert - which I can't even believe is in two weeks..? but I hope the preparations also go well!
somehow I didn't realize that Mo and I are performing Honey in exactly a week from today as well- and I can't lie, I'm not as ready for it as I thought I'd be.. I'm scared of not doing well or not showing a good enough performance, especially since it's your song...
I can't even figure out why I just seem to be getting worse, but I somehow lost all of these details and sharp moves I had when first learning the choreography - and can't seem to get them back. it's so frustrating, and although I know I'm not a professional, dancing is literally just a hobby, I'm not satisfied with it... my knee condition hasn't been good either, I had to resort to using my support band/brace almost every day..
I'm not the type to admit that they're having a hard time, so I'm really sorry that I'm using a letter to you as a place to vent.. but sometimes it's better to tell someone :')
if I remember correctly you mentioned sometimes wondering how some of us deal with our own problems besides being fans..? but I think my problem solving is really not interesting- I just push through I guess? LMAO
it might sound like a T person, but if I for example can't get a sequence of moves right, like today, I just keep trying until I get at least a pinch of progress. like- I kept messing up this one part of the choreography, so I just kept going even if it was frustrating enough to make me cry (I cried five times today literally don't even ask me about it... I'm the crybaby™) but I couldn't just leave it be.. so I did it for 10+ times until I succeeded!
I remember doing the same when I couldn't catch the timing for the end of 'How you like that' when I had a week to prepare and film it in 2021 - so I did just the floor parts alone for 40 minutes until it finally aligned (and then got my knees badly bruised.. was worth it tho!)
I wouldn't really suggest my method to anyone because it's really insensitive? however I do wanna know how you deal with frustrating situations like that, or when you feel down or disappointed.
and also thank you for being comforting and giving us so much love all the time, even in moments like those - I hope we can be of just as much comfort if you need it ♡
아무튼 onto smth more positive!! I decided to revamp my to-watch list(s) and actually sit down to watch movies and kdramas that I didn't have the time for in the last 4 years - and I just know I'll be heartbroken over a good portion of them :,D
I've never been too big of a movie nor drama watching person, and I actually hate rewatching stuff - but there's a few I've seen time and time again, and can't seem to be tired of (Pride and Prejudice, Dead poets society and The Wave are my faves!)
really looking forward to "10 things I hate about you" and "Perks of being a wallflower"! those are a priority, as well as "The Notebook"... if you cried watching it, I'll definitely cry too...
also! I hope the weather in Korea has been nice, although I think I saw it's been rainy recently..? we had a giant storm a few nights ago, and the weather has been pretty cold since then, but I'm enjoying it so much ^^ it does get warm here and there, but nothing close to the 30°C+ we had! I also really love rain, although the entire city was flooded... I missed the opportunity to go out for a walk in the rain due to studying ://
I'm writing really late again, so I feel like I have to cut this short and get some sleep before faking that I'm taking an exam tomorrow (I'll explain in another letter T-T) but there's so much left unsaid :(( I promise to come back and yap more soon! until then - only have happy days and sleep well! I know it's already the morning for you, so I hope you spend your friday well, that you get to rest enough over the weekend even if you practice - and more than anything know you're always veryvery loved ♡
music recs;
wave - wave to earth
SKINNY - Billie Eilish
Prologue - aespa
and 22 :) I'm so excited and can't wait to hear your first feature!!! you're doing so well~
S2 my love :)
Your Moon,
달야 ♡
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