Hello Kevin Babeskie
*whispers* can I still call you that? Am I still allowed to write that ? 😅😁
*deep dramatic sigh*
Here I am again after how many months.
So many events that I missed about y'all.
(I am deeply sorry for slacking off as a TheB.)
Anyway
All of your Achievements -including awards etc.
from YT contents, Albums and concerts and more, were one of those many proofs of what real Artists/Idol you all are. Y'all doing the best and I can really see how far and successful y'all THE BOYZ are now. And you had no idea how it is such an honor to be a TheB - I will always be proud of THE BOYZ and will never be ashamed (to the whole Universe) that I am a fan. (though I might've slacked but my mind never wanders away to any of you)
I have some things I would like to share with you regarding about my past letters (if ever it has reached out to you).
Regarding about my application for BFP
- welp 🙌 I didn't made it.
BUT BUT BUTTTTTTTTTTT
I am a Teacher na Kevin 🤧
Like a regular High School Teacher. ´・ᴗ・`
Alot of things/events happened within the past 2 years since then, so many life choices that were complicated. In the end I chose what I felt was my true calling. (I have been a Substitute Teacher first before I became a Regular employee) - and during my Sub experiences eventhough it was only for 6 months, TRUST me✋. Like it was really a huge turn in my life, I never imagine the first 3 months experiences would make such a huge impact with the choices of my life career wise. Then another opportunity 1 month again, and after that I had another 2 months contract. I did go with the flow at the same time trying my best to love my job. And NOW Kevin babe, this is more than a job now *nods nods nods nods nods*.
Believe me, I have never ever thought that this work will make my heart beat at ease, will give me love, will give me smile (though its not really ideal at all times), will bring me happiness eventhough sometimes struggle and mostly PAIN in my heart. (Cringeeeeeeey I know but for real) Why pain?
Well I think most of those who are in this field will relate to this, the very thought of my Students will only passes by after their terms at school. I am only a temporary parent and after their Graduation they will part ways and will be far to reach their Dreams in their own lives. It's just the kind of bond or attachments with my students, witnessing their strong points and weak points academically, their talents, their progress/growth be it in the four corners or outside/inside the campus.
*sighhhh*
Some of them sharing their life stories etc. which gave me inspiration and hope for them. I may be the one catering them for them to learn but I also get to learn from them. I have seen their struggles, their smiles on every victory, their tears and all. It melts my heart Kevin. I am always rooting for each one of them. And I believe they'll gonna get far.
I never knew this is the feeling of being in this field is soooo -welp 🙉
It is just amazing. Like how it is being a fan of yours was and is amazing.
Anywayyyyyyyyy enough of my drama.
Also, Kevin babe I promised myself that after I save up some money, I will buy atleast an Album and even one merch (if there is any available) of THE BOYZ. I will do it for me. This is the only thing that I want as a gift for myself. After the dramas these past months. I am allowed to do this right? And I am so much Excited (〜^∇^)〜
And
Your World Tour Zenerations is such a success and the upcoming WTZ II for sure will be as well.
I am so happy for y'all and for all TheBs that will witness y'all doing KING things at stage again.
You guys have been doing alot recently, I just hope y'all are still getting enough sleep and rest and meal.
I will watch later tonight some of your content at YT that I've missed. Will binge watch and stream y'all music videos again after that. I really really missed ALL OF THE BOYZ soooooooooooooo much.
I hope in the near future I will be able to attend or witness your Concert. I hope I could at least see y'all toothy smiles. *aaaghhhhhhh* I can't help but get excited for the future ahead.
BUT anyway, I also do hope eventhough y'all are busy, despite all of it most certainly I knew y'all are enjoying what y'all doing and as the well-known saying goes, You only live once. If you don’t seize the moment, it will be lost forever. Each morning we spend in the world, every moment we spend with our loved ones is infinitely valuable and deserves our full attention. We don’t know when life will end. Each day could be our last. No one can be sure when they go to sleep that they will open their eyes again the next morning. And by the thought or just thinking all of this it'll take us away from causing sadness or worry, hence it'll gives us inspiration to enjoy every moment of our lives. I do hope y'all live your present full of meaning and truest Joy.
And NOT TO INVALIDATE any feelings of worries etc. But the CHOICE really is up to us. It is just important to remember that еасh choice carries with itѕ rеwаrdѕ and соnѕеquеnсеѕ.
It's just now or never. As what I remember which Marcus Aurelius writes in his Meditations, that the drama of existence is not death but never having begun to live.
So living the moment without wasting our energy on negative stuffs yeah- 🤷 etc. I trust you get what my point is.
*another dramatic sigh*
Anywaaaaaayyyyyyyy
This has been a long long letter, I hope this letter reached out to you.
Again and again
I love you all 💗
(Until the next 📝)
~💛~ 𝒩𝒶𝓉𝒽𝑒𝒶 ~🖤~