i reorganuze my plan and think twice about it. what i really wanna do. and keep saying myself this sentence 'if today is the last day of my life, would i wanna do what i am about to do.' if i have only 2years to live what am i gonna do? i ask myself. and the questions and answer is based on the bucket list. but i think something need something is not concrete but kinda abstract. so i come up with this sentence. ' i wanna be different i am not a man i used to be.' what kinda different first be cool now i am kinda narrow minded. i should be cool. how? i think its the best way to be different that i learn foreign language and next i met foreign friends. someone says if you wanna be different do those stuff first change.the way u use the time .second change the people you meet third change the place you live. learning language get two parts come true. first and second. if i am really good in language i could get the third.22.i dont knwo if i am good enough i dont know if i could do that but something certain without change i would be dying. i dont know if you want it but its here. cut me some.slack i could cut him some slack. i am sort of in love. look so familiar. why dont i just why dont we why dont i remember it.what happened to you. place. i should change it. 30. the soop is a little blanding is there anyway to expedite it. did you have anything special during the vacation. bitter blanding family owned and operated shop its just.that jhon and i had a falling out falling out. it just that i wait for you for a good hour. its just that she did some mistakes its just.that.you did your best you know. know i am confused and a little frightened. scary scared. it disclose reveal everything i wanna hide and never wanna remember. please accept it accept accept