We must all be cut out for what we do, he thought. However you make your living is where your talent lies.
모든 사람은 자기가 제일 잘 할 수 있는 일을 하면서 살도록 그렇게 태어난다. 하지만[however] 해리는 소설가로서의 재능이 없는데 그 일을 제일 잘 할 수 있는 일이라고 착각하고 살아왔다는 뜻. your talent lies에서 lies는 당신의 재능이 있는 곳이라는 뜻이기도 하고, 소설가로서의 당신의 재능이라고 하면 거짓말하는 곳이라는 뜻이기도 하다. 소설가로서 소설을 쓰는 것이 아니라 거짓말을 했다면 그것은 진정한 재능(talent)이라고 할 수 없다.
He had sold vitality, in one form or another, all his life and when your affections are not too involved you give much better value for the money.
- 그는 생명력을 이런 저런 저런 형태로 자기의 일생 동안 팔아왔으며(had sold 과거완료) 당신의 애정이 몰입이 안 될 때, 돈에 훨씬 더 좋은 가치를 준다.
자기의 생명을 팔아서 소설을 써왔다는 것.
언제나 애정이 부족할 때에는 돈이 훨씬 더 큰 가치로 다가온다(현재형)
인간의 생명은 돈으로 사고 팔 수 없는 것인데 사고 파는 것으로 말한다. 자기가 재능이 없었기 때문에 생명을 주고 자기의 소설을 샀다는 얘기가 된다.
He had found that out but he would never write that, now, either. No, he would not write that, although it was well worth writing.
Now she came in sight, walking across the open toward the camp. She was wearing jodphurs and carrying her rifle.
- jodphurs : 현재는 jodhpurs가 맞는 표기법. 승마복의 일종. 인도의 Marwar 왕국의 Joddhpur라는 주의 이름에서 유래.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jodhpurs
The two boys had a Tommie slung and they were coming along behind her.
- Tommie (영양) : 10쪽 중간에서는 Tommy ram (숫양) / 3쪽에 a few Tommies
해리가 멀리서 사냥한 짐승을 두 소년이 메고 오는 것을 보았을 때에는 Tommie(영양)으로 보였는데 실제로 잡은 것은 Tommy ram(숫양)이었다는 것을 알 수 있다. 헬렌이 말한다: I shot a Tommy ram.
She was still a good-looking woman, he thought, and she had a pleasant body. She had a great talent and appreciation for the bed, she was not pretty, but he liked her face, she read enormously, liked to ride and shoot and, certainly, she drank too much. Her husband had died when she was still a comparatively young woman and for a while she had devoted herself to her two just-grown children, who did not need her and were embarrassed at having her about, to her stable of horses, to books, and to bottles. She liked to read in the evening before dinner and she drank Scotch and soda while she read. By dinner she was fairly drunk and after a bottle of wine at dinner she was usually drunk enough to sleep.
That was before the lovers. After she had the lovers she did not drink so much because she did not have to be drunk to sleep. But the lovers bored her. She had been married to a man who had never bored her and these people bored her very much.
- these people bored her very much : She loved anything that was exciting, that involved a change of scene, where there were new people and where things were pleasant. (8쪽 밑)
Then one of her two children was killed in a plane crash and after that was over she did not want the lovers, and drink being no anæsthetic she had to make another life. Suddenly, she had been acutely frightened of being alone. But she wanted some one that she respected with her.
It had begun very simply. She liked what he wrote and she had always envied the life he led. She thought he did exactly what he wanted to. The steps by which she had acquired him and the way in which she had finally fallen in love with him were all part of a regular progression in which she had built herself a new life and he had traded away what remained of his old life.
소설가로서의 생명이 끝난 상태에서 만났기 때문에 그의 옛 삶, 즉 소설가로서의 삶에서 남아 있는 것은 거의 없다고 볼 수 있다. 그런데도 여자는 해리가 쓴 소설을 좋아했고 해리는 자기의 소설가로서의 삶에서 거의 남은 것이 없는 찌꺼기를 가지고 그녀와 거래를 했다는 것이다. 소설가로서의 철저한 자기 반성을 볼 수 있다.
He had traded it for security, for comfort too, there was no denying that, and for what else? He did not know. She would have bought him anything he wanted. He knew that. She was a damned nice woman too. He would as soon be in bed with her as any one; rather with her, because she was richer, because she was very pleasant and appreciative and because she never made scenes.
그는 다른 여자와 마찬가지로 곧바로 잠자리를 함께 하고 싶었다; 그녀와는 좀 더 빨리 하고 싶었다. 왜냐하면 그녀는 더 부자였고...
And now this life that she had built again was coming to a term because he had not used iodine two weeks ago when a thorn had scratched his knee as they moved forward trying to photograph a herd of waterbuck standing, their heads up, peering while their nostrils searched the air, their ears spread wide to hear the first noise that would send them rushing into the bush. They had bolted, too, before he got the picture.
Here she came now.
He turned his head on the cot to look toward her. “Hello,” he said.
“I shot a Tommy ram,” she told him. “He’ll make you good broth and I’ll have them mash some potatoes with the Klim. How do you feel?”
- Klim : 분유의 한 종류의 제품 이름. Milk를 거꾸로 발음하면 Klim이 된다.
https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Klim_(powdered_milk)