Good morning Eunho! I hope that you had the great great greatest birthday ever!!!!!!
Woa I got so much to say, maybe today letter will be the longest one I have written so far haha.
I miss you so much Eunho, it has been a week since the last time I wrote a letter for you TT TT. The days felt so empty when they ended because I didn’t got the time to talk with you through those letters:(. I was so busy these days, both in working and preparing gifts for you!!
You know Eunho, I have written a song for you as a birthday gift! I made a lyrics video too but I only posted it on my social medias because my singing wasn’t so perfect and I wrote it in my language, it will be embarrassing showing it to you so I only show you a scene in my lyrics video.
If I am lucky enough and fate chooses to let you listen to it, then you will find it somewhere on the internet one day hehe. The only thing I wish is my love words can be with many peuldoongies’ out there hugging your sleep peacefully, that is the highest point that I aimed to when writing those love lyrics for you<3333
I can also show you some translation of the lyrics:
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The twenties falling in love, so the heart acknowledges how wide it can be.
Even when time won’t stop flying, love will always stay the same,
The happiness when thinking of him won’t stop staying on my lips,
So when the pain comes to play around, it will feel just like a wind,
Soon flows away, leaving us here loving each other again.
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You can find the rest of it when it gets luckily found out by you on the internet hehe.
I also prepared something else for you, unfortunately it wasn’t right here at your birthday time, but still I want to show you, so please wait for it<3333
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I have watched your birthday stream! It was really cute haha. I couldn’t hold my yelling when you started appearing on the screen!!!! “YAAAAA WHAT WITH THE OUTFIT WHAT WITH THE LOOK IT IS WAYS TOO CUTEEEEEEE!!!!”, like that hahaha. You were too cute that at some points I just feel so annoyed, like you know that “cute aggression” feeling – you feel so angry because your mind can’t handle something that is overcute. Once again you pleased us with the whole mini concert with so many song performances, oh how wonderful you are Eunho, I won’t be able to handle your love for peuldoongies uwwaaaa!!
And also congratulation for making the shirt you wore got that many selling!! It is because of you that it got that much buying, PLAVE is getting ways more and more popular, so be confident in yourself about that! Haha it is so cute how you guys be doing the whole kowtow to show your thanks to the fans.
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So much fun, but so emotional too.
I read your letter in the early of the morning already.
Ah Eunho, do you know the image of a very big bottle that contains a great amount of water but only has a very small and narrow bottleneck? That is how my heart feels like. Too many emotions but words are too little for me to describe it, suppressing my heart so heavily and throbbingly. That moment reading your letter, I didn’t know what else to do to handle all of those feelings surrounding, but crying. I feel like each tears falling down was the only way that described clearly what I felt, it came straight from the bottom of my heart.
I tried reading the letter again and again so many times so that I could get used to the feeling, but I couldn’t. The more I read, the more heavy my heart got. That part where you said sorry, was the one stabbing my heart the most. I have to be honest, if I could meet you in real life after reading the letter, I would definitely punch you at least once and cry so hard after that. Please! Stop saying sorry! You are doing more than enough for me, for us, for all the peuldoongies!! It will never be your fault for what happened and will happen, because loving you, loving PLAVE, is the rightest decision I have ever made! Seeing you saying sorry made me feel like I haven’t done enough, which was really sad. However from that, I feel like I need to do more, and I want to do more, like so many fans out there, to the point that you won’t have to say sorry ever again.
And I saw the latest birthday image of you too.
Something about your smile just keeps me so at ease. It is like a dark room with such gentle moonlight, a warm hug for a sorrow soul. My heart said something to me:
-This is the smile that you have to use your whole life to protect.
You know Eunho, there is a series called 如懿傳 (Ruyi’s Royal Love in the Palace). The king only spoke three words to Ruyi “你放心” (Don’t worry) and that was enough for her to keep her love and forgiveness for him until the end, to stand up again after so many oceans of tears. Just like that, Eunho’s smile, the “don’t worry” from Eunho’s letter to me, to all the peuldoongies, is enough for me to bear against it all. I have to stay alive, to fight, so that I can protect that smile at all cost. Therefore, please also receive my “don’t worry”!
I will never be able to stop saying I love you Eunho, and that is the thing that keep me alive too. As long as my heart is still printed those words, I know that I still love this life so much. Thank you so much Eunho, for being born into this world.