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(영미 명작 감상) 2023. 04. 15. 제 36 차
To kill a Mockingbird
by Harper Lee
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Chapter 14
from page 180
Although we heard no more about the Finch family from Aunt Alexandra, we
heard plenty from the town. On Saturdays, armed with our nickels, when Jem
permitted me to accompany him (he was now positively allergic to my presence
when in public), we would squirm our way through sweating sidewalk crowds
and sometimes hear, “There’s his chillun,” or, “Yonder’s some Finches.” Turning
to face our accusers, we would see only a couple of farmers studying the enema
bags in the Mayco Drugstore window. Or two dumpy countrywomen in straw hats
sitting in a Hoover cart.
“They c’n go loose and rape up the countryside for all of ‘em who run this county
care,” was one obscure observation we met head on from a skinny gentleman
when he passed us. Which reminded me that I had a question to ask Atticus.
“What’s rape?” I asked him that night.
Atticus looked around from behind his paper. He was in his chair by the window.
As we grew older, Jem and I thought it generous to allow Atticus thirty minutes to
himself after supper.
He sighed, and said rape was carnal knowledge of a female by force and without
consent.
“Well if that’s all it is why did Calpurnia dry me up when I asked her what it
was?”
Atticus looked pensive. “What’s that again?”
“Well, I asked Calpurnia comin‘ from church that day what it was and she said
ask you but I forgot to and now I’m askin’ you.”
His paper was now in his lap. “Again, please,” he said.
I told him in detail about our trip to church with Calpurnia. Atticus seemed to
enjoy it, but Aunt Alexandra, who was sitting in a corner quietly sewing, put
down her embroidery and stared at us.
“You all were coming back from Calpurnia’s church that Sunday?”
Jem said, “Yessum, she took us.”
I remembered something. “Yessum, and she promised me I could come out to her
house some afternoon. Atticus. I’ll go next Sunday if it’s all right, can I? Cal said
she’d come get me if you were off in the car.”
“You may not.”
Aunt Alexandra said it. I wheeled around, startled, then turned back to Atticus in
time to catch his swift glance at her, but it was too late. I said, “I didn’t ask you!”
For a big man, Atticus could get up and down from a chair faster than anyone I
ever knew. He was on his feet. “Apologize to your aunt,” he said.
“I didn’t ask her, I asked you—”
Atticus turned his head and pinned me to the wall with his good eye. His voice
was deadly: “First, apologize to your aunt.”
“I’m sorry, Aunty,” I muttered.
“Now then,” he said. “Let’s get this clear: you do as
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Calpurnia tells you, you do
as I tell you, and as long as your aunt’s in this house, you will do as she tells you.
Understand?”
I understood, pondered a while, and concluded that the only way I could retire
with a shred of dignity was to go to the bathroom, where I stayed long enough to
make them think I had to go. Returning, I lingered in the hall to hear a fierce
discussion going on in the livingroom. Through the door I could see Jem on the
sofa with a football magazine in front of his face, his head turning as if its pages
contained a live tennis match.
“...you’ve got to do something about her,” Aunty was saying. “You’ve let things
go on too long, Atticus, too long.”
“I don’t see any harm in letting her go out there. Cal’d look after her there as well
as she does here.”
Who was the “her” they were talking about? My heart sank: me. I felt the starched
walls of a pink cotton penitentiary closing in on me, and for the second time in
my life I thought of running away. Immediately.
“Atticus, it’s all right to be soft-hearted, you’re an easy man, but you have a
daughter to think of. A daughter who’s growing up.”
“That’s what I am thinking of.”
“And don’t try to get around it. You’ve got to face it sooner or later and it might
as well be tonight. We don’t need her now.”
Atticus’s voice was even: “Alexandra, Calpurnia’s not leaving this house until she
wants to. You may think otherwise, but I couldn’t have got along without her all
these years. She’s a faithful member of this family and you’ll simply have to
accept things the way they are. Besides, sister, I don’t want you working your
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no reason to do that. We still need Cal as much as we ever did.”
“But Atticus—”
“Besides, I don’t think the children’ve suffered one bit from her having brought
them up. If anything, she’s been harder on them in some ways than a mother
would have been... she’s never let them get away with anything, she’s never
indulged them the way most colored nurses do. She tried to bring them up
according to her lights, and Cal’s lights are pretty good—and another thing, the
children love her.”
I breathed again. It wasn’t me, it was only Calpurnia they were talking about.
Revived, I entered the livingroom. Atticus had retreated behind his newspaper and
Aunt Alexandra was worrying her embroidery. Punk, punk, punk, her needle
broke the taut circle. She stopped, and pulled the cloth tighter: punk-punk-punk.
She was furious.
Jem got up and padded across the rug. He motioned me to follow. He led me to
his room and closed the door. His face was grave.
“They’ve been fussing, Scout.”
Jem and I fussed a great deal these days, but I had never heard of or seen anyone
quarrel with Atticus. It was not a comfortable sight.
“Scout, try not to antagonize Aunty, hear?”
Atticus’s remarks were still rankling, which made me miss the request in Jem’s
question. My feathers rose again. “You tryin‘ to tell me what to do?”
“Naw, it’s—he’s got a lot on his mind now, without us worrying him.”
“Like what?” Atticus didn’t appear to have anything especially on his mind.
“It’s this Tom Robinson case that’s worryin‘ him to death—”
I said Atticus didn’t worry about anything. Besides, the case never bothered us
except about once a week and then it didn’t last.
“That’s because you can’t hold something in your mind but a little while,” said
Jem. “It’s different with grown folks, we—”
His maddening superiority was unbearable these days. He didn’t want to do
anything but read and go off by himself. Still, everything he read he passed along
to me, but with this difference: formerly, because he thought I’d like it; now, for
my edification and instruction.
“Jee crawling hova, Jem! Who do you think you are?”
“Now I mean it, Scout, you antagonize Aunty and I’ll—I’ll spank you.”
With that, I was gone. “You damn morphodite, I’ll kill you!” He was sitting on
the bed, and it was easy to grab his front hair and land one on his mouth. He
slapped me and I tried another left, but a punch in the stomach sent me sprawling
on the floor. It nearly knocked the breath out of me, but it didn’t matter because I
knew he was fighting, he was fighting me back. We were still equals.
“Ain’t so high and mighty now, are you!” I screamed, sailing in again. He was
still on the bed and I couldn’t get a firm stance, so I threw myself at him as hard
as I could, hitting, pulling, pinching, gouging. What had begun as a fist-fight
became a brawl. We were still struggling when Atticus separated us.
“That’s all,” he said. “Both of you go to bed right now.”
“Taah!” I said at Jem. He was being sent to bed at my bedtime.
“Who started it?” asked Atticus, in resignation.
“Jem did. He was tryin‘ to tell me what to do. I don’t have to mind him now, do
I?”
Atticus smiled. “Let’s leave it at this: you mind Jem whenever he can make you.
Fair enough?”
Aunt Alexandra was present but silent, and when she went down the hall with
Atticus we heard her say, “...just one of the things I’ve been telling you about,” a
phrase that united us again.
Ours were adjoining rooms; as I shut the door between them Jem said, “Night,
Scout.”
“Night,” I murmured, picking my way across the room to turn on the light. As I
passed the bed I stepped on something warm, resilient, and rather smooth. It was
not quite like hard rubber, and I had the sensation that it was alive. I also heard it
move.
I switched on the light and looked at the floor by the bed. Whatever I had stepped
on was gone. I tapped on Jem’s door.
“What,” he said.
“How does a snake feel?”
“Sort of rough. Cold. Dusty. Why?”
“I think there’s one under my bed. Can you come look?”
“Are you bein‘ funny?” Jem opened the door. He was in his pajama bottoms. I
noticed not without satisfaction that the mark of my knuckles was still on his
mouth. When he saw I meant what I said, he said, “If you think I’m gonna put my
face down to a snake you’ve got another think comin’. Hold on a minute.”
He went to the kitchen and fetched the broom. “You better get up on the bed,” he
said.
“You reckon it’s really one?” I asked. This was an occasion. Our houses had no
cellars; they were built on stone blocks a few feet above the ground, and the entry
of reptiles was not unknown but was not commonplace. Miss Rachel Haverford’s
excuse for a glass of neat whiskey every morning was that she never got over the
fright of finding a rattler coiled in her bedroom closet, on her washing, when she
went to hang up her negligee.
Jem made a tentative swipe under the bed. I looked over the foot to see if a snake
would come out. None did. Jem made a deeper swipe.
“Do snakes grunt?”
“It ain’t a snake,” Jem said. “It’s somebody.”
Suddenly a filthy brown package shot from under the bed. Jem raised the broom
and missed Dill’s head by an inch when it appeared.
“God Almighty.” Jem’s voice was reverent.
We watched Dill emerge by degrees. He was a tight fit. He stood up and eased his
shoulders, turned his feet in their ankle sockets, rubbed the back of his neck. His
circulation restored, he said, “Hey.”
Jem petitioned God again. I was speechless.
“I’m ‘bout to perish,” said Dill. “Got anything to eat?”
In a dream, I went to the kitchen. I brought him back some milk and half a pan of
corn bread left over from supper. Dill devoured it, chewing with his front teeth, as
was his custom.
I finally found my voice. “How’d you get here?”
By an involved route. Refreshed by food, Dill recited this narrative: having been
bound in chains and left to die in the basement (there were basements in
Meridian) by his new father, who disliked him, and secretly kept alive on raw
field peas by a passing farmer who heard his cries for help (the good man poked a
bushel pod by pod through the ventilator), Dill worked himself free by pulling the
chains from the wall. Still in wrist manacles, he wandered two miles out of
Meridian where he discovered a small animal show and was immediately engaged
to wash the camel. He traveled with the show all over Mississippi until his
infallible sense of direction told him he was in Abbott County, Alabama, just
across the river from Maycomb. He walked the rest of the way.
“How’d you get here?” asked Jem.
He had taken thirteen dollars from his mother’s purse, caught the nine o’clock
from Meridian and got off at Maycomb Junction. He had walked ten or eleven of
the fourteen miles to Maycomb, off the highway in the scrub bushes lest the
authorities be seeking him, and had ridden the remainder of the way clinging to
the backboard of a cotton wagon. He had been under the bed for two hours, he
thought; he had heard us in the diningroom, and the clink of forks on plates nearly
drove him crazy. He thought Jem and I would never go to bed; he had considered
emerging and helping me beat Jem, as Jem had grown far taller, but he knew Mr.
Finch would break it up soon, so he thought it best to stay where he was. He was
worn out, dirty beyond belief, and home.
“They must not know you’re here,” said Jem. “We’d know if they were lookin‘
for you...”
“Think they’re still searchin‘ all the picture shows in Meridian.” Dill grinned.
“You oughta let your mother know where you are,” said Jem. “You oughta let her
know you’re here...”
Dill’s eyes flickered at Jem, and Jem looked at the floor. Then he rose and broke
the remaining code of our childhood. He went out of the room and down the hall.
“Atticus,” his voice was distant, “can you come here a minute, sir?”
Beneath its sweat-streaked dirt Dill’s face went white. I felt sick. Atticus was in
the doorway.
He came to the middle of the room and stood with his hands in his pockets,
looking down at Dill.
I finally found my voice: “It’s okay, Dill. When he wants you to know somethin‘,
he tells you.”
Dill looked at me. “I mean it’s all right,” I said. “You know he wouldn’t bother
you, you know you ain’t scared of Atticus.”
“I’m not scared...” Dill muttered.
“Just hungry, I’ll bet.” Atticus’s voice had its usual pleasant dryness. “Scout, we
can do better than a pan of cold corn bread, can’t we? You fill this fellow up and
when I get back we’ll see what we can see.”
“Mr. Finch, don’t tell Aunt Rachel, don’t make me go back, please sir! I’ll run off
again—!”
“Whoa, son,” said Atticus. “Nobody’s about to make you go anywhere but to bed
pretty soon. I’m just going over to tell Miss Rachel you’re here and ask her if you
could spend the night with us—you’d like that, wouldn’t you? And for goodness’
sake put some of the county back where it belongs, the soil erosion’s bad enough
as it is.”
Dill stared at my father’s retreating figure.
“He’s tryin‘ to be funny,” I said. “He means take a bath. See there, I told you he
wouldn’t bother you.”
Jem was standing in a corner of the room, looking like the traitor he was. “Dill, I
had to tell him,” he said. “You can’t run three hundred miles off without your
mother knowin‘.”
We left him without a word.
Dill ate, and ate, and ate. He hadn’t eaten since last night. He used all his money
for a ticket, boarded the train as he had done many times, coolly chatted with the
conductor, to whom Dill was a familiar sight, but he had not the nerve to invoke
the rule on small children traveling a distance alone if you’ve lost your money the
conductor will lend you enough for dinner and your father will pay him back at
the end of the line.
Dill made his way through the leftovers and was reaching for a can of pork and
beans in the pantry when Miss Rachel’s Do-oo Je-sus went off in the hall. He
shivered like a rabbit.
He bore with fortitude her Wait Till I Get You Home, Your Folks Are Out of
Their Minds Worryin‘, was quite calm during That’s All the Harris in You
Coming Out, smiled at her Reckon You Can Stay One Night, and returned the
hug at long last bestowed upon him.
Atticus pushed up his glasses and rubbed his face.
“Your father’s tired,” said Aunt Alexandra, her first words in hours, it seemed.
She had been there, but I suppose struck dumb most of the time. “You children
get to bed now.”
We left them in the diningroom, Atticus still mopping his face. “From rape to riot
to runaways,” we heard him chuckle. “I wonder what the next two hours will
bring.”
Since things appeared to have worked out pretty well, Dill and I decided to be
civil to Jem. Besides, Dill had to sleep with him so we might as well speak to him.
I put on my pajamas, read for a while and found myself suddenly unable to keep
my eyes open. Dill and Jem were quiet; when I turned off my reading lamp there
was no strip of light under the door to Jem’s room.
I must have slept a long time, for when I was punched awake the room was dim
with the light of the setting moon.
“Move over, Scout.”
“He thought he had to,” I mumbled. “Don’t stay mad with him.”
Dill got in bed beside me. “I ain’t,” he said. “I just wanted to sleep with you. Are
you waked up?”
By this time I was, but lazily so. “Why’d you do it?”
No answer. “I said why’d you run off? Was he really hateful like you said?”
“Naw...”
“Didn’t you all build that boat like you wrote you were gonna?”
“He just said we would. We never did.”
I raised up on my elbow, facing Dill’s outline. “It’s no reason to run off. They
don’t get around to doin‘ what they say they’re gonna do half the time...”
“That wasn’t it, he—they just wasn’t interested in me.”
This was the weirdest reason for flight I had ever heard. “How come?”
“Well, they stayed gone all the time, and when they were home, even, they’d get
off in a room by themselves.”
“What’d they do in there?”
“Nothin‘, just sittin’ and readin‘—but they didn’t want me with ’em.”
I pushed the pillow to the headboard and sat up. “You know something? I was
fixin‘ to run off tonight because there they all were. You don’t want ’em around
you all the time, Dill—”
Dill breathed his patient breath, a half-sigh.
“—good night, Atticus’s gone all day and sometimes half the night and off in the
legislature and I don’t know what—you don’t want ‘em around all the time, Dill,
you couldn’t do anything if they were.”
“That’s not it.”
As Dill explained, I found myself wondering what life would be if Jem were
different, even from what he was now; what I would do if Atticus did not feel the
necessity of my presence, help and advice. Why, he couldn’t get along a day
without me. Even Calpurnia couldn’t get along unless I was there. They needed
me.
“Dill, you ain’t telling me right—your folks couldn’t do without you. They must
be just mean to you. Tell you what to do about that—”
Dill’s voice went on steadily in the darkness: “The thing is, what I’m tryin‘ to say
is—they do get on a lot better without me, I can’t help them any. They ain’t mean.
They buy me everything I want, but it’s now—you’ve-got-it-go-play-with-it.
You’ve got a roomful of things. I-got-you-that-book-so-go-read-it.” Dill tried to
deepen his voice. “You’re not a boy. Boys get out and play baseball with other
boys, they don’t hang around the house worryin’ their folks.”
Dill’s voice was his own again: “Oh, they ain’t mean. They kiss you and hug you
good night and good mornin‘ and good-bye and tell you they love you—Scout,
let’s get us a baby.”
“Where?”
There was a man Dill had heard of who had a boat that he rowed across to a foggy
island where all these babies were; you could order one—
“That’s a lie. Aunty said God drops ‘em down the chimney. At least that’s what I
think she said.” For once, Aunty’s diction had not been too clear.
“Well that ain’t so. You get babies from each other. But there’s this man, too—he
has all these babies just waitin‘ to wake up, he breathes life into ’em...”
Dill was off again. Beautiful things floated around in his dreamy head. He could
read two books to my one, but he preferred the magic of his own inventions. He
could add and subtract faster than lightning, but he preferred his own twilight
world, a world where babies slept, waiting to be gathered like morning lilies. He
was slowly talking himself to sleep and taking me with him, but in the quietness
of his foggy island there rose the faded image of a gray house with sad brown
doors.
“Dill?”
“Mm?”
“Why do you reckon Boo Radley’s never run off?”
Dill sighed a long sigh and turned away from me.
“Maybe he doesn’t have anywhere to run off to...”
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Chapter 15
After many telephone calls, much pleading on behalf of the defendant, and a long
forgiving letter from his mother, it was decided that Dill could stay. We had a
week of peace together. After that, little, it seemed. A nightmare was upon us.
It began one evening after supper. Dill was over; Aunt Alexandra was in her chair
in the corner, Atticus was in his; Jem and I were on the floor reading. It had been
a placid week: I had minded Aunty; Jem had outgrown the treehouse, but helped
Dill and me construct a new rope ladder for it; Dill had hit upon a foolproof plan
to make Boo Radley come out at no cost to ourselves (place a trail of lemon drops
from the back door to the front yard and he’d follow it, like an ant). There was a
knock on the front door, Jem answered it and said it was Mr. Heck Tate.
“Well, ask him to come in,” said Atticus.
“I already did. There’s some men outside in the yard, they want you to come out.”
In Maycomb, grown men stood outside in the front yard for only two reasons:
death and politics. I wondered who had died. Jem and I went to the front door, but
Atticus called, “Go back in the house.”
Jem turned out the livingroom lights and pressed his nose to a window screen.
Aunt Alexandra protested. “Just for a second, Aunty, let’s see who it is,” he said.
Dill and I took another window. A crowd of men was standing around Atticus.
They all seemed to be talking at once.
“...movin‘ him to the county jail tomorrow,” Mr. Tate was saying, “I don’t look
for any trouble, but I can’t guarantee there won’t be be any...”
“Don’t be foolish, Heck,” Atticus said. “This is Maycomb.”
“...said I was just uneasy.”
“Heck, we’ve gotten one postponement of this case just to make sure there’s
nothing to be uneasy about. This is Saturday,” Atticus said. “Trial’ll probably be
Monday. You can keep him one night, can’t you? I don’t think anybody in
Maycomb’ll begrudge me a client, with times this hard.”
There was a murmur of glee that died suddenly when Mr. Link Deas said,
“Nobody around here’s up to anything, it’s that Old Sarum bunch I’m worried
about... can’t you get a—what is it, Heck?”
“Change of venue,” said Mr. Tate. “Not much point in that, now is it?”
Atticus said something inaudible. I turned to Jem, who waved me to silence.
“—besides,” Atticus was saying, “you’re not scared of that crowd, are you?”
“...know how they do when they get shinnied up.”
“They don’t usually drink on Sunday, they go to church most of the day...”
Atticus said.
“This is a special occasion, though...” someone said.
They murmured and buzzed until Aunty said if Jem didn’t turn on the livingroom
lights he would disgrace the family. Jem didn’t hear her.
“—don’t see why you touched it in the first place,” Mr. Link Deas was saying.
“You’ve got everything to lose from this, Atticus. I mean everything.”
“Do you really think so?”
This was Atticus’s dangerous question. “Do you really think you want to move
there, Scout?” Bam, bam, bam, and the checkerboard was swept clean of my men.
“Do you really think that, son? Then read this.” Jem would struggle the rest of an
evening through the speeches of Henry W. Grady.
“Link, that boy might go to the chair, but he’s not going till the truth’s told.”
Atticus’s voice was even. “And you know what the truth is.”
There was a murmur among the group of men, made more ominous when Atticus
moved back to the bottom front step and the men drew nearer to him.
Suddenly Jem screamed, “Atticus, the telephone’s ringing!”
The men jumped a little and scattered; they were people we saw every day:
merchants, in-town farmers; Dr. Reynolds was there; so was Mr. Avery.
“Well, answer it, son,” called Atticus.
Laughter broke them up. When Atticus switched on the overhead light in the
livingroom he found Jem at the window, pale except for the vivid mark of the
screen on his nose.
“Why on earth are you all sitting in the dark?” he asked.
Jem watched him go to his chair and pick up the evening paper. I sometimes think
Atticus subjected every crisis of his life to tranquil evaluation behind The Mobile
Register, The Birmingham News and The Montgomery Advertiser.
“They were after you, weren’t they?” Jem went to him. “They wanted to get you,
didn’t they?”
Atticus lowered the paper and gazed at Jem. “What have you been reading?” he
asked. Then he said gently, “No son, those were our friends.”
“It wasn’t a—a gang?” Jem was looking from the corners of his eyes.
Atticus tried to stifle a smile but didn’t make it. “No, we don’t have mobs and that
nonsense in Maycomb. I’ve never heard of a gang in Maycomb.”
“Ku Klux got after some Catholics one time.”
“Never heard of any Catholics in Maycomb either,” said Atticus, “you’re
confusing that with something else. Way back about nineteen-twenty there was a
Klan, but it was a political organization more than anything. Besides, they
couldn’t find anybody to scare. They paraded by Mr. Sam Levy’s house one
night, but Sam just stood on his porch and told ‘em things had come to a pretty
pass, he’d sold ’em the very sheets on their backs. Sam made ‘em so ashamed of
themselves they went away.”
The Levy family met all criteria for being Fine Folks: they did the best they could
with the sense they had, and they had been living on the same plot of ground in
Maycomb for five generations.
“The Ku Klux’s gone,” said Atticus. “It’ll never come back.”
I walked home with Dill and returned in time to overhear Atticus saying to Aunty,
“...in favor of Southern womanhood as much as anybody, but not for preserving
polite fiction at the expense of human life,” a pronouncement that made me
suspect they had been fussing again.
I sought Jem and found him in his room, on the bed deep in thought. “Have they
been at it?” I asked.
“Sort of. She won’t let him alone about Tom Robinson. She almost said Atticus
was disgracin‘ the family. Scout... I’m scared.”
“Scared’a what?”
“Scared about Atticus. Somebody might hurt him.” Jem preferred to remain
mysterious; all he would say to my questions was go on and leave him alone.
Next day was Sunday. In the interval between Sunday School and Church when
the congregation stretched its legs, I saw Atticus standing in the yard with another
knot of men. Mr. Heck Tate was present, and I wondered if he had seen the light.
He never went to church. Even Mr. Underwood was there. Mr. Underwood had
no use for any organization but The Maycomb Tribune, of which he was the sole
owner, editor, and printer. His days were spent at his linotype, where he refreshed
himself occasionally from an ever-present gallon jug of cherry wine. He rarely
gathered news; people brought it to him. It was said that he made up every edition
of The Maycomb Tribune out of his own head and wrote it down on the linotype.
This was believable. Something must have been up to haul Mr. Underwood out.
I caught Atticus coming in the door, and he said that they’d moved Tom Robinson
to the Maycomb jail. He also said, more to himself than to me, that if they’d kept
him there in the first place there wouldn’t have been any fuss. I watched him take
his seat on the third row from the front, and I heard him rumble, “Nearer my God
to thee,” some notes behind the rest of us. He never sat with Aunty, Jem and me.
He liked to be by himself in church.
The fake peace that prevailed on Sundays was made more irritating by Aunt
Alexandra’s presence. Atticus would flee to his office directly after dinner, where
if we sometimes looked in on him, we would find him sitting back in his swivel
chair reading. Aunt Alexandra composed herself for a two-hour nap and dared us
to make any noise in the yard, the neighborhood was resting. Jem in his old age
had taken to his room with a stack of football magazines. So Dill and I spent our
Sundays creeping around in Deer’s Pasture.
Shooting on Sundays was prohibited, so Dill and I kicked Jem’s football around
the pasture for a while, which was no fun. Dill asked if I’d like to have a poke at
Boo Radley. I said I didn’t think it’d be nice to bother him, and spent the rest of
the afternoon filling Dill in on last winter’s events. He was considerably
impressed.
We parted at suppertime, and after our meal Jem and I were settling down to a
routine evening, when Atticus did something that interested us: he came into the
livingroom carrying a long electrical extension cord. There was a light bulb on the
end.
“I’m going out for a while,” he said. “You folks’ll be in bed when I come back, so
I’ll say good night now.”
With that, he put his hat on and went out the back door.
“He’s takin‘ the car,” said Jem.
Our father had a few peculiarities: one was, he never ate desserts; another was
that he liked to walk. As far back as I could remember, there was always a
Chevrolet in excellent condition in the carhouse, and Atticus put many miles on it
in business trips, but in Maycomb he walked to and from his office four times a
day, covering about two miles. He said his only exercise was walking. In
Maycomb, if one went for a walk with no definite purpose in mind, it was correct
to believe one’s mind incapable of definite purpose.
Later on, I bade my aunt and brother good night and was well into a book when I
heard Jem rattling around in his room. His go-to-bed noises were so familiar to
me that I knocked on his door: “Why ain’t you going to bed?”
“I’m goin‘ downtown for a while.” He was changing his pants.
“Why? It’s almost ten o’clock, Jem.”
He knew it, but he was going anyway.
“Then I’m goin‘ with you. If you say no you’re not, I’m goin’ anyway, hear?”
Jem saw that he would have to fight me to keep me home, and I suppose he
thought a fight would antagonize Aunty, so he gave in with little grace.
I dressed quickly. We waited until Aunty’s light went out, and we walked quietly
down the back steps. There was no moon tonight.
“Dill’ll wanta come,” I whispered.
“So he will,” said Jem gloomily.
We leaped over the driveway wall, cut through Miss Rachel’s side yard and went
to Dill’s window. Jem whistled bob-white. Dill’s face appeared at the screen,
disappeared, and five minutes later he unhooked the screen and crawled out. An
old campaigner, he did not speak until we were on the sidewalk. “What’s up?”
“Jem’s got the look-arounds,” an affliction Calpurnia said all boys caught at his
age.
“I’ve just got this feeling,” Jem said, “just this feeling.”
We went by Mrs. Dubose’s house, standing empty and shuttered, her camellias
grown up in weeds and johnson grass. There were eight more houses to the post
office corner.
The south side of the square was deserted. Giant monkey-puzzle bushes bristled
on each corner, and between them an iron hitching rail glistened under the street
lights. A light shone in the county toilet, otherwise that side of the courthouse was
dark. A larger square of stores surrounded the courthouse square; dim lights
burned from deep within them.
Atticus’s office was in the courthouse when he began his law practice, but after
several years of it he moved to quieter quarters in the Maycomb Bank building.
When we rounded the corner of the square, we saw the car parked in front of the
bank. “He’s in there,” said Jem.
But he wasn’t. His office was reached by a long hallway. Looking down the hall,
we should have seen Atticus Finch, Attorney-at-Law in small sober letters against
the light from behind his door. It was dark.
Jem peered in the bank door to make sure. He turned the knob. The door was
locked. “Let’s go up the street. Maybe he’s visitin‘ Mr. Underwood.”
Mr. Underwood not only ran The Maycomb Tribune office, he lived in it. That is,
above it. He covered the courthouse and jailhouse news simply by looking out his
upstairs window. The office building was on the northwest corner of the square,
and to reach it we had to pass the jail.
The Maycomb jail was the most venerable and hideous of the county’s buildings.
Atticus said it was like something Cousin Joshua St. Clair might have designed. It
was certainly someone’s dream. Starkly out of place in a town of square-faced
stores and steep-roofed houses, the Maycomb jail was a miniature Gothic joke
one cell wide and two cells high, complete with tiny battlements and flying
buttresses. Its fantasy was heightened by its red brick facade and the thick steel
bars at its ecclesiastical windows. It stood on no lonely hill, but was wedged
between Tyndal’s Hardware Store and The Maycomb Tribune office. The jail was
Maycomb’s only conversation piece: its detractors said it looked like a Victorian
privy; its supporters said it gave the town a good solid respectable look, and no
stranger would ever suspect that it was full of niggers.
As we walked up the sidewalk, we saw a solitary light burning in the distance.
“That’s funny,” said Jem, “jail doesn’t have an outside light.”
“Looks like it’s over the door,” said Dill.
A long extension cord ran between the bars of a second-floor window and down
the side of the building. In the light from its bare bulb, Atticus was sitting propped
against the front door. He was sitting in one of his office chairs, and he was
reading, oblivious of the nightbugs dancing over his head.
I made to run, but Jem caught me. “Don’t go to him,” he said, “he might not like
it. He’s all right, let’s go home. I just wanted to see where he was.”
We were taking a short cut across the square when four dusty cars came in from
the Meridian highway, moving slowly in a line. They went around the square,
passed the bank building, and stopped in front of the jail.
Nobody got out. We saw Atticus look up from his newspaper. He closed it, folded
it deliberately, dropped it in his lap, and pushed his hat to the back of his head. He
seemed to be expecting them.
“Come on,” whispered Jem. We streaked across the square, across the street, until
we were in the shelter of the Jitney Jungle door. Jem peeked up the sidewalk. “We
can get closer,” he said. We ran to Tyndal’s Hardware door—near enough, at the
same time discreet.
In ones and twos, men got out of the cars. Shadows became substance as lights
revealed solid shapes moving toward the jail door. Atticus remained where he
was. The men hid him from view.
“He in there, Mr. Finch?” a man said.
“He is,” we heard Atticus answer, “and he’s asleep. Don’t wake him up.”
In obedience to my father, there followed what I later realized was a sickeningly
comic aspect of an unfunny situation: the men talked in near-whispers.
“You know what we want,” another man said. “Get aside from the door, Mr.
Finch.”
“You can turn around and go home again, Walter,” Atticus said pleasantly. “Heck
Tate’s around somewhere.”
“The hell he is,” said another man. “Heck’s bunch’s so deep in the woods they
won’t get out till mornin‘.”
“Indeed? Why so?”
“Called ‘em off on a snipe hunt,” was the succinct answer. “Didn’t you think
a’that, Mr. Finch?”
“Thought about it, but didn’t believe it. Well then,” my father’s voice was still the
same, “that changes things, doesn’t it?”
“It do,” another deep voice said. Its owner was a shadow.
“Do you really think so?”
This was the second time I heard Atticus ask that question in two days, and it
meant somebody’s man would get jumped. This was too good to miss. I broke
away from Jem and ran as fast as I could to Atticus.
Jem shrieked and tried to catch me, but I had a lead on him and Dill. I pushed my
way through dark smelly bodies and burst into the circle of light.
“H-ey, Atticus!”
I thought he would have a fine surprise, but his face killed my joy. A flash of
plain fear was going out of his eyes, but returned when Dill and Jem wriggled into
the light.
There was a smell of stale whiskey and pigpen about, and when I glanced around
I discovered that these men were strangers. They were not the people I saw last
night. Hot embarrassment shot through me: I had leaped triumphantly into a ring
of people I had never seen before.
Atticus got up from his chair, but he was moving slowly, like an old man. He put
the newspaper down very carefully, adjusting its creases with lingering fingers.
They were trembling a little.
“Go home, Jem,” he said. “Take Scout and Dill home.”
We were accustomed to prompt, if not always cheerful acquiescence to Atticus’s
instructions, but from the way he stood Jem was not thinking of budging.
“Go home, I said.”
Jem shook his head. As Atticus’s fists went to his hips, so did Jem’s, and as they
faced each other I could see little resemblance between them: Jem’s soft brown
hair and eyes, his oval face and snug-fitting ears were our mother’s, contrasting
oddly with Atticus’s graying black hair and square-cut features, but they were
somehow alike. Mutual defiance made them alike.
“Son, I said go home.”
Jem shook his head.
“I’ll send him home,” a burly man said, and grabbed Jem roughly by the collar.
He yanked Jem nearly off his feet.
“Don’t you touch him!” I kicked the man swiftly. Barefooted, I was surprised to
see him fall back in real pain. I intended to kick his shin, but aimed too high.
“That’ll do, Scout.” Atticus put his hand on my shoulder. “Don’t kick folks. No
—” he said, as I was pleading justification.
“Ain’t nobody gonna do Jem that way,” I said.
“All right, Mr. Finch, get ‘em outa here,” someone growled. “You got fifteen
seconds to get ’em outa here.”
In the midst of this strange assembly, Atticus stood trying to make Jem mind him.
“I ain’t going,” was his steady answer to Atticus’s threats, requests, and finally,
“Please Jem, take them home.”
I was getting a bit tired of that, but felt Jem had his own reasons for doing as he
did, in view of his prospects once Atticus did get him home. I looked around the
crowd. It was a summer’s night, but the men were dressed, most of them, in
overalls and denim shirts buttoned up to the collars. I thought they must be cold-
natured, as their sleeves were unrolled and buttoned at the cuffs. Some wore hats
pulled firmly down over their ears. They were sullen-looking, sleepy-eyed men
who seemed unused to late hours. I sought once more for a familiar face, and at
the center of the semi-circle I found one.
“Hey, Mr. Cunningham.”
The man did not hear me, it seemed.
“Hey, Mr. Cunningham. How’s your entailment gettin‘ along?”
Mr. Walter Cunningham’s legal affairs were well known to me; Atticus had once
described them at length. The big man blinked and hooked his thumbs in his
overall straps. He seemed uncomfortable; he cleared his throat and looked away.
My friendly overture had fallen flat.
Mr. Cunningham wore no hat, and the top half of his forehead was white in
contrast to his sunscorched face, which led me to believe that he wore one most
days. He shifted his feet, clad in heavy work shoes.
“Don’t you remember me, Mr. Cunningham? I’m Jean Louise Finch. You brought
us some hickory nuts one time, remember?” I began to sense the futility one feels
when unacknowledged by a chance acquaintance.
“I go to school with Walter,” I began again. “He’s your boy, ain’t he? Ain’t he,
sir?”
Mr. Cunningham was moved to a faint nod. He did know me, after all.
“He’s in my grade,” I said, “and he does right well. He’s a good boy,” I added, “a
real nice boy. We brought him home for dinner one time. Maybe he told you
about me, I beat him up one time but he was real nice about it. Tell him hey for
me, won’t you?”
Atticus had said it was the polite thing to talk to people about what they were
interested in, not about what you were interested in. Mr. Cunningham displayed
no interest in his son, so I tackled his entailment once more in a last-ditch effort to
make him feel at home.
“Entailments are bad,” I was advising him, when I slowly awoke to the fact that I
was addressing the entire aggregation. The men were all looking at me, some had
their mouths half-open. Atticus had stopped poking at Jem: they were standing
together beside Dill. Their attention amounted to fascination. Atticus’s mouth,
even, was half-open, an attitude he had once described as uncouth. Our eyes met
and he shut it.
“Well, Atticus, I was just sayin‘ to Mr. Cunningham that entailments are bad an’
all that, but you said not to worry, it takes a long time sometimes... that you all’d
ride it out together...” I was slowly drying up, wondering what idiocy I had
committed. Entailments seemed all right enough for livingroom talk.
I began to feel sweat gathering at the edges of my hair; I could stand anything but
a bunch of people looking at me. They were quite still.
“What’s the matter?” I asked.
Atticus said nothing. I looked around and up at Mr. Cunningham, whose face was
equally impassive. Then he did a peculiar thing. He squatted down and took me
by both shoulders.
“I’ll tell him you said hey, little lady,” he said.
Then he straightened up and waved a big paw. “Let’s clear out,” he called. “Let’s
get going, boys.”
As they had come, in ones and twos the men shuffled back to their ramshackle
cars. Doors slammed, engines coughed, and they were gone.
I turned to Atticus, but Atticus had gone to the jail and was leaning against it with
his face to the wall. I went to him and pulled his sleeve. “Can we go home now?”
He nodded, produced his handkerchief, gave his face a going-over and blew his
nose violently.
“Mr. Finch?”
A soft husky voice came from the darkness above: “They gone?”
Atticus stepped back and looked up. “They’ve gone,” he said. “Get some sleep,
Tom. They won’t bother you any more.”
From a different direction, another voice cut crisply through the night: “You’re
damn tootin‘ they won’t. Had you covered all the time, Atticus.”
Mr. Underwood and a double-barreled shotgun were leaning out his window
above The Maycomb Tribune office.
It was long past my bedtime and I was growing quite tired; it seemed that Atticus
and Mr. Underwood would talk for the rest of the night, Mr. Underwood out the
window and Atticus up at him. Finally Atticus returned, switched off the light
above the jail door, and picked up his chair.
“Can I carry it for you, Mr. Finch?” asked Dill. He had not said a word the whole
time.
“Why, thank you, son.”
Walking toward the office, Dill and I fell into step behind Atticus and Jem. Dill
was encumbered by the chair, and his pace was slower. Atticus and Jem were well
ahead of us, and I assumed that Atticus was giving him hell for not going home,
but I was wrong. As they passed under a streetlight, Atticus reached out and
massaged Jem’s hair, his one gesture of affection.
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